Sigma listened in silence, holding his gaze firm all until she finished. He felt even more disgusted with himself than when he had first walked in hearing the words come out of Phi’s mouth. Perhaps it was the guilt of everything falling all back on him. The Decision Games? He could have technically stopped that. Bringing innocent souls into the world only to have them suffer? He could have stopped that, too. Radical-6? Don’t even begin… Still, that was mostly in part of Delta’s highly radical actions. If anything, he was to blame and be punished, and Sigma did firmly believe this, but… why was she apologizing?
He began to shake his head, his own gaze dropping towards the ripples of movement dancing in his glass. “Delta’s actions were his own doing, and… and there is no justification for the turmoil he has caused to billions of people, but… you need to understand something–” He paused, his scowl deepening further now into a sad frown, choosing his words precisely, “You have never once been at fault, Phi. Ever. If anything… I should be the one uttering apologies, and, thus, I’m… I’m truly sorry, for everything. You never asked to be brought into all this world; into all the pain and suffering. You never asked to be tossed into another time like a wet rag, and…”
By this point, Sigma had buried his hand into his hand, rough fingers sifting through the thick, black hair of his. He went to release a sigh and hadn’t realized he’d been practically clenching his jaw this whole time at the memory of another time: the transporter room.
He could still feel the raw emotion of that single moment: his hand securely over Diana’s as they threw that switch together. The Transport Pods and their radiant warmth cradling the infants, buzzing and whirling with each passing second. Sigma could feel his heart sink. He wanted to scream and cry out and do nothing but protect and cradle them–but death was inevitable. He could still remember the passing days as Sigma himself grew weaker from the malnourishment, not even daring to think about how painful it was for Diana, or the twins. And as his vision began to fade finally one day (or night, who kept track anymore?), he could still feel soft little bundle of pink cloth nestled securely in his arms–a petite, little face resting peacefully and unaware of the harsh reality around–just before the world turned black.
Sigma’s hand suddenly slammed itself down onto the table, whatever water in his glass now taking the brunt of the quake and distorting the reflection as he spoke, “You, your mother… even Delta; I wanted nothing more than to give you all the world, and then some… I… I couldn’t even be there for you…”