alyesk✰︎

shoot for the stars 💫

[jseagurll]

im emotional pls

[jseagurll]

idk where to run to for shelter

[jseagurll]

to be destined, to be fated, to have a soulmate, is so fucking cruel

[jseagurll]

for a few minutes, the start of my day feels peaceful. the trauma has not yet awaken. but after like five mins, it all comes back and iwtkms. this is how its going to be like forever huh

[jseagurll]

If you'd do anything for me, how come you never do?

[jseagurll]

who do i go to in a situation like this, where do i run to, where can i hide, what can i do

[jseagurll]

im going to kms

[jseagurll]

i wanna die but not by suicide cus thatll take a toll on my image bcus thats how judgmental ppl r, i hop i get murdered

[jseagurll]

i wish i wish i wish i i loved u less

[jseagurll]

if i was braver, i wouldve killes myself by now

[jseagurll]

its not my problems thats the problem, its u

[jseagurll]

there may be a lot of things i dont know and im not sure about, but i am 100% sure of one thing

[jseagurll]

im so tired of being anxious all the time, its genuinely so draining, i worry my head out, paralysed with anxiety. im so tired

[jseagurll]

a burden to everyones life fr

[jseagurll]

i shud disappear

[jseagurll]

is this communication or is this me begging

[jseagurll]

what if i never recover