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how dare she come back after all this time ? how dare she show up when things are so dark , and remind gemma what could have been. what almost was. anger is all she feels now , at june for depriving her of that , and worse , for her coming back and pretending that she could just show up and expect a full welcoming party. she seethes , and channels every bit of that anger into the fist in the woman’s hair , yanking forcefully towards her. she may have started it , but she was dead set on ending it too. on making sure this never happened again. that no one ever left , let alone came back to rub her face in it.

ʺ how dare you come back here now ! ʺ she roars , just as a foot catches her in the ankle and she buckles , releasing the handful of blonde hair and sliding against the table , using it for support as feet fight to get back beneath her. ʺ why the fuck are you here if not to piss me off. ʺ

the table between them , && june brushes hands through her hair , pulling it off her face && wiping at the blood that trickled down as result from split lip , never once taking her eyes off the other woman --- wasn’t this how they had always mean to be ? at each others throats , violence && bloodshed && cruel names ? a sharp laugh ; bitter , && she keeps the table between them still . ‘ oh fuck you , you self-righteous bitch , i came BACK because i wanted to see you . ‘

straightening fully , she glares as she continues . ‘ i can see THAT was a mistake , you haven’t changed . ‘ she wants to make for the door , knowing it would start something but she’s losing ground ; urge to fight still running through her veins && she takes a single step around the table , towards the door . ‘ you’re not worth this , i’ll leave you to your precious club . ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#YOU CRIED WOLF / SO I CAN RUNNING ; v . return

gatekeepcr·:

somewhere along the way , gemma forgot that june stahl was the only person in the world who ever truly went toe to toe with her. they measured themselves against one another , and for once , gemma felt actually challenged. somewhere , she forgot that june had rage just like she did. and so she was unprepared for the hands that hit her shoulders and shove her back over the threshold , stumbling across the wood floor until her back connects with the kitchen chairs positioned around the table.

ʺ what the hell do you think you’re doing here ? ʺ she counters , righting herself once more and preparing for whatever may come through that door. but june was right , based on skill alone , she certainly prevailed. gemma’s forte was far more along the lines of a drunken bar fight than actual hand-to-hand combat. open hand hits her square in the face , and head whips to the side , hair splayed across her reddened skin. suddenly they’re trapped in this dance where each blow only fuels more rage and frustration , for gemma redoubles her efforts , spinning to face the woman , ʺ you keep your fuckin’ hands off a’ me. ʺ she snarls , lunging after the woman to grab a handful of yellow locks.

in this moment , she HATED her -- hated the woman who she once used to wake up beside , the woman who she once enjoyed coming home to after a night stuck at work . it stung deep beneath her ribs , but she wasn’t about to let softness && past affections get in the way of what she believed to be the first REAL fight she had been part of in months . hand grabs hold of her hair , && the cry that leaves her lips is primal && full of fury --- lithe frame twists , one leg kicking out at whatever she can reach of the other woman from her limited vantage point . ‘ you fucking started this !! ‘

‘ fucking let me go , you cunt !! ‘ another twist && she’s pulling to get away , fighting against the first woman who has ever been able to rival her in any way -- but she had the training , while all gemma had was the rage .

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#( june vc: shut up dad )#» I'VE SEEN GHOSTS BRIGHTER THAN HER SOUL ( june stahl )

gatekeepcr·:

she sits alone at the table , nursing a joint that sits between her fingers. it’s become common these days , her ending up alone , seated at the table while the sun dipped and drowned her in darkness. hands clasped , she gazes off towards the window passively , preoccupied with thoughts of jackson and those kids. she’s startled by the sound at the door , and is on her feet a moment later , joint left in the ash tray as she places a hand on her gun , and the other on the door knob. when she pulls it open , she expects one of the guys , or an exasperated old lady , looming there. what she doesn’t expect , is the woman that’d all but disappeared on her , returned now , after everything. now that clay was dead and tensions were high all around. tara was threatening to run off with the kids , and jax was all tangled up in the middle of his loyalties. ʺ ――― june. ʺ she breathes after a moment , as though finally acknowledging the blonde woman standing there.

she remains that way , shocked and dumbfounded , for mere moments before anger takes over. a white hot rage that damn near blinds her. she deposits the gun on the counter , and in one fluid motion right hand becomes fist , a sharp right hook through the space between them towards the woman’s jaw. ʺ how dare you. ʺ

she isn’t prepared when the fist connects with her jaw , sending her stumbling backwards with a hand gripping the door frame for support . her own anger SPIKES , sending her forwards with hands to gemmas shoulders , SHOVING her back through the door . ‘ what the FUCK , gemma ? ‘ one hand to her jaw after putting distance between herself && the other woman , hissing in pain as other hand pushes back blonde locks that had fallen from the tie holding them back . ‘ what the fuck is the matter with you ? ‘

her gun is in the car ... she had been stupid , blinded by what they had been before she’d had to leave , before life had thrown them a curve ball && it had all come crumbling down around them . ‘ you crazy bitch . ‘ step forward , confident in herself && the fact that she was simply more TRAINED -- hand strikes out to connect with the others cheek , she wouldn’t take that punch laying down , wouldn’t hold the anger that curled within her own frame .

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#YOU CRIED WOLF / SO I CAN RUNNING ; v . return

she didn’t know what to expect when she knocked on gemmas front door . it had been ... well , it had been far too long for her to think she could simply show up again && things would pick up right where they left off -- too much had happened , too many wounds left to fester && she almost turns right around to leave the very second before the door swings open . ‘ uh ... hi . ‘ / @gatekeepcr

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#YOU CRIED WOLF / SO I CAN RUNNING ; v . return

queenfearless

“I’ll bet that there’s enough secrets in that pretty head of yours to bury an empire.” “I’m just a wife and mother, darling”

#» LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO ASK AGAIN WOULD YOU KILL FOR ME ( june/gemma )#( they so gay )

gatekeepcr·:

she forces herself to keep moving , to stay upright when every part of her just wanted to rest. the streets of charming were a dangerous place to be in the daylight , even before all of this. but now it seemed hell had broken loose , and it’d only gotten all the worse. regardless , she heads in the direction of the voice , ducking through back alleys to cut towards the street it’d come from. the first call is quiet , but close and gemma takes off at a run , towards it. she rounds a corner and sees the other , less than a block ahead , headed in the other direction. ʺ ――― here , june ! ʺ she calls , hurrying forward.

lithe frame spins , gun replacing hatchet && she levels it upwards ; but it doesn’t take her more than a second before walls are dropped && she’s racing forwards , throwing herself at the other woman && holding her in a vice grip , face buried in the others neck as she allows for a moment of softness , a moment of humanity as the world dissolved into chaos around them . when she pulls back , fingers tuck errant locks of gemmas hair behind her ear , both hands coming to cup her face as azure hues scan over skin for marks , pausing only to exhale in obvious relief . ‘ god ... you’re okay . ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#STARED INTO THE BRINK OF DEATH / DEATH STARED BACK ; v . twd

gatekeepcr·:

she grips the gun tightly , so tight in fact , that her knuckles have turned pearl white , amidst the slime of blood and dirt that coated her fingers. opposite hand holds a knife. one of clay’s she’d found in the bottom of her purse. it’s getting dark and she knows she needs to find shelter , and june. she was out there somewhere , in the madness of bodies and blood , beneath the heavy wave of death that’d come over the area. she pushes herself upright again , wiping her face on her sleeve and pushing forward. and then she hears a call , somewhere in the twilight. ʺ ――― june ! ʺ she calls then , without even thinking that it may draw them closer. ʺ i’m here ! june ! ʺ

it’s the shout that pushes her further forwards , ignoring the burning in her lungs && the aching in her legs ... hatchet is gripped tightly with both hands , forever glancing around as though awaiting for more of those ... THINGS to come out of the darkness && descend . ‘ where the fuck is here , gemma ? ‘ more to herself , && she stops to look around , to find some footing && direction --- night was closing in , fast , even she knew it would be too dangerous to walk around without light , without another set of eyes to watch her back . another shout , && she cups hands over her mouth . ‘ where are you , gemma ?! ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#STARED INTO THE BRINK OF DEATH / DEATH STARED BACK ; v . twd

both hands wipe down her face , feeling the blood smear downwards && it’s all she can do to remain standing ; to not sink to the ground && SCREAM . found hatchet lays on the ground within reach , though she makes no move to grab hold , to draw it towards her in case of FURTHERED attacks , she needed to move , to find gemma amidst this madness ... if it were even possible . head raises , fingers pushing honeyed locks back && wobbly legs push her to standing , hatchet grabbed && fingers touching gun slung around her hips . maybe it was pure stupidity to call out , but she was beginning to grow desperate now . ‘ GEMMA !! ‘

/ @gatekeepcr

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#STARED INTO THE BRINK OF DEATH / DEATH STARED BACK ; v . twd

gatekeepcr·:

she’d seen mere glimpses of the panic , the histeria in the streets , before locking herself away , before hiding and waiting for it to be over. despute how uncharacteristic it felt. she was used to fighting , to taking on her fears haead first. not this , not hiding. ʺ i know , i know. we’ve gotta stay inside. ʺ she sputters in response , allowing herself to be kissed , and to be held softly. a rarity it seemed , particularly now. while june looks at the door , gemma locates her gun , glancing at it upon the counter , ʺ ――― yeah. i’m alone. jackson and clay are with the club , and tara’s with the kids. is your … my phone’s not working , is yours ? ʺ

` fingers brush against the gun in the holder slung around her hips , following the others womans gaze as it travels to her own gun --- it wouldn’t do them any good here , whatever was out there wasn’t visible by any means ... a soft sigh passes ivory canines , && she returns all attentions to the other woman , a frown upon bare lips as she shakes her head . ‘ no , i can’t get ANYTHING to ring through , i was going to try && get to the station but ... ‘ gaze turns to the door once more , lingering as the shouts continue to sound off outside . ‘ god ... ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» CRIMSON BLEEDS THROUGH WANING AMBER SKY ( v . bird box )

gatekeepcr·:

she hadn’t even considered that june was worried about her. that she was a cause of this worry and panic , and not just the crisis that had developed outside of her door. hands fly up to the woman’s wrists , holding her tightly , reminding herself for one long moment that they were both safe , that they’d survived the initial panic , the same one that had been on news stations around the world. arm curls around the blonde woman , refusing to let her go despite the fact that they’re both safely inside. ʺ i don’t ――― ʺ she breathes , glancing over her shoulder to ensure the windows were still covered , ʺ i don’t know what the fuck’s happening. all i know is we can’t go out there.

hands release gemmas face , only to wind both arms around the others waist , keeping her close && pulling back only enough to press lips to gemmas forehead . ‘ christ , it’s a MESS out there ... ‘ she trails off , teeth once more upon her lower lip && she’s pulling from the hold to double check that the door was locked before facing gemma once more . ‘ are you ... is anyone else ... are you alone ? ‘ hands seek out gemmas once more , gripping tightly as though a life line , as though the mere touch could shut out the HORRORS taking place right outside the door .

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» CRIMSON BLEEDS THROUGH WANING AMBER SKY ( v . bird box )

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gemma fumbles blindly with the lock for several long moments and then wrenches the door open , clearing the path for june to enter. frantic hands grab at the space where the voice had come from , finally making purchase on the other woman’s arm and all but dragging her through the doorway , pushing her weight against the door to close it. only once she’s sure the door is shut again does she open her eyes , immediately going for the other woman , ʺ it’s okay , it’s okay. you’re safe now. ʺ

she’s all but DRAGGED through the door , && the minute it’s slammed shut behind her does she feel comfortable enough to allow eyes of flutter open , yet soon enough does she had her arms around the other woman , face buried in her neck && a soft , short cry slipping from between her lips . sharp inhale , long exhale , && she pulls back enough to cup gemmas face within her hands . ‘ you’re okay , you’re alright ... ‘ reassuring herself , forehead resting against the others as hands remain in place . ‘ what the fuck is happening ? ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» CRIMSON BLEEDS THROUGH WANING AMBER SKY ( v . bird box )

gatekeepcr·:

she holds the gun close , it’s her only protection through all of this. the only thing she’s certain is real. everything else is chaos. everyone in the streets is screaming , running in every direction , searching for safety from the invisible monster that hunts them. gemma’s not sure where her family is , where anybody is , she just hopes they were smart enough to get inside. back pressed against the wall , she waits , breathing heavily until suddenly someone starts pounding on the door. grip on the gun tightens and gemma jumps , startled. eyes widen as she waits , for an explanation , a rescue , something. but then the voice , muffled by the closed door , it’s june. gemma’s upright instantly , using her forearm to shield her eyes , ʺ don’t look ! ʺ she warns , ʺ i’m opening the door. ʺ

once more does hand return to her eyes , teeth scoring her lower lip as she waits , anxiously tapping a foot against the concrete , trying to IGNORE all the sounds behind her --- what the hell was going on ? ‘ hurry up . ‘ free hand against the door once more , as though the mere action will get her inside faster , get her away from the danger faster . ‘ god !! ‘ it’s whispered under her breath , sheer exhaustion settling into her bones && she almost sags against the door .

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» CRIMSON BLEEDS THROUGH WANING AMBER SKY ( v . bird box )

hand over her eyes , fist pounds down upon the womans front door , almost THROWING her shoulder against it in a bid to get inside ... to get away from the carnage of the streets , of the falling bodies && screams that seemed far more sinister the darker it got . eyes close tightly as she slams both palms against the door now , desperation in her voice && heart in her throat ; what if she wasn’t there ? ‘ gemma !! gemma , OPEN THE DOOR , please . ‘ / @gatekeepcr

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» CRIMSON BLEEDS THROUGH WANING AMBER SKY ( v . bird box )

gatekeepcr·:

she pulls back completely , separating herself from the other woman , sudden frustration rearing it’s ugly head in place of the adoration she had just felt. why can’t she stay ? why can’t she allow the club to buy her over like wayne ? like many others over the years. but i want you here. i need you here. that’s what she wants to say. instead anger fills her mouth and spills past her teeth , unregulated. " —— what the hell ? why did you even come back here ? “ anger aside , she is suddenly insecure , suddenly fearful. ” is it cause of that woman ? if i don’t come , are you going back to her ? "

‘ god , you always jump straight to anger ... gemma be RATIONAL , your club hates me , they’d rather see me shot than see me stay in charming . ‘ her own frustration takes over , fingers shaking where they hang at her sides now , not touching the only woman she really loved . the shots about her previous ... FLING cut deep , && expression shifts into distaste . ‘ don’t you dare throw that in my face . ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» MOTHER MAKE ME A BIRD OF PREY ( main verse )

gatekeepcr·:

she feels as though she’s been struck. her heart sinks into her stomach with such velocity that she thinks she may be sick. after all this , june thinks she can leave ? she truly believes that gemma could walk away from her son , her grandsons ? the grave of her child ? gemma stiffens immediately , and pulls back from the hug , hands on the woman’s upper arms , pulling them apart so she may look the blonde in the eye. " —— wait , you’re leaving ? june , you just got back. you can’t … "

‘ gemma ... i can’t STAY in charming , you know that i can’t , not permanently . ‘ she already misses the closeness , the feel of gemmas skin under her lips && she aches to press closer once more . but it was hard , difficult for the both of them -- neither wanted to leave what they already had , but also loathe to let the other go . ‘ the club won’t LET me move here , hell they probably wont let me stay the couple of months that i plan on being here for already . ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» MOTHER MAKE ME A BIRD OF PREY ( main verse )

gatekeepcr·:

chin tucks into the woman’s shoulder , arms snaking around her middle , holding her close , pleading to whatever power may exist that she be granted this for the rest of her life. that june doesn’t have to be taken away from her yet again. eyes fall shut , lingering on the words , that she was missed. that someone thought about her during those lonely months. “ i know. i get it. ” she whispers into the woman’s hair , she wants to forgive her , wants to let all of this go. " i should have called. should have … gone after you. "

‘ come back to stockton with me when i leave . ‘ it’s whispered against gemmas temple , eyes closed tightly as though DREADING the possibility that gemma was going to say no , that too much had passed && this couldn’t be mended by soft words && gentle touches , nothing was ever that easy but she wished this would be . ‘ please , i don’t want to leave you alone again . ‘

#gatekeepcr #» LION HEARTED ( in character )#» MOTHER MAKE ME A BIRD OF PREY ( main verse )

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