journals and me

i’ll be posting some journal entries. some poems. and maybe some spn memes. sorry

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she said she never actually liked me so there’s that. why do I fuck up every single thing that i do

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who tf knew

i had a best friend for a long time, like a year, which is the longest time i have ever had a best friend. and now she is my girlfriend. feb. 16, 2021 is the day we started dating. i cant believe i literally have a gf, not to mention she is my best friend. 

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#not pro just using tags is the FUNNIEST hashtag to exist in my opinion.

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am i even human? or am i just some bizzarre creature with this fake, inane imagination. who knows. maybe i am really just dead and this person im fting is a figment of my imagination. either way, i dont see myself living past this age of 16

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sorry, forgot this social media even existed

ugh, I just dont even know what do with any of shit shit anymore. i feel like all this stuff happened to me, but the truth is i feel like i also may have made it all up. i talked to my bsf about what happened and she said, if that had happened to me, would you think it was serious? of course, i said yes. but i cant get over the fact that, it most likely was made up. right?

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anorexia. it always wins.

i just can’t do this. how am i supposed to even recover. i don’t want to. all i want is to eat as little as possible. loose weight. it’s all i think about. everyday. just please let me. why won’t you let me.

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