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CW for CP talk, no explicit details just mentions of a perpetrator and topic

Hey guys. More serious post, although I wouldn't call it a "call out/ block if uncomfortable" type of post like I usually do considering this guy left the fandom over this situation. He isn't here anymore, and you don't need to go out and block him because there's almost no way in hell you'll be coming across him. I just felt that I'd let the fandom know what DID happen, because some may notice his presence gone or a possible shift in some others in the fandom. I'm gonna try to keep this as unbiased as possible because with the thing that originally started the situation, albeit INCREDIBLY DAMNING and probably 99% likely for him to actually be guilty of it, there's still a slim possibility that he was originally innocent since without anything like him admitting it or evidence being found of him owning the account (or in the case of last time, being found to have the same name and stuff), it's just guess.

Strap in because this is LONG.

A lot of you might have known Arudan at some point, since he's been here for a long time. For some context, sometime around 2019-2020, Arudan was caught distributing CP, specifically "shotacon" material of KND characters, especially the Sector V males, on a website well known for that sort of content. He was super angry at first and tried to get a lot of the people in trouble for saying anything, and I've heard claims that he tried to pretend it wasn't him before then going into "I needed the money" (he took commissions for it). The account he did that stuff on got taken down, and he seemed to have apologized at... Some point. I couldn't tell you when, but at some time he stopped defending himself and went into saying stuff like "what I did was wrong, I won't engage in that type of content anymore, I'm sorry". For about 5 years (roughly) he often brought up the incident to others and made some harsh, sometimes weird jokes about the situation. One of the recent ones I can remember is that he brought up his involvement in trying to make a shotacon KND dating sim (at the time I didn't even realize this was PROVEN to be something he was involved with, because he seemed to phrase it like "they ACCUSED me") and then said something about how he should do just that if people think he did it so much. I didn't realize how weird this was at the time because I was more leaning into thinking it was a shipping simulator idea where you just pair canons of KND together and watch how they treat their very very vague concept of a relationship with each other, since kids tend to view it differently than teens and especially adults lol. Yeah, so I guess that wasn't really what he was talking about after seeing the original call out doc with the evidence linking him directly to the creation of that supposed shotacon dating simulator. Ew. Not really a good look to deny it despite the proof, but whatever

Anyways, flash forward to sometime within the past 2-3 months. I was trying to defend Arudan to somebody thinking that he was a genuinely recovered proshipper (many people in this fandom are! Most individuals are groomed into it so try to be understanding about a person's past) and this person I was speaking to, who I will not mention the name of but was apart of the original situation and one of the people Arudan started harassing about it, shared some images of an account on the same website he had been caught on, that shared the exact same art style, and engaged in the exact same fandoms that Arudan was known to be in. I went to verify the legitimacy and sadly enough, the account does exist, it's been active since 2021, and I couldn't trace back or find any "original versions" of the disgusting content posted on there, meaning it isn't a repost account.

I felt this was a bit out of my league since I had no associations with the original incident, so I spoke to about 2 adults who were involved in the original situation and were far more mature than me (I think I tried to talk with another, but I didn't get far) and shared what information I had been given. I also mentioned it to Arudan because I was hoping maybe he could defend himself (I was also already in conversation with him), but he eventually said "I have no interest in continuing this conversation with you" and so I stopped speaking to him out of respect in case he needed time to process before defending himself, since I can get how it would be startling. Apparently, Arudan actually got pissed off with me for listening to him, because he started going nuts about how nobody would tell him what's going on or give him the evidence of what was found... Despite not asking for it directly, and also telling me to not speak with him about it. Either way, the proof was shared with the adults, and I won't be sharing it here because even censored versions are just too intense and disgusting. For anyone who is mature, I can share it with you in DMs.

Arudan began to blame me for a lot of weird things. Me, not the other two adults involved who I had spoken to specifically because this didn't feel like my type of situation. Mind you, I'm a minor who simply said "I've found some suspicious things that might mean you aren't telling us the truth, and I want to know if you have anything to defend yourself with because this is very suspicious" and he got all on my ass about how I was even more suspicious for having been on the site (to verify the claim, on incognito, for maybe 1 minute 🙄) that I was making him upset by bring up "old drama", and that he REFUSED to defend himself. Yes, he said that. He said he refused to. This was an isolated situation that I repeatedly told him was isolated and wouldn't go public unless we find more evidence. He didn't care, and started treating it like it was public, and made a whole rant about how he'd be leaving the KND community because "some people can't let stuff go" or whatever. It wasn't those exact words, but he demonized me without naming me.

Oh, but it gets even worse, and thankfully I can share screenshots for this one. He tried to justify to me why he was acting weird and I told him that I didn't want to know why he was acting weird, and I'm sure you all know why given the current situation. Here are some of his responses along with messages below pointing out the problems in his message.

He apparently continued to do this for quite a while. At some point he went to apologize to one of the adults who were involved, saying it wasn't their fault, and then IMMEDIATELY drowned me in blame, claiming I'm trying to ruin his image, how I'm a horrible person, yada yada. Again, I'm a minor who literally JUST brought up the evidence, specifically to adults who knew what to do. I relayed the information. He was upset with me for even having it.

It continued to get worse where he began to lump my girlfriend into it. My girlfriend had absolutely never stepped foot into this conversation, she didn't even KNOW it was happening (because it was ISOLATED, like I kept telling him!) But he started to say shit like "I bet that girlfriend of his is involved" which turned into him straight up ASSOCIATING her with it, saying things that didn't imply that she might be involved, but that she IS. She was not involved. She doesn't even know exactly what happened aside from her being lumped in with me for a situation she wasn't involved in and this post is gonna be her finding out. I don't think I need to state this, but my girlfriend is also a minor. Don't you think it's a bit odd that he's specifically trying to put all the blame for finding this stuff on minors, who are more vulnerable, instead of the adults who were actually handling the situation?

"YOU and your kehehe friends literally hurt my feelings dude", which is referring to how I questioned him as kindly as I could about the serious allegations that he might still be indulging in CP. "Like I gotten LEGIT triggered that I cried for the first time in a year", a grown adult man manipulating a teenager who had gently addressed the topic to him, which he blatantly refused to engage in, and proceeding to try to make himself the victim. "Come at me with drama and instantly point fingers at me" CP allegations to the degree found on him recently is not drama, furthermore I did not point fingers at him and I have numerous messages from this conversation and the original conversation that prove that I was completely unbiased and on the fence the entire time and that's why I had gone to the adults to begin with. "Furthermore why are y'all on those websites to begin with?" we did actually answer this question, but he ignored it on purpose, and this is also victim blaming to a major degree because he's trying to say that we shouldn't have found it. "Then y'all bringing it to me was not only a huge PTSD trigger but it was a huge backstab towards me" so basically he's trying to say here that nobody is allowed to question him about seriously damning evidence ever because it's a PTSD trigger (this is also a well known manipulation tactic) and he's also claiming that the evidence being brought to him was a huge backstab, despite the fact that what WOULD'VE been a backstab is if I had talked about it online without speaking to him first, which obviously isn't what happened considering this is the first time since it happened that I'm speaking out. "Because of what you decided to do" aka I didn't ignore when I was showed a KND shotacon drawing in his exact same artstyle posted within the past few months that was found to have been an original posting, not a reupload of stolen art.

Don't need any context for this but here's this anyways because it shows me clearly not accusing him directly, but rather questioning the situation.

"You went online and defended me and then now do a 180 on me" because I was presented with stacks and stacks of evidence that look exactly like somebody continuing to do something fucked up in secret under a different name, because all they learned from when they got caught the first time was to hide it better... I didn't do a 180 randomly, I was shown images of KND kids in inappropriate, explicit situations that was dated extremely recently, and images that show that the person he claims he isn't is also in the exact same fandoms he is in, and has been for 4 years. Also, Arudan was completely making up "they" (the adults I spoke to) to make me afraid. I spoke with them and they all confirmed that they had no clue what he was talking about and even gave me evidence that showed that Arudan was, in fact, making it up that he had numerous people defending him on this. So yeah, he tried to intimidate a minor into silence. Because that's totally the way to act, as a grown adult, after being faced with your SECOND batch of CP allegations.

Again, "you betrayed my trust" because I gently brought the topic up and that it was concerning, which he proceeded to treat like drama rather than serious allegations. He also doesn't seem to understand that this isn't an out of the blue thing, and the reason it's so concerning aside from the clear correlation with his style, his timeline, and his fandoms, is the fact that this was the exact same type of content on the exact same site he had originally been caught with.

"This is the one thing I refuse to bring back up", again confirmong that he refuses to defend himself and is guilt tripping people who feel uncomfortable with his lack of a defense or his actions towards me about the situation. Speaking of guilt tripping, "like I'm legit tearing up right now I'm dumb for even trying to resolve this now" is coming from a GROWN ASS FUCKING ADULT about a SERIOUS ALLEGATION with STACKS OF EVIDENCE, said to a minor.

"I'm saying y'all shouldn't of started this to begin with - like this is completely out of line" again, he is talking about serious allegations being brought to him in one of the most delicate ways possible, being kept between a small group of people, and without anyone actually accusing him but rather questioning it to see if he has any way of defending himself, because if it's false information and he can prove it, we'd like to know. He is treated it like we came to him telling him he's a pedophile, when in reality we tried to gently talk about it with him to see if he had anything to prove innocence, which immediately caused him to refuse the conversation and refuse a defense.

Arudan proceeding to tell me that I should block and ignore acts of pedophilia in a fandom for children, with children actively in it, because "you can't stop everything". Basically he's admitting he does out of sight, out of mind BS, which even if he isn't guilty of recent CP, is a damning thing to admit, because that means he's an enabler of people who do disgusting things and thinks that silence and lack of action or confrontation is okay when it comes to CP especially in a fandom full of vulnerable people. May I state ONCE MORE, this is coming from a grown adult who should know better.

Arudan proceeding to threaten me into fear by saying he'd report me if I ever posted anything about the situation because, according to him, even unbiased recollection of the events and what happened is "harassment". Arudan, I know you're reading this, and I'd like to mention that you can't get this post taken down because I haven't slandered you in any way that you didn't explicitly do yourself by saying something horrible. Everything I've mentioned thus far and will be for the rest of the post is backed up by message evidence from you, meaning anything that makes you look like shit is your own fault for acting like shit because it's proven to be said by you specifically. Trying to install fear into a minor by telling them you'd report them if they speak about the incident is not just insanely wrong and a form of manipulation, but it's also a known tactic of child predators to keep them quiet after they've been violated, so even if you are/were originally innocent you completely fucked up your chances of redemption by targetting the only minor involved in the situation - who was TRYING to be in the background and let the adults talk - with damning evidence being found suggesting possible CP acts by you, pretending OTHER minors were involved so you could shit on them too, and then proceeding to spend an entire conversation repeatedly guilt tripping, manipulating, and making up lies to install fear into the minor in regards to the situation in an attempt to keep them silent about you. Not only that but the way you've acted about this has been childish and reeks of a cover up, which is why people would be so suspicious. I am not saying you did it because we STILL don't have proof, but I'm even less on the fence and more leaning towards your guilt specifically because of how much you tried to silence me and blame me over a serious situation that was blown out of proportion by YOU, and would've been calm had you not done that.

Again, I've said this before and I'll say it again, and I have proof this happened for anyone who wants it: I spoke to adults about this and I was trying my absolute hardest to let THEM handle it. Arudan, the reason I was thrust right into the situation despite trying to be in the background, is trying to accuse me of jumping into adult stuff, which is blatantly false because he knows he was the reason for contacting me this time. I spoke to adults about this "adult stuff", and the adults mentioned were the MAIN PEOPLE INVOLVED, yet again, he wanted to target me and me specifically for having brought it to the attention of adults. So, victim blaming! "Even the others said you need to chill" is another case of him lying about the situation in an attempt to scare me into submission or silence. "The others" do not exist, and if they do, it's SINGULAR and not PLURAL, although I have yet to see anything that even remotely suggests people believe I was out of line for sharing evidence I had come across with adults and asking for their input. Claiming that I need to chill when I have all our message logs proving that I had been nothing but kind and trying to understand the full situation from the very beginning is absolutely insane and you know you can't defend that, especially after lying so many times to try and make me fear you. I have been chill, and I only stopped being chill in this specific conversation after repeated disgusting and fucked up actions by Arudan like manipulation, lying, victim blaming, and guilt tripping.

Again, "our friends" is false. I spoke with our friends involved, and our friends involved showed message receipts proving this was a complete bullshit lie to try and get me to shut up. Showed me the entire conversations. Not once did any of them try to blame me in any way, and it really seemed like they didn't want to bring me up at all because of me being a minor and my only involvement was having brought the evidence to them. He also then says I'm twisting his words after he said I was blowing the situation out of proportion, because I said they're child predator allegations... Which they are. That's the very definition of what is going on here. He has allegations on him. Not confirmed, not denied, but allegations. They're there, and they are about CP and child predation. So once again, we see Arudan trying to flip the VERY SERIOUS situation onto ME by using shitty, hardly even accurate points to try and change the topic onto how bad I am for finding evidence. He wants to make it about a non existent twisting of words. "You don't like the fact that I am throwing facts at you" literally neither of us were spitting facts this entire time. It was a conversation about something we had already been over before he refused to speak about it any longer. We knew the facts, and this was a discussion of what was going on and why I was upset with him. You can also tell in the messages I've shown that he was NOT "spitting facts", he was hardly even making statements. He spent the majority of the conversation guilt tripping and manipulating. Also might I mention "like dude enjoy being a teen while you can"??? What the actual FUCK does that mean. That's insanely creepy. That doesn't make any sense in relation to the conversation and it could easily be interpreted by most people as a death threat or a predation threat. Maybe it's not, maybe he's just trying to spout out anything he can even if it makes no sense. It doesn't change how it came OFF, and he's lucky I tried to give him the benefit of doubt for that one.

I have unfortunately reached the Tumblr limit for images, which is why I'm open to sharing other proofs I've mentioned in this post in private DMs, because unfortunately I can only fit so much and I wanted to pick the main topic that makes him guilty, which is how he reacted to serious CP allegations, and how he decided to treat a minor who wasn't trying to be that deeply involved for this specific reason. Whether he's guilty of drawing CP recently or not, it won't change his childish, abusive reaction to the conversation. I spoke with somebody who was a recovered profiction person (shotacon is a type of profiction, for those unaware) and she pointed out multiple different manipulation tactics that he used against me during these conversations, and related them back to times she used to use those manipulation tactics when she was young and fucked up. She didn't even know much about what exactly had happened, but she almost nailed it with her interpretation or guess on the events that occurred for him to have used those manipulation tactics in particular, which adds further proof to him being horrible. If somebody can guess what happened without any prior knowledge based on the tactics of manipulation you used, it's probably because you're a shitty person and can't handle serious situations like an adult SHOULD handle them.

I have explicitly avoided mentioning any names of the others involved for their own privacy or their own wishes against it. I spoke with the people involved, who have been wanting to take this incredibly startling situation slow, about making this post. I was given a thumbs up and for that I thank them. They were a really great help and honestly, without them, I probably would've been successfully guilt tripped and tricked into believing the lies Arudan spout out about the situation. They were able to debunk these things and handle the situation in an appropriate way. One in particular was an amazing support and they took delicacy to make sure I was okay as the situation was affecting me severely.

This situation doesn't matter as of right now unless you're moots with him and want to unfollow. Like I said at the beginning, he left the fandom. He's gone now. It's unfair to leave everybody in the dark, however, because he has been posting nasty things about the situation publicly, and if I don't clear up any confusion first, he's probably gonna use this chance to dog on me and try to make me look like a horrible person, because he already tried to do that with the other people involved (who were NOT buying it, obviously). There's no action necessary unless you follow him and wish to unfollow. Blocking won't do much since he isn't in the fandom anymore, and absolutely do NOT go harass him because that's weird, childish, and I'm sure he already has enough guilt from how he treated literal children in this situation. It's also annoying and unnecessary to do, because he knows he's wrong already, and we know he's wrong, so it's not like that would somehow make progress. I repeat for a final time: this post is NOT a call out, but rather a recollection of events that lead to him leaving that affected a few of the more popular people in the fandom and affected a popular fan server pretty harshly. This is the first, and perhaps one of the only times that this will be discussed, simply so that the fandom knew what went down.

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