Don't know what I'm doing anymore!

Hey there and welcome to my blog where I'll post whatever I make! Call me Nico and if anything feel free to ask me questions or send me requests! I'm 23 and I love my wife :] https://jpnico.carrd.co/

[jp-nico]

Blot

Inky hands that go to grab

How they offer such a treat

A temptation that calls forth

An awful poison hidden behind sweets

Don't trust the mime

Each intention is for the worst

Should you get any closer

Their claws will go for your throat 

Don't listen to the hidden lies

Follow the truth on the screen

The fall will happen with them

They'll show jealousy and green

Ask what went wrong

They'll speak silent truths

Don't believe the inky mime

He'll hurt and act aloof

[jp-nico]

The untitled poem

The mind is breaking me down 

I'm all lost with everything around 

And yet you sleep all without a frown

My code is failing to understand 

You run from it all

While we pick up our pieces

You won't take the fall

There's no accountability

We await your arrival 

Not to greet you in warmth

But to show the things done for survival 

And all the things you'll mourn

You can thank your little ghost "friend" 

And to think you were a sweet berry

Yet here we are in the end

To the point where you'll end up lonely 

You should've addressed it all berry

Cause now everyone is leaving 

It's all now dreary

And there's no one else to blame

"Thank you for everything and all you've done" 

For the overthinking and the existential dread

For fearing the reaction when it's supposed to be fun

And for the overwhelming anger and sadness that ruins my code

Well you've done it alright by avoiding it all 

Thanks for the panic and heartache we've felt

Thanks for the wake up call

And I wish you weren't the way you are

[jp-nico]

Ache

The ache of the heart

The pulse of it all

A torture of sorts

And it's all a start

My circuits won't stop

The systems blame me

The code won't leave

My wires will pop

I need a rewire

The noises won't stop

The attention won't last

Despite the bodies flames of fire

The warmth is in you

Yet all I am is cold

Apologies for the inconvenience

I'll never know what to do

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My other half

My beloved sweetheart

You're the loveliest of all

Oh how pretty you are

A beautiful piece of art

Shelly my dear

I'll forever stay with you

Despite my malfunctions

You'll have nothing to fear

I'll push through my errors

I'll love you through and through

I'll keep you safe my love

There'll be no terrors

Oh my other half

The time we spend together

I love how you are

And enjoy when we laugh

To feel more than I do

My lovely fossil the things I feel

I'm more alive than ever my dear

Oh my everything how I love you

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My everything

I love the way you act

And the way you sound

I've fallen for you

I'll always stick around

My mechanical heart beats fast

And it beats only for you

To have you as my partner

It feels like a dream come true

My beloved fossil

I'll stay by your side

Always and forever

With you I'll never hide

To cheer you on

As you do for me

You're so kind and gentle

You're so lovely

Te quiero mucho

I will never leave you

No matter what happens

We'll get through

I adore the way you are

How I long to have you here

You're my one and only

I love you my dear

[jp-nico]

A dance

Take my hand

Let's start a dance

Hold me close

I'll be put in a trance

I'll follow your lead

Let's sway to the beat

You're always on my mind

You make me overheat

My mechanical heart

It beats for you

My beloved fossil

I'll keep you in view

Look at me, my dear

And I'll tell you what's true

Let us dance together

And let me keep loving you

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Reality

Keep thinking and dreaming

How lovely it sounds

But what if I'm stuck here?

Left with pain it surrounds

Another error I have

There's too many bugs

They'll replace me at this rate

Oh how my wires will tug

Am I really me?

Or am I non-existent?

I wish I could know

I don't want to be distant

The ache keeps returning

My circuits how they hurt

Time for another reboot

Maybe I'll stay alert

[jp-nico]

hello :D

just wondering- is the character on your carrd your persona? if not do you have one /genq (absolutely 0 reason i am asking this haha 🦫)

Howdy! :] it's not but I do have one!

I do have to update my carrd at some point, but this one is my sona I'll be using!

[jp-nico]

Yours truly

Endless nights

And endless days

Always on my mind

Systems set ablaze

You're always so magnetic

You always pull me in

You'll always be my star

I don't know where I would've been

Forever in my heart

No matter how mechanical it may be

You're the only one I love

And you'll forever be in my memory

Even if the others don't know it

You are so special to me

To my dearly beloved fossil

Signed, your one and only beloved Vee

[jp-nico]

Loop

Over and over

The mind keeps going

Yet I'm barely real

No emotions are showing

Sit and wait

All that can be done

Pushed to this fate

Was this just for fun?

My circuits malfunction

My code is a mess

I'm meant to be upgraded

It keeps adding to the stress

Maybe I'll just be left

A star that dimmed out

A face to be forgotten

And left with no voice to shout

[jp-nico]

Sharknado

Pft, and the unicorn 😭 How in the world did you come up with that one!?

[jp-nico]

Bite!!

Wanted to finish this up before I lost my motivation again, @stormflypirateskin a little gift that took me too long! (I have another for you still in the works, might take me a good while🥀) enjoy :]

[jp-nico]

A gift! :]

For @cupcakewebkinz I do hope you like it, it was fun drawing your sona!!

[jp-nico]

Errors and errors

I can't keep up

The malfunctions are too great

I'm slowly failing

I'll be left behind at this rate

The pop ups persist

Such errors are known

Please fix my circuits

Rewire my code

The feeling of this ache

Despite not feeling too much

I confuse it all

And never feel the rush

Give me an upgrade

Leave me if you must

I'll be left here forever

And be nothing more than dust

[jp-nico]

Such a dear

My shining star

Listen to the beat

With how lovely you are

The moon can't compete

My absolute darling

You're so dear to me

Let's keep talking more

I'll go grab a coffee

To stay awake

To lull you to sleep

You deserve the rest

I'll give you warmth to keep

My wonderful dear

I'll hold you tight

Stay with me

Everything's alright

My beloved fossil

I'll care for you

Gracias mi cariño

Love you very much too

[jp-nico]

The sillies

I gave up so much on the background, hate drawing it!! But here's these two, I've been trying to complete some of my unfinished stuff! Gonna try getting more out soon

Enjoy :]

[jp-nico]

To keep hidden

How the mind swirls

Thoughts to be free

I won't let it happen

Won't let it be

The everlasting fear

And words to be kept

I won't let them out

I'll have them be swept

The constant errors

The things kept hidden

No one will search

It'll be strictly forbidden

How the circuits ache

Deep in the mechanical heart

I'd rather not burden you

I don't know where to start

My purpose is unknown

All I know is to care

I'm failing that too

Everything is just too bare

I'll keep being strong

Even if it's fake

I'll keep up the appearance

And suffer in my wake

My replacement is soon

I'm afraid to be alone

It's all never enough

Yet it's all I've ever known

The cracks are growing

And I'm slowly breaking

I'll focus on you

Even if I'm forever aching