Coronavirus
This self-isolation is making me go mad
I thought I was doing fine -- I set up a routine and was being productive with work, eating regularly, and going outside for walks. Then yesterday night I couldn’t fall asleep and I kept imagining the worst possible scenario for my life, which is unrelated to the pandemic, but that I would live a long unhappy life never able to fulfill my aspirations. The ones that are the most ambiguous but about being a good person and doing something good for the world, raising children to be educated, cultivated, happy, productive citizens.
How can I do that when I’m a mediocre, unspecial, depressive person. I never learned how to motivate others, how to make them feel better, how to help them. Who can I depend on to teach me those things. I don’t know how. I have no inner strength.
I am a failure. I don’t know how to stop thinking this way.
