I don't care anymore

¤TRIGGER WARNING¤》~| 19 Female | self-harm | social anxiety | depressed | hate myself |~《

[satans-flowers]

“I am painfully aware that I am no one’s favorite person”

— unknown (via there-will-be-violence)

[justgivemedeath]

I'm so sick of these dark days chasing me further underground..."

- Crown the Empire, Rise of the Runaways

[justgivemedeath]

Why can't I be...

The perfect person?

The pretty person?

The person that isn't me?

[brokxnn]

[justgivemedeath]

It's hard to kill someone that's already dead inside...

[justgivemedeath]

"All my life I have been trying to understand myself, It seems like my own reflection is just somebody else..."

-My Father's Son, The Amity Affliction

[queerlysad]

[justgivemedeath]

Pain is weakness leaving the body, which is why I continue to cut myself but still remain weak

[depression-took-over-my-liiife]

[justgivemedeath]

To many times to count...

[flatlinedheart]

[justgivemedeath]

I feel everything I do is wrong...

[iamquietlydrowning]

[justgivemedeath]

"I need someone to take my hand, It feels like I can't breathe, And I might drown on the way down, I'm sick of all the comedowns, Don't tell that there's nothing wrong..."

-The Weigh Down, The Amity Affliction

[justgivemedeath]

Here I go again

Cutting to help with the pain

Why? You may ask...

Why do this to yourself?

That's a great question that I can't seem to fully answer...

Maybe numb the pain?

Maybe to stop myself from suicide?

Maybe some other reason?

But what's it matter anyway?

I won't get help...

"Coward" I repeat to myself...

"Weak" I say as the tears stream down my face...

"Pathetic" I scream in my head over and over again as the blood runs down my thighs

I'm stuck in this cycle

And if I can't help myself...

How will they help me?

[justgivemedeath]

How do I tell people I'm depressed when they see me being "happy"?

How do I tell someone I self-harmed and still have the aching urge to cut?

I want to tell someone but they will think I'm being dramatic.

My blade is calling to me to ease the pain again...

What am I to do now?

Should I just end it all?

What is stopping me?

Why can't I just turn my mind off for one second?

Why do I have to continue to feel this way?

[tv-saved-the-teenage-girl]

♪ If you’re depressed and dead inside clap your hands ♪

[youhaveaguineapigwhere]

[justgivemedeath]

[justgivemedeath]

I can feel that feeling creeping up behind me, waiting to consume me whole once again

[ravenzeppeli-deactivated2023082]

My legs are dangling off the edge, The bottom of the bottle is my only friend, I think I’ll slit my wrists again and I’m gone, gone, gone, My legs are dangling off the edge, A stomach full of pills didn’t work again, I’ll put a bullet in my head and I’m gone, gone, gone.