There was once a daughter of peasants cursed to have tears that hardened into diamonds. Her loving family took pride in their poverty as it meant they had never made their daughter shed a drop. But…
"Hello?"
Rafe straightened up too quickly, banging his shoulder on the corner of the wall cupboard. "Who's hurt?"
The owner of the polite voice stepped further into the herbalist's shop, drawing her patched hood back from her face. "No-one that I know of. I apologise, I didn't mean to worry you."
Rafe huffed out a heavy breath of relief. "Well, that's a nice change. What can I do for you?"
"I want to learn how to cry."
Rafe looked blankly at the earnest young woman. "Learn how to -? Crying's just a thing you do, if you're hurt or scared. Listen, what's your name?"
"Irina."
Rafe nodded to himself. "Irina, then. What's the actual problem?"
She stared at him steadily. There was something a little unnerving about those pale grey eyes, but Rafe convinced himself that it was simply her exceptional focus. "I want to learn how to cry. You're a herbalist, a healer. You've seen lots of people cry. You've cried for people. Will you teach me?"
Rafe's mouth opened. Closed. "Um. Well, if you can't cry, that sounds like a magic problem to me."
Irina nodded to Rafe in perfect formality, a polite smile curving her lips. It didn't reach her eyes. "Thank you, and goodbye."
The door closed behind her, and Rafe did his best to put the odd encounter out of his mind. Definitely a magic thing. There was nothing he could have done to help. Right?
~
Maddie dropped a pinch of sage into the cauldron, frowned to herself, and added another one. "Now, was it thyme or basil? Where did I leave that book?"
The shop bell tinkled as Maddie reached for a lopsided pile of spellbooks, and she bit her lip in frustration. The cauldron would have to wait. "Coming!" she called, pushing aside the beaded curtain that led to the shop-half of the tower's bottom floor. Given the rain outside, she hadn't expected anyone to need her help tonight. "Spells, potions, curses, or basic supplies?"
The grey-eyed and slightly damp woman in the middle of the semi-circular room looked at her steadily. Must be some kind of magic-user, Maddie decided; most people, on seeing the shop for the first time, couldn't stop staring. The carefully wired bat skeleton on the ceiling was especially good for a lot of stares.
"Good evening. Are you the sorcerer?" asked the woman who was staring only at Maddie.
Maddie kept up her smile, although the idea of having to go disturb her teacher made her want to run in the opposite direction. "I'm the sorcerer's apprentice. Can I help?"
To Maddie's great relief, Grey-Eyes nodded. "I want to learn how to cry."
About to give the standard polite 'no' regarding love spells, Maddie's words stuck in her throat. "And you came to a sorcerer?" she asked dubiously.
One shoulder lifted in an indifferent shrug. "The herbalist said that it 'sounded like a magic problem'."
Maddie couldn't stop herself from snorting. "Rafe sent you? Of course he did. If it's not bleeding, coughing, sneezing, or herbal, then he doesn't know how to deal with it. Right. Let's get those tear ducts working, shall we?"
Half an hour later, Grey-Eyes—who had given her name as Irina—had undergone every curse-check that Maddie knew, and then prevented that night's dinner from boiling over. There was some kind of magic linked to Irina's tears, yes, but it shouldn't be stopping her from crying.
"Onions," Maddie decided. "No-one can resist onions. It's not a curse, which means it's physical. Onions should work. Do you have somewhere to stay tonight?"
As if prompted, thunder cracked overhead, audible even though the double-walled stone of the tower walls. Irina, blinked, then shook her head. "I thought I'd stay at the inn tonight."
"Nonsense," Maddie said briskly. "We've got plenty of space, you can stay in the guest room. Here. Take this knife and start cutting the onions. Thin slices, if you can, my teacher has texture issues."
Irina simply nodded, taking the knife in one rough hand.
As Irina chopped onions, Maddie started on the carrots. "So, you're not from around here," Maddie said leadingly. "What brings you to our town?"
A pile of sliced onion formed rapidly on one side of Irina's knife. "My village doesn't have a herbalist. Or a sorcerer. I came here because I need help."
"And have you always had difficulty crying? Or it is a new problem?" Maddie's carrots joined Irina's onions in the cauldron.
"I can't remember crying. My parents taught me not to. I—I was never unhappy enough to cry."
Maddie glanced up at Irina, whose eyes were perfectly dry. "Well, I suppose that's good?" Maddie said weakly.
Irina nodded, and continued to chop onions.
Maddie set her knife aside. "Once you're finished with the onions, can you chop that garlic clove too and add that? I'm going to rouse my teacher from his studies, so I may be gone awhile."
Maddie escaped up the stairs, both to fetch her teacher and to get the guest bed ready. Maybe stronger magic would help?
~
The doctor shone a light into Irina's eyes, then nodded to himself. "You're perfectly healthy. I wouldn't worry about it, crying doesn't have a purpose other than to gain sympathy for the crier. You don't need sympathy. That will be five copper coins, thank you."
~
If Irina could cry, she would.
The doctor had been her last hope. She was tired, nearly out of money, and very far from home. The last innkeeper had demanded the kind of coin she didn't want to give, not even for a bed for the night. Not if it was his bed.
Now, outside the city, with twilight drawing in as the day faded, she had nowhere to go. The farms were set back from the road, and not always easy to see even if the sheep fields suggested a shepherd somewhere nearby.
A brisk bark interrupted her misery, and a whitish-brown shape bounded into the lane. Smiling a little, she crouched down in the hope that the dog wouldn't see her as a threat. She'd never had a dog as a child, but the shepherd in her village had introduced her to their dogs and sometimes let her curl up with them after the sheep were safely in the barn. "Never interrupt a working dog," they'd said sternly.
If this dog was out in the fields, with the sheep nearby, then they were still working. If she was lucky, the dog would let her pass. "Hello," she said softly, letting the dog come up to her and sniff her. "I don't mean any harm. See? I'm on this side of the fence."
The dog sniffed her more and then, to Irina's surprise, grabbed a mouthful of her old cloak.
"Hey—whoa! Okay, I'm coming!" Irina stumbled at the first pull, righting herself only for the dog's insistent tugging to increase. "Wait!"
The dog didn't wait. Irina followed the dog's guidance, hoping that she could beg a needle and thread from whoever the dog was bringing her to. There were enough holes in her cloak already, and another would only let more wind through.
Onwards through the fields she followed, weaving among sleeping white fluffy bundles and towards a faint rectangular glow. The glow resolved itself into an open door, and Irina tucked her cloak around herself as tightly as she could. Perhaps she could ask to sleep outside? It was still warm enough outside, if she curled up in the leeward side of the cottage . . .
A silhouette obscured the enticing warm light of the open door. "Nip?" Is that you?" called a strong voice, and the dog let go of her cloak to bark in response.
Irina's steps slowed as she approached the little stone cottage, one so very similar to the one where she'd grown up. Maybe she should just leave?
"And a stray lamb, I see. Would you like to come in?" asked the tall person in the doorway.
In the end, it was Nip who made her decision for her. The dog pranced up to his owner, demanding pets and scratches and giving licks in return, and sauntered into the cottage as if he owned it.
Another piece of advice from her village's shepherd echoed silently in her ears. "If you ever find a dog who is unafraid of their owner, that's a good sign."
Irina nodded cautiously. "Yes, please."
The weathered face smiled at her. "You're a polite child. Come in, there's enough for two. Nip usually has the leftovers, the lazy thing, so don't give in when he begs. I fed him earlier."
Once inside and with the door closed, the shepherd took their coat off to reveal a shapeless multi-layered outfit of shirts, smocks, and skirts. "Thank you," Irina offered.
"Sit down, child, you're skin and bones. Here." Half of the soup in the pot went into a wooden bowl, to which the shepherd added a carved wooden spoon before passing it to Irina. "You're not the first hungry lamb Nip's brought home. He's a good lad, he is."
Irina nodded, abruptly too tired to make conversation.
The shepherd must have understood, because their shared meal passed in silence. Irina's bowl emptied steadily, the warmth settling into her stomach, and she yawned as she bent over the well-scraped bowl.
The shepherd stood, and before Irina could blink, she found herself curled up in front of the stove and wrapped in a dog-haired blanket.
"Sleep well, lamb," the shepherd said gently.
~
A waft of cool air and the scent of pease porridge roused Irina from her sleep. "I'm awake, Mama," she mumbled, sitting up and looking around for the broom. She had to sweep the floor to stop the mice coming in, and—the broom wasn't there. It was over in the corner, and that wasn't the broom Irina had made herself, with the nice straight ash handle that had taken days to smooth properly. This one was made of an oak branch, with the bark still clinging to the shaft in places.
She was in the shepherd's cottage.
A shadow fell across the door, the shepherd stepping through as she stamped mud off her heavy boots. Nip followed her in, much of his earlier exuberance dimmed. "Morning, lamb. Move over, the porridge should be just about done."
Irina duly moved aside, the blanket bundled in her arms and questions on her tongue.
"My name is Nora," the shepherd said unhurriedly. "The locals call me Aunt Nora. I've been shepherd here for forty years or more, and I'll probably be here for twenty more."
"I'm Irina. I—I've been travelling."
"Looking for something, hmm? Well, you might be lucky and find it. Here you go, breakfast. Village is thataway, if you want dinner come back here this afternoon."
Come back? "You won't mind?"
"Aside from the boys who watch the sheep, I don't talk to people much. I'm a little starved, for company, and Nip likes you. I don't mind."
~
Days settled into a pattern. At first, Irina intended to earn enough money to pay her way home, but somehow the need to go back to her old village never felt urgent enough. It wouldn't hurt to have a little extra money, she told herself, and then autumn rolled in and every hand was needed to help with the harvest. After that, it was winter, and the roads were made of mud and not fit for travelling. Not long after that, the snow fell, and Irina realised she'd been here for half a year.
She'd planned to work at the inn, scrubbing pots and washing sheets, but that plan took a sideways step on her first day in town. Irina had been passing by the blacksmith when he'd leaned out of his forge and shouted, "You! Lass! Can you run to the well and bring me some water? There's a copper in it for you if you're quick. Here's the bucket!"
She'd taken the bucket he'd thrown at her feet and returned in what she considered to be a respectable time, and the blacksmith had smiled as she'd lugged the bucket back to him.
"Good timing, lass. Pour it in the barrel, will you?"
She'd done as he'd asked, and he'd dumped a long piece of iron into the barrel. The clouds of steam had made Irina jump back, her wide eyes fixed on the barrel.
"That's going to be a scythe, lass. Terry over at Riverside Farm wants a new one for this year's harvest, and about time too. If he sharpens his old one much more there'll be nothing left of it."
By the end of that day, she'd earned six copper pennies and a lesson in different types of metal. He'd told her to come back, and she had; first to run simple errands, and then as apprentice. She spent that night and every night after at Nora's cottage while Nora stayed out with her sheep.
When she'd asked if the blacksmith didn't have an apprentice already, he'd raised an eyebrow at her. "None of the other youngsters have the feel for the forge," the blacksmith told her in his abrupt way. "You're a good lass, and you respect the metal and the fire. Strength is a thing that grows over time."
Nora had no advice about smithing, but she'd listened when Irina excitedly described the new things she'd learned that day. And she had her own advice, when Irina had admitted why she'd been on the road.
"Crying's a good thing to learn," she'd said. "It's healthy to cry sometimes, when you need to feel something strongly. It helps to wash things clean."
Months later, with her arms aching from filing points onto the nails she'd made the day before, Irina headed back to Nora's cottage. Fresh-fallen snow crunched under her feet; a thin layer now, but sure to get deeper as the winter wore on.
With her head bent against the wind, Irina didn't notice Nip until the dog was bouncing around her feet. "Nip? Where's—oh, Aunt Nora!"
"You don't think I stay all winter in that house, do you?" Nora called, her heavy boots leaving deeper tracks than Irina's. "The sheep are safely closed up in their barn, and we don't let them out until the snow melts and the fields drain. There's a nice loft in the barn, we'll be staying there until spring."
Relief and joy so great that it was physical almost knocked Irina over. We. She wouldn't be kicked out now that Aunt Nora was living somewhere else.
The wind cut icy tracks against her cheeks, and she smiled through her drying lips. "It'll be a shorter walk to the blacksmith's forge."
"And a good thing, too. A nice warm place in winter, is the forge." A frown shadowed Aunt Nora's brow, and the older woman leaned in. "Don't cry out here, lamb, your tears are freezing on your face."
Tears?
Irina lifted one gloved hand to her face. The wool came away sparkling, diamonds glittering against the brown fabric.
"It's okay," Irina said, closing her hand on the gems before wrapping Aunt Nora in a hug. "I'm just happy."
Aunt Nora patted her gently on the back, and Irina luxuriated in the hug for a few chilly minutes. Nip, however, did not approve of being left out, and he butted his head into her side.
As Irina leaned back, Nora's jaw dropped in shock. "Lamb, your eyes."
"My eyes?" Irina parroted, biting her lip in the hope that Aunt Nora wouldn't change with the prospect of infinite wealth.
As it happened, it wasn't the diamonds that Nora was worried about. "Irina, they're brown."
Irina hiccupped another sob, the corners of her mouth hurting from how wide her grin had grown. Brown. Her eyes were brown again. "How about I tell you about it when we're nice and warm in the barn?"
Nora laughed. "I knew you were a sensible girl. Let's go. If we're lucky, one of the lads remembered to bring us dinner from the inn."
~
Years later, when Irina had taken over the forge and was well known for producing beautifully engraved metal, traders often wondered how she managed to etch such fine lines. She always gave them the same baffling answer.
"With joy, of course."














