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23 | Gloucestershire, United Kingdom | I gravitates towards my intuition |

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My 1st born turned 1 🥰💕 Always remember that Mommy and Daddy will always be with you no matter what. We Love you ∞!! 💕 #RaejanLaziosiTurned1 #RaejanAt13kgs https://www.instagram.com/p/CFF9uaLlr5Z/?igshid=1slfg5n60sxj5

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Sharing another video of my bochog! If he wasn't cute enough for you, I don't know what is. Hahaha jk just really wanted to share his kakulitan!! We Love You So Much Bochog!! 😍😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/CDOayk9hcrc/?igshid=1h5yxv78kibq3

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Happy Father's Day Daddy!! Thank You for everything. Need not say every little thing that I'm thankful for cause I know that you already know them by heart. I'm so proud of what you've become now and I know that you're still growing and still getting better but know that you're already enough for me and Lazi. We Love You So Much!! You're the greatest!! 💕😘 (at Chipping Campden) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBuBHN1lUnc/?igshid=1s3fc3980gpiz

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Happy Father's Day Daddy!! Thank You for everything. Need not say every little thing that I'm thankful for cause I know that you already know them by heart. I'm so proud of what you've become now and I know that you're still growing and still getting better but know that you're already enough for me and Lazi. We Love You So Much!! You're the greatest!! 💕😘 (at Chipping Campden) https://www.instagram.com/p/CBt9JH3luHQ/?igshid=1aor7cwu2u65b

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Playtime with Daddy before bedtime 💕 #TamangPaawaMunaKayDaddy😂 #MangaasarMunaSiDaddy #Laziat30weeksand2days #BestActorsiLazi (at Chipping Campden) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-24ZydFfeu/?igshid=fcvf37q5prqr

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Just wanted to spread love out of all these chaos. Thankyou TiNang and PapaLolo for my pyjamas 💕 #Laziat27weeksand2days (at Chipping Campden, Cotswolds) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9_hPBuleTz/?igshid=1857ktt8km5wo

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Just wanted to share a clip of this little bochog who is turning 6 months old tomorrow! 💕 I Love You baby 😘🥰 (at Chipping Campden) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9l8JJSl2EQ/?igshid=shq8zzz7i7zt

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Back at it again. Sobrang sama ng loob. Hindi mailabas. Sobrang naipon na. Can't stop crying. Mapapamura ka na lang sa halo halong feelings mo.

Ayoko na.

Ang sarap pakinggan kapag pagod ka na. Ang daling sabihin kapag punong puno ka na. Pero napakahirap panindigan.

Lagi na lang mali. Lagi na lang siya ang tama. Lagi na lang ako ang hindi makaintindi. Lagi na lang ako DAW ang dahilan ng bawat away. Lahat ng sabihin ko hindi maganda. Lahat ng maisip ko sablay. Saan ba ako dapat lumugar? Parang walang karapatan yung puso't isip ko.

Kapag ba nawala ako mas mabuti?

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Happiest Birthday Love! Let us first thank God as he granted our wish last year that we are able to celebrate this day together today. May God continue to bless you and hoping that you get whatever your heart desires. Me and lazi are so thankful everyday because you are always there for us. Sorry for all my shortcomings and many more alam mo na yun. Hope you enjoy our small gathering for your first bday here in England. We Love you so much daddy!! 💕😘 (at Chipping Campden) https://www.instagram.com/p/B37z0PXldh6/?igshid=1m671h7cgrt9l

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The hardest thing in life is when you wanted or needed to talk to somebody but you dont have anyone to talk to or you dont know who to talk to

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Crying doesn't always mean you're weak. Sometimes it means you are so strong that tearing up suddenly means you've held unto your ground for a long time now. You've been telling yourself that you can do it, you can make it, you're a strong person and you'll be fine soon.

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What is Love without Trust

Ano nga ba ang pagmamahal kung wala naman tiwala. Paano kung paulit ulit mong binibigay yung tiwala pero paulit ulit ka din namang binibigo? Sabi nila, nababawasan ang pagmamahal kapag paulit ulit din sinisira ang tiwala mo. Ang ibig sabihin ba ay dadating ang panahon na gigising ka na lang na wala ng pagmamahal? Posible ba talaga na dadating ang araw at bigla mo na lang mararamdaman na wala ng natitira? Dahil lamang sa nawalang tiwala? Ito ang takot ng karamihan na hindi sana mangyari sa kanila. Pero paano kung nangyari na, ano nga ba ang dapat gawin? Bumitaw na lang? Tumigil na? Lumaya na? Sana. Hindi mangyari ang ganitong mga bagay sa mga taong totoong nagmamahal. Kasi nakakamatay. Buhay pa pero unti unti ng pinapatay ng sakit at pagkabigo.

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No end

Walang ending yung mga bagay sa buhay mo na paulit-ulit mong hinihiling na matapos na sana. Yung hirap, yung mga sakit. At ang pinakamasakit doon is yung fact na kailangan mo pa din magpatuloy at kailangan mo maging malakas. Kasi wala naman taong may pake sa pinagdadaanan mo. Wala naman taong maiisip tanungin yung bagay na matagal mo ng gustong marinig which is "kamusta ka na? Okay ka lang ba?". Wala din pahihinatnan yung nararamdaman mo na gusto mo ng sumuko na lang para matapos na yung lahat ng feelings dahil alam mo na mali. Kaya magmumukmok at mananahimik ka na lang sa isang tabi para palipasin na lang ulit. At paulit ulit mangyayari yon. Walang katapusan.....

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23rd 🥰🤷‍♀️🏝 (at Boracay Island) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuTgdt4nibK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1h8tiop33rza8

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No Instructions

You will know when you've had enough. If it was broken more than you can ever count, there is only a little chance that you can fix it. And sometimes, if it was broken the first time, there will never be a chance that you can ever fix it. That's the sad thing about life. There is no instructions, only broken promises, heartaches and pain. There is only learning and you can never go back to make things right.

At dadating ang araw na hihiling ka na sana nangyari na to noon pa so you could've chosen a different path. Sana. Paulit2 mong hihilingin na sana you wouldnt be feeling this now kung sana dati pa nangyari to, na sana noon pa nangyari to para hindi pa sana huli ang lahat. And it is true. Nasa huli ang pagsisisi totoo. I thought before na hindi totoo yun. Pero totoo pala. Sana ganito ako katapang noon. Sana hindi ako mahina noon. Sana malakas na loob ko noon pa para hindi na ako nahihirapan ngayon. Mga sana na hindi na kaya pang agapan. Mga sanang hindi na pwedeng mangyari.

Hindi na bali. Sabi nila lahat may hangganan. Walang paghihirap na hindi natatapos. Walang pasakit na hindi nawawala. Walang problemang hindi nareresolba. Pero ang hiling ko lang sana matapos na kaagad. Kaysa maunahan ako ng masamang pagiisip na tapusin na lang ang lahat.

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You..

Palagi.. palagi na lang kapag may nasabi against sayo. Galit ka. Palagi mo dinadaan sa galit para hindi na lumaban pa. Dinadaan mo palagi sa galit para hindi na maungkat kung ano pa man yung gusto pagusapan sayo. Ganyan na lang palagi. Hindi na magkausap ng maayos sa kadahilanan na kapag hindi mo nagustuhan yung paksa, gusto mo baliwalain na lang at ibaon sa limot.

Palagi.. palagi mong sinasabi na baliw ako, na ako lang ang ganito, na hindi ko katulad ang iba. Oo ako nga lang ang ganito, ako lang yung nakakaintindi sayo, ako lang yung iintindi sayo, ako lang ang magpapakumbaba sayo dahil hindi ako katulad ng iba. Pero hindi ako baliw. Sana dumating yung araw na makita mo yung totoo. Hindi yung palagi na lang magtatago sa likod ng lahat ng galit.

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Today marks our 1st Wedding Anniversary💕 Thank you for your love and patience. May we not get tired of each other, lalo na sa mga dadating pa na pagsubok sa atin at sa mga dadating pa na taon. Let us give thanks to God for everything that he has given us. I Love You So Much Daddy 😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/BsfEOMoHJ0_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=vo4jib70fxj4