Just a girl 👧

Just a girl with some untold stories 💖

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Walked hours on those known

but stranger streets,

Hoping to somehow run into you again

And ask for my peace.!!

-Nishu💞

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I would rather be

Silent and educate myself about stuffs,

Than

Being loud knowing nothing about anything.

Period!!

-Nishu💞

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Dear Papa.

You are my inspiration. So when it came to writing a love letter, I knew in my heart that it had to be for you. You are my first and only real love that i know will last forever. I know i love mumma too. But you are like my superhero since childhood.

Mumma might have always been vocal about what she feels but not you yet your actions always spoke louder than any words.

I still remember when i went to kota. That was the very first time i went away so far from home. And while you were saying goodbye first you tried to hide it. But then you looked at me and then hugged me and cried.

I've never seen you cry, like Ever. I can never forget that day. That day i knew i couldn't do anything to hurt you ever.

You have always been a part of me. Nothing makes me more proud to tell people that the mole under my left eye is exactly same as you have under yours.

It's not like we didn't have our fair share of ups and downs like every father daughter have. I've disappointed you many times but still you always find it in your heart to forgive me and keep loving me.

So today i want to share my gratitude for you. Thank you..

For always believing in me. For having faith in me when even i gave up faith on myself, For always making me laugh, For sharing your to the point sarcasm and sense of humor with me. For always questioning my fashion choices and still going shopping with me. For standing with me when i couldn't stand up for myself.

For just being the way you are. Thank you for being the pillar i can always rely on.

I love you, Always have and always will..

Happy Father's Day My Superman.

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Is it too wrong to feel good about something???

We live in a world where people can't see you happy.... Or doing good in your life..

And i think that's bullshit... You gotta cut those people out of your life... Whether they're your friends or family or anyone who give you negetive vibes...

You live only once and this life is definitely not to impress people who don't matter in your life... And those people who matter don't need to be impressed...

Don't let anyone bully you or make you feel bad about something you love...

Be kind but don't take shit from anyone 🙌💞

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Have you ever let go a piece of you peacefully even when you didn't wanted to?

So i took a stroll down the memory lane today.. Walking on the known but stranger streets... Alone with music... And all i can think about was... Will i get to see you ever again?..

You were a piece of me, I called you my best friend, My constant, My forever... But i had to let you go anyway..

I mean everything was great.. But why'd you have to fall for me when you couldn't handle it?? I didn't ask for it?... All i wanted was to have you forever as my best friend.. I loved you with all my heart but just not in the way you wanted... But it wasn't enough for you... Was it??

I never knew that even love can ruin relationships... But now when i think about you... I think my love for you as my best friend was more true and pure as it can ever be.. Because...

That care i felt for you never left even after letting you go totally... And if it's not love.. Then idk what is..

You left an empty hole... That Neither time nor anyone can fill .. And maybe... Maybe... I will heal someday.... But there's always gonna be a scar which will stay forever ...

You might have forgotten me.. But you will always be Ayaan to my Alizeh 💕

"You were my sukoon in the world full of junoon"...

Thank you for everything you've ever done for me.. Thank you for saving me when i couldn't save myself...

Idk how this story of ours reached here..

But...

I'm letting you go.. Because it's the right thing to do..

But you'll always.. And i mean it.. Always have a place in my heart.. That soft corner.. No one will ever take... 💕

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Soo.. Once upon a time...

When i was in only 9th standard... There was this guy.. Whose house was on my way to my tuition, so everyday at 4.30 or something i don't remember exact timing... He used to sit outside his house and wait for me to pass and our eyes used to meet everyday for fractions of seconds ... And that always used to give me butterflies... Coz ofcourse he was literally the first guy to do that 😂😂 and well we all always tend to remember our firsts... Soo yeah.. But he wasn't my boyfriend... Never... We never got to that... 😅

He tried to talk to me... But.. Ofcourse i was way to much afraid to talk to a guy who's not related to me in any way neither school not Tution.. Not my neighbour either.. Total stranger 😅💯

And then one day he sent her sister to talk to me... And well.. That didn't worked well Either.. But then eventually i gave her my number.. My moms number... And then he couldn't stop texting that number.. And calling and texting and eventually my mom found out.. And she was like my little little girl can't do that.. This guy this guy is poisoning her mind and she eventually managed to scare him off by talking to his mother.. And then.. Pooff... We never talked Again.. 😂😂

No happily ever after...

Soo Moral of The Story.. He followed me on my instagram today.. 😂💯

Hey boy!! If you're reading this.. You know 😝

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So.. Today I had a dream of my long lost best friend....

I stopped talking to him Long ago.. I really really really fucking miss him with all of my heart.. But yeah.. This is life.. You gotta move on..

Soo basically in my dream.. He and I somehow became friends again after his dramatic entrance ofcourse... But then my boyfriend got offended that i chose him and somehow he converted himself into "Malivore" ( Watch legacies already i won't explain you what malivore is.) and then i tried to convince him but ofcourse he was pissed off and i don't exactly know if malivore can even hear me.. Considering Malivore don't exactly have ears.. So yeah there's that... But then i somehow went to my hostel room.. And found three lizards roaming around on floor... And then every tragedy i had earlier including my best friend and my boyfriend hating each other and my boyfriend magically getting converted into malivore gets flushed in the toilet... And all i can think about is how will i live there with these three grossly dangerous creatures.. Soo.. Yeah.. I know horrifying dream..

Moral of the story:- My dreams are as fucked up as life is...!! 💯🤐

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To:- The guy i once loved 💖

So apparently you didn't even knew i existed...

Well... maybe... yeah... fine...

You knew that i existed but you never had a clue how i felt about you back then...

Well to be honest i masked it pretty damn well that's the credit I'll take.. We were soo close yet miles apart... I literally crushed on you for like i don't know maybe 5 years? ....

And then i had to let you go... I was soo younger back then didn't even knew what to name the feeling i was feeling.. It's funny to think about that now.. But well now when i think about you.. Trust me... I have to accept that I am and always have been an hopeless romantic and foolish when it comes to feelings..

Soo let me tell you now from the elder version of me.. You don't appeal to me now as you did when i was young and dumb.. Sooo....

Ps:- I don't give a fuck about you now 😝💯

From :- The girl who had a crush on you 💕

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Life is so hard.

Either you're always trying to find flaws in yourself or there are people doing that for you. There's no in between.

Nishu💖

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I couldn't help but think about this...

That...

This decade is about to be over...

I mean i know you'll think that what's the big deal.. Decades come and go all the time.. But this decade really did played some vital role in many people's life..

Well just think about it... Can you remember the person you were in the beginning of this decade??

Now compare that person to the person you are today..!!

Feeling growth yet?..

How this decade truly and literally changed you... I know right...

I mean let's talk about me..!! In the very beginning of this decade... I was literally a baby.. Didn't knew about a fucking thing... Damn you won't believe once i literally turned my one senior to the teachers just because he was cheating.. I mean right.. Who does that... Wait... Mee.. I did that..!!

And and... Once i called a guy "bhaiya" just because he was a year senior than me...!! I was in 9th back than and he was in 10th.. I know right.. Not very bhaiya like.. And trust me when i think about it.. He was actually cute... And well I never felt enough of beating myself up for calling him that.. Soo there's that of my foolishness..!!

But that was before...

But now when i look at myself...

I think i've grown enough... I mean i won't say that I'm the smartest... But i mean trust me i never called anyone bro again.. I have one of those "a real brother" and he's enough for making me miserable..Don't need more of them... But why are we talking about him.. Urgh.!!!

Yeah ...

So i was saying.. In my opinion... This decade was literally a blast.. Damn man.. In literal ways...

I had my first everything in this decade... I mean.. My First ever boyfriend.. My first ever not soo heart breaking break up..My first truly heart breaking and earth shattering break up... My first ever bunking school....My first everything actually.... And how i see it...

Firsts are always special...!!!

I may have been living in hostel right now... But no hostel or pg will ever replace the time i spent in "kota".. My very first experience of living away from my family for such a long time...

And i still remember the very first day in that KDM hostel when Mumma and Papa were leaving after getting me settled... I saw my papa cry.. I never saw him cry... Like ever.. Until that time... (Apart from that time when my grandpa died which is different story).... He hugged me and he cried... Even my devil brother cried that day... And man.. That was special.. I never forgot that moment.. I just can't...

Well even after that i went to Hostel again... When i went to college... But nope.. None of us cried... Coz uno i wasn't dying.. And well i was close to home either ways... but you getting me ?? Firsts... Man... First..!!!

You may have something you love and cherish it forever... But the feeling of you having it for the very first time is a truly different than having it for the n-th time..!!

Soo idk.. Maybe I'm just being Nostalgiac.. But i think i owe this decade soo much respect for making me what I am today...

And i hope i will keep growing and keep making memories and keep doing many firsts...!!!

But for me it is and always will be "The decade of firsts"....!!!!

Goodbye 2k19...!!💥

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How many of you have been in love?

And do tell how you can define it was love??....

I mean maybe you just didn't wanted to be alone and liked someone's company??...

Or maybe you just liked attention??...

And can you really define feeling "love"?? How about it was just infatuation.. Or attraction?? Or maybe just a fling??...

I know right..!! It's hard to sort... And actually pointing down what you felt was real or just your mind playing tricks on you...

I've been in relationships... And also had my fair share of heartbreaks but none of them was real uno...

I mean I've always known "if it's love it's forever". And let's consider our relationship with family... You fight with family... you might not even talk to them for months or years... but whenever you need them... They're always there for you having your back... And that is forever...!! And that is exactly the definition of "love"...

So my friend... If you're going through a heartbreak...Trust me on this... What you had was not "love" and therefore it wasn't forever....

And if you ever have someone who'll stay with you even when you're literally breathing down their neck and making their life insufferable and still they stick around with a smile... And emphasis on stay uno...!!

Then you can say it's "love".. And you have love... And it's "forever"...!!!

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So i was thinking about myself alot Lately...

Deep thinking uno...

Soo there was a time once...

When i literally dragged a girl across the street by her arm to bitchslap her just because she called me name and i got pissed... And my aunt had to come in between to stop me.. And man she got soo scared 😂😂

A couple of days later... I crossed paths with her again and she apologized for calling name..!!

And now fast forward to present...

If someone called me name nowadays... I would most probably pretend that i didn't hear them... Just because I'm too tired to deal with people's shit anymore...!!

Is it called maturity or just being lazy..?!