John

Queer | Humanist | Nature Lover | Agnostic Atheist | Optimistic Realist

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Word of the Day | Asterism

as·ter·ism 

 A prominent pattern or group of stars, typically having a popular name but smaller than a constellation.

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Word of the Day | Bacchanalia

bac·cha·na·li·a

A riotous, boisterous, or drunken festivity; a revel.

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#reading #readingnow #palebluedot #carlsagan #page332 #chapter22 #tiptoeingthroughthemilkyway #typography #dubielplain #book #quote

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Word of the Day | Bon Vivant

bon vi·vant

a person who enjoys a sociable and luxurious lifestyle.

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Word of the Day | Precariat

pre·car·i·at

growing class of people living with short-term and part-time work with precarious living standards and ‘without a narrative of occupational development.’ They live with multiple forms of insecurity...

The American Precariat

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Was watching a #storm silently flash across the water.  I’d always wanted to take pictures with my brother’s #canon and decided that #nighttime, #lightning photography was a subject a novice should start with.  Ran inside, looked up some shit, tinkered with the camera and set up at the end of the dock--my bubba lying down at the other end, protecting me from timber wolves. 

I pointed, I clicked, I reviewed.  I watched, I glanced, I reveled.  A 180° plane of flickering, blazing light coming from within a tower of #clouds.  Nary a bolt to be seen yet their presence lighting the clouds from within.  Illuminating the mantle, showing me how it churned and turned and twisted.  How it hung in the #sky.  But when I closed the shutter, nothing.  No glowing nimbus, no rolling thunderhead.

Point.  Click.  Review.  Adjust.  Click.  Review.  A flash.  I click.  Darkness.  A flash.  Click.  Success? 

Not quite.  Only the glow from some lightning that flashed off camera.  Should I swing the lens in that direction?  No.  Wait it out.  It’ll come.  But it doesn’t.  And I move the camera.  And then from where I had just turned away came a cacophony of light and I can’t help but feel bemused.  Should I turn back?  For an hour and a half I played this game of point and wait and click and look.

I was not getting what I set out for and yet the show before my eyes made that all okay.  Manifestation of nature, illuminating the scenery, racing across the water to flash in my eyes.  To light up my face.  To throw brief shadows across the landscape.  This made it okay.

And isn’t that #life?  It’s certainly #nature.  To not care what our plans are.  While we grow frustrated when we aren’t capturing that which we set out to, a light show is occurring in front of us.  While we continue to try to fight for something of our own, we shouldn’t turn our eyes away from this spectacle.  The people that crisscross our lives, the places that implore our study, the experiences (both simple and amazing) that flash at us every damn day.  And while I never did get that image I really wanted, I still managed to capture some that made me look closer and gave me a sense of awe.  Heck yeah.

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Safe in your box #grass #roadside #sky #blue #clouds #roadsign

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Hand(s) #reflection #mirror #hand #gardener #selfie

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The Laughing Heart

your life is your life don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission. be on the watch. there are ways out. there is light somewhere. it may not be much light but it beats the darkness. be on the watch. the gods will offer you chances. know them. take them. you can’t beat death but you can beat death in life, sometimes. and the more often you learn to do it, the more light there will be. your life is your life. know it while you have it. you are marvelous the gods wait to delight in you.

Charles Bukowski

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Word of the Day | Mercurial

mer·cu·ri·al

(of a person) subject to sudden or unpredictable changes of mood or mind.

“I don’t care what you think.”

In his bed, we laid next to each other.  I looked his way, while he faced the ceiling fan, flywheel blurred as it swayed in its mounting. The morning light quietly reached every corner of the room, bouncing from wall to wall and off the white sheets; flannel, soft as the skin just behind your earlobe.

Some conversation about spirituality or lack thereof and his quick turn of phrase rattled around the part of my brain I had emptied out just for him and his words so they don’t do any permanent damage. 

 “I mean, of course I care what you think…”

Trailing off happened more often now.  He had started back into self-care and some new age Buddhism seemed to give him permission to cultivate his enlightened consciousness while not mincing words with me.  Everything that is said and done is meant to be if one reached enlightenment.  He wasn’t quite there yet, but he seemed to be done with me.

He told me earlier in the week that he felt better that he was no longer responsible for my feelings.  I had wondered how it could be so easy to shake me from his charge.  It’s not easy he told me.  It was me that had fallen in love with him though.  I kept my distance after that.  He had always come to me.  To go to the museum.  To grab a bite.  To watch Netflix.  To go to the bar.  To sleep over.  I couldn’t initiate anymore—although I really never could before.  So his feeling of duty to me had burdened him.  And I had never asked anything of him.

From buds, to best friends, to fuck buds, to unrequited love, to telling me he doesn’t care what I think.  He’s ready to do things alone.  The mercury rises and falls; gunmetal grey that tells me it loves me and then pushes me away.

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Abode--one corner #peacelily #home #interior #plants #window #color #green #white #light #sunlight

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Get out there. #chublake #lake #sky #dog (at Chub Lake)

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Lil' rhymin' catches my eye. #theroad #cormacmccarthy #book #typography #novel #goodshit

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Reminder at the threshold. Your life is your life, know it while you have it. #thelaughingheart #charlesbukowski #laughingheart #poem #poetry #mirror #diy #vinylletters #selfie #door #entry

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#newspaperblackout #blackoutpoetry #newspaper #poetry @austinkleon