Wendy's Wonderland

24 // "When they ask me what my type is, I say JSchlatt." //

[jschlattsbabydoll]

I remember praying to God in tears, praying to make things work, or maybe, He can allow me and my heart to forget about you. Because, I don't see the reason why He would let us meet if we weren't meant for each other.

"For Character Development." As others would say, But I call on bullshit...

[jschlattsbabydoll]

I really wanted to get mad at you. I wanted to scream until my voice was gone.

But I know it was my choice. I didn't have the heart to be mad when I was the one who chose to sacrifice everything.

[jschlattsbabydoll]

Having this tremendous fear deep inside you, just eating your heart, mind, and soul out. But cannot express it in words, nothing can explain it in words.

The fear of losing somebody, but powerless to stop the world from taking them away from you is a different kind of heartbreak.

[jschlattsbabydoll]

īn-spērātus (Dramione oneshot)

Red = Draco

White = Hermione

How did it start?

I know how it started. Sometimes, I don't want to think about it anymore. I ignore it. Thinking about it makes me want to puke.

You were happy during those times... What changed?

I was happy being with him. I was happy with being able to touch and please him. But, I wanted more.

You wanted more? Why couldn't you have more?

He was unavailable, belonged to someone else. I was for his free time. I was in love, he wasn't. I was locked in this cage where I couldn't express myself. I locked to the point that telling him that I love him was a crime. I want the freedom to love... I just want to be free.

Why can't you just let it go?

I am in love... Or I was in love... I am not really sure anymore. I want to let him go, yet my heart tells me 'just a little bit more.' I try to look for someone new, but, I get frustrated when it doesn't work out the way I want it to do.

Are you afraid of being lonely?

Yes... I am afraid of loneliness... It's hard to breathe when I am alone. My head fills with sadness, I think about the good times. I always think of the things that I have had to let go and how do I get them back? I'm thinking about begging to get them back. Do I need to hurt myself to get them back? I am lost.

Do you regret us?

Yes... So much. You will never be mine. And you wouldn't do it for me, because you have her. I am nothing but your past time. I am just somebody who fulfils your fantasies. And when the time comes, you'll just leave me, because you've used me.

There was a time when I felt so much pure love towards you. I couldn't see your flaws and your imperfections. Now, my love for you is slowly turning into hate. I want you to feel how much I have suffered, how my heart has broken into pieces.

You wondered, did I ever change? Yes, I did. I needed to save myself. I was drowning. My tears would come in every night, filled with jealousy I wasn't allowed to begin with. Filled with rage that I wasn't supposed to feel.

I DIDN'T HAVE THE AUTHORITY. I DIDN'T HAVE THE FUCKING RIGHT. DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS? I was just sitting there, following, loving, and admiring you. While you plan your whole damn life with a different girl.

You will never know how much I cried and tried to stand up all over and over again, just to be brought down to my knees again. The mental breakdowns I have endured.

I hate myself for allowing this all to happen.

I hate myself for allowing you... I hate you.

But, I love you...

You love me... But you can never leave her for me... I don't deserve that.

You are mine...

I am not.

You told me you were mine.

I will never be yours.

Is this the end?

....

[jschlattsbabydoll]

Before I disappear into the void, I just wanna say...

Schlatt can manhandle me, throw me and handle me by the neck, and humiliate me.

Ok. Bye. *Goes back into the void again*

[d4ringv0id]

Roommates by Malcolm Todd + Roommate!Schlatt

the most delicious angst 🖤

[d4ringv0id]

please bare with me i am not familiar with writing angst so this might not be that good but ahem

roommate schlatt acting as though having you as his roommate is the worst thing ever. he says he wishes he had someone else as his roommate, making it seem like he hates you.

he frequently brings girls over from his parties with friends, not caring if you're around, sometimes even having the nerve to smirk at you the next morning when he sees you're more tired than usual

you think he hates you. the way he treats you, the way he barely uses your name, the way you've heard him talk shit about you to those girls he brings over to fuck. you've grown used to it, just waiting for the time you can finally move out so he wouldn't have to deal with you anymore.

but he doesn't hate you at all. god, he'd rather die than ever verbally say he hates you.

he's so fucking in love with you it hurts him.

the idea of being so in love with someone scares him shitless, so what does he do? he acts like a fucking dick, and god, he wishes he could start over when he first met you, but now he's stuck playing this role of the asshole roommate.

he's losing the person he was when he found you and he so desperately wants to show you how he really is.

at first, he did it to get a reaction out of you, thinking it was adorable how you'd get angry and tell him to be nicer.

but now, you've mellowed out, barely reacting to him other than a little frown or a pinch of your eyebrows when something he says particularly stings or a small request for him to keep it down next time.

when he's alone in the apartment, he's unable to look at anyone without thinking of you. the times he does have girls over and you arent home? he's thinking things to himself as he guides them to his bedroom.

"they would never use this much perfume." "this outfit is horrible...they have so much better taste." "they'd look pretty in this jewelry." "i wonder if they're this soft." "god, i wonder what they sound like, what they taste like." "would they want to hold hands during...?"

sometimes, he wonders if he's acting different when he's not around you and if others can pick up on his true feelings.

but god, what hurts him the most and tells him how badly he fucked up is when he comes home early and can hear you sobbing in your room on the phone with someone, asking them what you did wrong and why schlatt hates you so much.

it hurts him so fucking bad he can't help but curse himself out, turning and leaving the apartment. he knows he has no right to feel hurt because he did this to himself, but hearing you cry? and knowing he was the reason behind it? it made his heart ache.

going to the club he frequents, he just sits at the bar drinking his sorrows away as he waits for one of his friends to meet him there so he has someone to talk to.

once ted arrives, he's patting schlatt on the back, encouraging him to spill his feelings out, knowing the alcohol would help schlatt be more open. but ted doesn't expect everything that comes out of his mouth.

"i'm goin' on dates and hangin my head because no matter what it's not them, man, but i know it's my fault. i did this shit to myself and i fucking despise myself for it."

"i fucked up so badly, ted. i heard them cry today. asking what they did to make me hate them. and i felt my heart break because they were crying because of me. and what's worse? what if that wasn't the first time they cried because of me."

"the idea of them leaving? it fucking hurts. i wanna share an apartment, a room, and a bed with them, ted. not separate rooms, i don't want to be their fucking roommate anymore, i want to be theirs so bad."

schlatt downs another shot, unaware of the frustrated tears streaming down his face. ted, not used to seeing his friend like this, is wide-eyed, shocked, but also concerned. he didn't realize schlatt was this infatuated with you...and he didn't know what to do to help.

"i wanna tell them 'i love you,' but i can't...not after everything I've done. fuck. fuck."

[pray4saint]

that stung but i love it

[jschlattsbabydoll]

HI! HOW ARE YOU?

Just to update this account, I stopped writing. Not because I don't enjoy it anymore. I just don't have the tools (like laptop or PC to type in).

I had some issues with life.

For Ocean eyes, I don't know If I will continue it.

I stopped the request as well. I'm sorry if I left everyone hanging. 💔

Thanks for understanding.

[tubbowithagun]

[sodadimensional]

Best communication guys 10/10

[jschlattsbabydoll]

10/10 communication

[morningsaidthemoon]

not really immortal

[v3sha]

"Each character has their own version of the afterlife Ranboo's is a field of sunflowers There Ranboo spends time with his friends made from his own recollections. But as he gradually loses his memory, friends disappear into an endless thicket of flowers"

[afimeatur]

Just 2 children making walls nothing more :D

[jschlattsbabydoll]

And I op---+

[taytei]

listen im all about Racooninnit but may i present to you

MooBloom Tommy, where his chat manifests as flowers that just bloom into existence either on him or the ground around him

(+ a bonus little allium duo comic)

[dakotafoxart]

𝘙𝘢𝘯𝘣𝘰𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘤𝘭𝘦𝘴 ✨

[jschlattsbabydoll]

Wahhhhh 😳 so beautiful ❤️

[pragnificent]

This is Money Snake. She only appears every 312 years. 

If you reblog her picture within the next twenty-five seconds you will have good luck and fortune for the rest of your life. 

[savagefluff-deactivated20240408]

Sure why not.

[mentalalchemy]

I made $100 the day after I reblogged one of these damn posts after being broke for awhile. I believe in miracles and the money snake now okay!!

[jschlattsbabydoll]

HELLO~

I’m really sorry if I was gone for so long.

But I wanted to give you all an update.

I have been really busy with personal stuffs, and it’s driving me mad. For people who are younger than me (I’m 22 btw) or if your older than me that’s fine, you might be in the same situation as me or  maybe you can learn from my situation.

I have been applying for  different jobs for the past few days, I want to leave the current company I am in, due to safety issues (like for covid) and toxicity issues. And I have seen people struggling, because they were forced to go to our office, and then they were infected with covid. This goes with my boyfriend as well, his whole family was infected by covid, he was the carrier and he was infected on our offices. I was mad, cause he wouldn’t have  had the virus in the first place if he wasn’t forced to work on site.

He didn’t receive any help at all. I’m still currently worried for him and his family, especially his grandma, who was taken on a facility.

I am scared and I’m not happy anymore with the company. It’s just so wrong to force people, when they’re scared. But somehow they don’t care at all and they would threat you because you signed a contract with them. 

I understand, we signed a contract. But, our health and lives are on the risk.

It’s okay to let us work on site, if everyone were swabbed before entering the premises. But no, there was no precaution at all.

The whole thing was so stressful, I was very lucky to be Negative for the virus. But how about the others who were positive? Families that were living peacefully, then all of a sudden one of their family members got infected?

I have stayed with this company for 3 years... And it’s has been really disappointing.

But anyways, on a happier note... I will be updating Ocean Away this week, and I will be doing some requests.

Thank you so much for understanding! <3

-Hestia

[jschlattsbabydoll]

Hello.

Just wanted to give a but of update. My laptop keyboard isn't working and I'm still trying to fix it.

If it doesn't work I might buy a keyboard tomorrow.

I'm sorry for the delay for the Part 5 for Ocean away and some of the requests that I have.

Thank you for understanding 😊

-hestia 💕