Making Love To Memories

~In Limbo~

[joshdislikesyou]

To this day I can’t help myself but wander if you think about me still

[joshdislikesyou]

I’m too much work for anyone to deal with anyway

[joshdislikesyou]

Come back

I don't belong here

[joshdislikesyou]

Tempted by desire

And the urge to feel alive

[joshdislikesyou]

I'll always be second best

[joshdislikesyou]

I just want to feel like I exist

[joshdislikesyou]

Literally turn my back for a second and I hear you talking shit about me.

[joshdislikesyou]

I literally can't do anything anymore without running and crying like the pathetic piece of shit I am

[joshdislikesyou]

The drugs don't work, they just make you worse

I see things out of the corner of my eye. I see people behind me. Everyone's watching me and nobody's looking. I'm reaching the end of the road.

[joshdislikesyou]

I can't deal with this tension in my body anymore

It's like I need to writhe and fit and throw my body like a rag doll

[joshdislikesyou]

After nearly 20 years I've finally let go if this place and the people in it. It's all just turned to sour memories and flashback. I don't want to be here anymore than I have to be

[joshdislikesyou]

And the cracks begin to form

[joshdislikesyou]

Get me away from here

None of this is real.

[joshdislikesyou]

I'll never be good enough and I'm driving myself to death trying to be.

[joshdislikesyou]

Finally making tracks in a place that I love surrounded by some of the best people I could've ever been lucky enough to meet. The time will be soon

[joshdislikesyou]

They said I looked happy.

[joshdislikesyou]

I did well today