I have a situation with law of assumption.. I was wondering if you could give some advice, anything is okay.
it might be long, but I like your vision on things so I thought you were the best to ask this to:
I’ve been into manifestation since middle school like back in 2018 and it was a wild ride because I didn’t know how to apply it, so I was on the loop.
then i discovered Neville on 2020 and tried to apply his teachings and I kinda had some “tiny” manifestations but never the ones that I wanted.
in 2023 i fell in love with this sort of Instagram influencer (and this is going to be really embarrassing to confess ngl) and I had a huge crush on him, so I tried to manifest him.
i became so obsessed over law of assumption, the terms of 4D/3D, Edward Art, I was into every single corner of the internet reading and filling my brain with this philosophy.
i can’t describe to u how obsessed I became for this guy, like I replied to his stories (not in a crazy way) but since he never replied or had an interaction with me I became obsessed , like, I had PANIC ATTACKS over him. I cried and became obsessive over a guy that never interacted w me.
My day fully depended on what happened mentally w him, and it became so horrible that I developed a limerence… it was awful
So I stopped trying to manifest him, and my life got better.
Then I met another guy, and same thing happened (not as crazy but kind of obsessive as well), and then I “gave up” and then I tried again w another dude and got the same result.
That same year, I got bullied by people at high school so I was always trying visualize and affirm like crazy that people liked me and never rejected me, but of course nothing happened. So I became depressive as well.
I stopped trying to manifest. I stopped reading about it, and my mental health was better!
Now, with me saying all of this, im not discarding the existence of law of assumption or conscious creation AT ALL. As I said before, I know it happens because it happened to me. I unconsciously brought some things into my life that I’ve imagined before, but only that. Never the things that I actually deeply want.
2024 arrives and I wanted to give it another shot, but my brain didn’t not wanted me to feel the “wish fulfilled” because i feel like it’s protecting me from feeling “delusional” and “hopeful” from things again. I can feel fulfilled for a while and then this sort of chest pressure comes again and my brain convinces me to give up.
No matter how hard I try to feel the best for me on the inside, my brain rejects it and tells me “what if you end hopeful again” what if that doesn’t happen?”. And that feels engraved to my being
So I honestly do not know if there’s any hope for me when it comes to bringing things into my life. I’ve always wanted the best for me, and I don’t know if I should keep trying to get rid of that belief but I sincerely don’t know how.
Since I applied the law incorrectly it feels like I don’t even know how to do it no more lmao
It’s sad because i can imagine such beautiful things but my mind only gives me the chance to feel them as a dream not as a reality no more.
i used to imagine myself with guys a lot but I wasn’t fulfilled at all, you know?? so I screwed the ability to consciously create for myself.
I could have anything but my brain is like “nope. you’re imagining. Stop doing it.” Like as an attempt to protect myself.
The sad part is that I like a guy, I follow him on insta and I replied to him something random on one of his stories and I was like “what if I fulfill myself” and tried to change the inner man but nothing worked.
Is there any chance? Can I do something to fix this at all?
Because if I can’t, I will give up and stop exhausting myself. But I do want to trust in myself, I feel like I can do better… but how? how can I change the inner man when I feel so hurt by life?
i hope you read this and if you know what I can do, please do. I like your views
Have a nice day Alia, and I’m glad you’re combing back ♡︎
i say stop trying to “change the inner man”.
i say look within and discover who you really are.
who is this inner man? is it an higher being an abstract entity? who is it?
find who you are, notice who you are and all your struggles will stop, the feeling delusional, the hopelessness will stop.
find who you are and there will be no desire no more.