[ TRIGGER WARNINGS: depression, blood mention, self-harm mention, suicidal thoughts ]Ā
Ā Ā Ā ābut,ā he says, chewing on his lip and itās a nice distraction, tasting copper on his tongue and it grounds him a bit, reminding him of the cuts along his arms and the tangy scent of blood whenever he doesĀ do so. heās not sure how his cousin is planning to pull this off, considering that theyāre still underage and they wonāt have any parent supervision over there. and to go to another country in which neither of them were fluent in the main language was a bit crazy, even for him.Ā
Ā Ā Ā āwe donāt speak english ..ā he makes a soft sound, sucking on his split lip and he glances down at calleis quietly, the gentle licks to his hand making him smile just a bit. it takes him a moment before he realizes he hasnāt seen his vulpix in a long time and he scrunches up his nose slightly, gently running his fingers through her fur again, combing it out gently and he does feel bad but heās not sure what heās feeling bad for right now.Ā
Ā Ā Ā he sighs, unsure and he doesnāt want to leave seoul. but, at the same time, he doesnāt want to stay here either and heās just torn. sometimes, he honestly just wished that he couldāve gotten caught in the attacks, and right now is one of those times.Ā
[ trigger warnings: depression ]
Ā Ā Ā heās finally getting responses from hongbin that make sense, the logical things heās used to hearing from the other, and he grins in response. itās just nice to hear the otherās voice, sounding fairly normal, fairly tuned into the conversation, and he replies gently, his eyes softening.Ā āour parents said it would be a good idea. even if we just go for a short vacation.ā he offers up, showing that he hasnāt just gone crazy.Ā
Ā Ā Ā āthatās not true,ā he argues with a fond smile.Ā āi speak english decently, and youāre pretty good at it, yourself. itās going to take some work, but itāll be fine, iām sure.ā he sounds more confident than he really is, but at the same time, heās pretty sure that they can pull this off. if theyāre determined enough, itāll be okay, right? heās heard that certain parts of the states have a large korean population, anyways, so heās sure that theyāll be alright, one way or another.Ā
Ā Ā Ā ājust for a while, even? letās just get out of here for now, binnie.ā he hopesĀ his cousin will say yes. itās more for the otherās health than anything else, at this point, although he doesĀ want to compete, heād go anywhere, as long as hongbin will leave with him.