Against the rough bark of the alder on the bank of the creek at the edge of the forest. Hand leaning on trunk, the scarred trunk where someone has carved the words “misfits 1993”. Face turned to the sun, feeling the cool air rising from the creek bed. There’s sun on my cheek. Sensing. Aware of sounds: birds, the various voices of the creek as it descends over pebbles, over mud and willow roots, around a big rock, eddying into a vortex, becoming a vortex and then, with an audible gurgle, returning to the flow. Aware of the discomfort in my hip, the warmth of the sun on cold, dry lips. Aware of the water on my lips and of the water evaporating leaving my lips dry. Aware of the miracle of water’s plenitude in everything surrounding me; tying the forest together. The gathering, interdependent plenitude of water, matter, substance, atoms and molecules, cells, organisms, organs, all making up the fabric of the forest. Aware of the density of the forest around me, the weight of it, the thickness of it, the thickness of the trunk of the alder, the thickness and density of the soil underfoot, aware of the thickness of the creek bank, the fragility of the creek bank, the density of the web of the creek bank, the substantive web of the creek bank. Aware of the forest as more than an image, a tableau, “scenery”. Aware of myself as more than an image, more than a manufactured identity. Aware of being conscious. Of my own consciousness. Aware of the interdependencies surrounding me, the significances in the surroundings, in each element in what surrounds. Aware of each shape as distinct and distinctive, yet part of a gestalt. Aware of the alder as a portrait. Each element in it, like each element in a Rembrandt self portrait, honestly asserting its own truth. A face with wrinkles, lines, rough patches, sags, cracks and breaks. A bleakness about it. A brilliance about it. Through the eyes, through the knots on the surface of the alder - its eyes - a light emanating from within it. Light emanating from the starstuff at the core of it. The alder has no heart, no pump to clear away a major blockage. Water wicks its way upward, rising in defiance of gravity, not even requiring living cells to do so; rising because of the pull of evaporation and the adhesive attraction of water for itself. Imagine yourself struggling to carry a 19 litre container of water weighing 19 kilograms (42 pounds) up several flights of stairs. Imagine doing this forty times a day. Then imagine that the average sized tree (about the size of our alder beside Bowker Creek) having neither heart nor muscles, transporting a similar volume effortlessly on a daily basis. The xylem sap, water and dissolved minerals, gets transported long distances by bulk flow through the veins. Transpiration, literally “breath carried across”, reaches the rest of the forest. Oxygen carried across to the surrounding environment. In the interdependent forest along the banks of Bowker Creek the alder is one element in the drama of Life’s longing for itself being played out in front of us. Are we, each of us, part of the forest, part of the creek, part of the interdependency? Or are we alien? Do we sense being a part of the forest? Are we aware of it? Or do we merely pass through it like a ghost passing through a graveyard? Do we feel a connection or do we feel like misfits?