Itās funny Iāve been trying to get healthy again and lose weight. Itās been almost a year long journey now. On my own I managed to get down 8-9lbs but it was so slow going and I plateaued. I decided to go to a specialist (which I find out afterwards that my insurance doesnāt cover š¤). So now Iām shelling out over $120 per visit just to be told to eat less and be more active (which I was already doing). The only thing sheās good for is the drugs. I donāt think they do much in the appetite-suppressing dept but I think they are actually helping me stay away from alcohol. Donāt get me wrong, I still love a glass of wine or a craft brew with dinner (if Iāve got the budget for it), but I no longer want to get drunk. I just like the taste. After like two drinks, I get really full and if I have too much, I feel almost sick. Last night for example, I had a big lunch, a half of a sub sandwich, and wasnāt hungry for dinner. At night I had two glasses of wine with the guys while they had Taco Bell and was full and wanted nothing else but to go to bed. It wasnāt until I tried to do the ācomplete my diaryā thing on mfp that I realized I only had 755 cal that day. I didnāt do anything all day so this morning I felt like a blob. I had some coffee with the guys but knew I had to go to the gym to feel better about myself. Mike had bought donuts for everyone, and I was tempted to have one or even half of one, but I decided the empty calories werenāt worth it. But it wasnāt until I was just about out the door that I realized I hadnāt eaten anything and was starting to feel faint. I grabbed a breakfast bar, but half way to the gym I realized it wasnāt going to be enough, so I stopped at a Dunkinā Donuts for a wake-up wrap. Turkey sausage, egg and cheese. I sat in the parking lot of the gym for a few minutes and ate like half of it because I had a feeling Iād be even more sick if I had the whole thing. Anyway. I just did cardio. 20 minutes on the bike. And 25 minutes on the elliptical. The whole point I was trying to make was; even though Iām nowhere near my goal weight right now, I felt good about my body today. I put on a tight fitting athletic shirt that I bought even though it didnāt fit me at the time, and it fit better than ever. And the loose fitting yoga shirt that I went with instead because Iām still self conscious about my stomach, made my stomach look smaller and my boobs look great lol.
