is anybody else terrified of talking about things related to being trans to their friends who they are out to and who are actually very supportive?
like in theory i am totally safe with these people, yet i still feel weird about even just making offhand comments about my transness and my experience.
why am i so scared of them just one day having had enough, or getting bored with me being trans? why am i scared of them suddenly rejecting me because it's been going on too long or i've talked too much about it? why are these even thoughts that cross my mind? why are these legit fears that i have?
i think it's really tragic that as trans people we have to be scared of these kinds of things even if they don't have any proof or maybe even much possibility. because all our life we've been conditioned to think of peole like us as weird or freaks or even that we don't exist, so now we just fear that those who accept us now could suddenly realise that what we've been taught is correct, and trans people actually are weird and freakish and we aren't actually the gender we know we are.
but there are also so many instances when somebody says they support trans people but then turn around and say transphobic shit. so we have to be cautious around the people who say support us too because we can never really know whether they truly mean it or whether they just think they support us but actually don't.
and i think this is fucked up. and that this just makes being trans that much lonelier and isolating.
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