Hello, I'm a human.

- An anonymous blog.

[justaratinacagexx]

Sometimes I feel like I only have the energy to work and sleep. There's a lack of motivation and interest in just about everything. I think it's my lack of social life. I have few friends that aren't just like work friends and co-workers. I feel like everything is bland.

I used to have so much more imagination and enthusiasm. I guess I've lost a little bit of that somewhere. I wish a coffee was a cure all.. for the amount of fatigue and lack of motivation I have. It's not, but I still consider myself an addict for caffeine these days. Just hope my heart can handle it.

[justaratinacagexx]

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[justaratinacagexx]

I spend about 40 hours a week working in a well known chain restaurant. The work, environment, and people (coworkers and employees) are sometimes stressful and just downright stupid. Today I crashed out. Sometimes in the moment I feel so heated, I'm shaking. I feel like it's so valid then but later I feel like an idiot for showing my ass. Almost like guilt. Haha so weird.

Random thoughts, I guess. Not that anyone cares. I just feel too much.

[viejito-at-heart]

everyone tells me that ADHD isn't an excuse for being lazy and that there are people with ADHD who have overcome their symptoms and are successful but every day I drag around an invisible dopplegänger of myself who is horrible and listless and always complains. and he is so heavy. I'm ambitious and I'm passionate but he isn't and the problem is that to get anywhere in life I have to grab him by the leg and pull him along the whole way, kicking and screaming, and sometimes it gets exhausting. sometimes he pulls me down with him. and it gets a bit difficult to explain to people why I'm lying down on the floor in pain when they can't see him.

[justaratinacagexx]

I've never heard ADHD explained this way....but it's such a good depiction of it.

[glamoriized]

[somewordsarebiggerthanothers]

[thoughtkick]

“Never leave a person who touches your soul more than your body.”

— Unknown

[wordx]

“Forgive me for my love, for ruining you with my love.”

— Fyodor Dostoevsky

[justaratinacagexx]

The likelihood of me keeping up with this blog is unlikely. Part of me thinks it's just my ADHD. I always want to do all these different hobbies or things but lose interest in them quickly. If I just pop in and out of here and there are actually people out here reading that even gives a fuck HIII I'll be here. Just in random spurts and in very inconsistent posts.

[vv-itchy]

[justaratinacagexx]

#1

I have looked at many different types of blogs and have always wanted to blog and be serious about it. But I always come back to tumblr because for some reason I can't let go of things that are familiar to me. I'm not even sure I'm that interesting or that anyone out there would even care enough to read what I post anyways. I should just be doing it for me, really. But the human in all of us just wants someone out there to care am I right?