holyself callout
TW for: grooming, drug/substance abuse, manipulation, transphobia, talk of serial killers, mentions of intrusive thoughts regarding necrophilia
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1a371AGas7x1S26T0mv4aFI3zN61XbnL-VrGO8fLpdF0/edit?usp=sharing
tl;dr under the cut
I met Josh when I was 15, and he was 17. I asked him out thinking he was still 17, since he lied about his birthday to me. Throughout the years that I've known him, he has been incredibly manipulative and has groomed me in various ways: he has been romantic and sexual with me before and after I turned 18, he wanted me to move to France so I would be physically dependent on him, exposed me to things no kid should be around, etc.
He took advantage of my BPD, my intrusive thoughts, and lied to me about a lot of things. My family, friends, and multiple medical professionals in my life have all confirmed that his behavior is and always has been predatory.
He was called out previously in 2019 for grooming me, and I unfortunately defended him against this due to how groomed I was.
He has also:
purposely avoided disclosing whether he is transfeminine or transmasculine, while speaking over transfeminine people (he is AFAB)
made jokes about racefaking as Brazilian despite admitting to not being Brazilian
said he is indigenous so it's okay for him to like Until Dawn, even though he has been vague about his race publicly and is most likely not Native American
mocked someone who pointed out that he is white-passing at least
mocked someone who was upset he deleted posts about him being transmisogynistic
allegedly said that we began dating when he was 16 and we broke up when he turned 18
allegedly called me obsessive, exhausting, and controlling, comparing me to a "child following him around"
admitted to deleting posts, including all posts on his blairwitchs blog before 2020
claimed he is not an influencer because he's a "kinnie with only 5k followers" despite the fact most of his followers are impressionable minors
talked about obsessing over people
talked about specifically enjoying hanging out with "cluster Bs" despite not being cluster B himself
made jokes about being factkin to a serial killer
actually factkinned and read RPF involving said kin (Eduardo from The Social Network)