james

hello, is it 911? how are you?

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I don't know what i am waiting for. This life. just getting confused, stuck, whatever. And the life is mine, so. you know who's the one to blame. Got myself in a crooked maze, impassable, with lots of corners and no hints. It's a bit scary to imagine, what's the future holds, and now I speak more about the person I'll become, well in fact, what circumstances will have done on me. I love her. I do.  The most difficult thing is realising ' she aint needs me, she never will '. Not interested, maybe I seem irritating or annoying to her. Well, love can strike like, this, harder than a fly puck in your face. Sweet pain still hurts. And I am not a masochist.

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My body is a cage that keeps me from dancing with the one I love but my mind holds the key

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Here I am [1]

So, I don’t clearly remember when I’ve become obsessed with things like these and if I have become. When you have no one else to talk to or don't want to be too annoying with all your stuff, you start sharing your thoughts with a paper (or a computer). Just write down any silly ideas which all of the sudden come to your spoiled mind. And this could be weird even for you, because all the things in your head disappear faster than you manage to catch them.Some thoughts are totally new, perhaps that new that at first you won’t even believe they are yours. I used to be rigid in my views but now everything has changed. Everyone makes his own history and I despise the old me or rather the person I was at least four years ago. This is wonderful how everything changes over the years and you can't be sure in anything. You know nothing playing a game called 'life'.. Another blindfolded step forward and you don't know what it can lead you to. Either you come to a new stage, either you fall and get lost. I was left feeling totally devastaded and broken at times. Now I can see how many useless actions we take and how many pointless thoughts we have, feeling under the pressure. We become even blinder than we were. Like, now your hands are tied as well. And you gotta release yourself on your own.

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The only thing in life achieved without effort is failure

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