Honestly, Idk.

[justjennn]

Its hard to feel like you’re enough for others when you’re not even enough for yourself.

Self love comes a long way, but its also a long ways from becoming a reality for me.

[justjennn]

9:10am

Woke up feeling immersed in a plethora of anxiety. Every inch of my body uneasy, my brain cluttered with pessimistic thoughts that wont give the time of day for any negotiation, my entirety exhausted from just existing.

[justjennn]

Do you ever feel.. alone?

Not physically, but mentally. Emotionally. Like there wouldn’t be a soul out there that would really understand how you feel and what you’re going through, because quite honestly you don’t even completely understand it yourself.

Alone because you dont want to let others in on even a fraction of your thoughts, in fear that it might drive them away. So you pretend like everything is okay.

When in reality, its far from it.

[justjennn]

No matter what I do, there’s always just this lingering feeling of sadness. Some days i can occupy myself enough to keep it at bay, but other days the sadness will just come full steam and consume me.

This past year has left me beaten down to my very core and i just feel like i lost every piece of myself along the way.

[justjennn]

Slowly but surely going to get my life on track. I may be lost and confused now, but a bitch will bounce back.

[justjennn]

5am thoughts.

Its 5am and my mind is vacant.