Kaleidoskop

Das Wort Kaleidoskop stammt aus dem Griechischen und bedeutet: schöne Formen sehen. Konkret lauten die drei Wörter: καλός (kalós) „schön“, εἴδος (eidos) „Form, Gestalt“ und σκοπεῖν (skopéin) „schauen, sehen, betrachten“. Ich, 28, irgendwo

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“when the person you love has gone away, it is not just the person itself that you miss; it is their smile on a rainy day; the fact that they listen to what you say whenever you need to talk, it is the evenings you spent watching a movie, it is holding hands in the middle of the night and kisses on the cheeks when you are already half asleep. it is their voice and their face you got to know so well. it is the love they gave you, that feeling when someone is sleeping next to you at night; someone taking care of you and making you your favourite cup of tea and the fact that they know the right amount of milk in your coffee. it is not just the person, that you miss. it is everything it has ever been about. it is every feeling and every experience you have shared”

— thoughts two days before christmas (via k-aleidoskop)

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i’m an eldest daughter and i don’t get the hate for the song. for me, it instantly hit home.

and honestly, listening to the song for the first time, opposite my little sister who I would never leave out or let down, just hit differently.

it broke my heart, and put it back together.

as an old school tumblr girlie, I could also relate to the “I was dying just from trying to be cool” line.

[wyntswonderland]

[galina]

I always dreamed I would have a home open to happening: weekend coffee with everyone gathering in the kitchen, dinner parties which leave laughter ringing in empty rooms for days afterwards, our bed a shore and us a wave crashing down in the early hours. In the morning, I get up and see our sofa made up with an array of pilows, knowing our home is full of our friends makes my heart hurt with the bursting joy of it all

[latenights]

weird how 15 years from now it might be ur wedding or ur kids birthday but rn it’s just a regular shitty day

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Get over your hill and see What you’ll find there with grace in your heart And flowers in your hair

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“1) the secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times. 2) we have to be prepared for change 3) it´s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting 4) it´s the simple things in life that are the most extraordinary 5) when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. 6) sometimes it is better to leave things as they are 7) all things are one 8) we have to live with our mistakes 9) sometimes, there is just no way to hold back the river 10) never stop dreaming 11) eat when it´s time to eat. and move on when it´s time to move on. 12) when you are in love, things make even more sense. 13) listen to your heart 14) tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself.”

— advice i took from ´the alchemist´ by paolo coelho. one new year´s resolution is to actually become ´the alchemist´

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(...) und vielleicht treffen wir uns in zehn Jahren an einem Bahnhof wieder und vielleicht erkennen wir uns wieder, vielleicht aber auch nicht. Aber vielleicht, und das will ich hoffen, trinken wir schlechten, dünnen Bahnhofskaffee und reden über das was einmal war.

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Dinge, die ich einmal gemacht haben muss (Update) :

Eine Nacht am Meer schlafen

´Der Steppenwolf´ lesen

Polarlichter anschauen

Ein Joy Division Shirt besitzen

Einen Mann mit Bart küssen

Mit dem Zug nach Paris fahren

Spontan ans Meer fahren

Nach Schweden reisen

An einem Tag eine Einmalkamera vollmachen

Einen Roadtrip machen

Ein Buch schreiben, wenn auch nur für mich

Ein Tattoo stechen lassen

Mumford & Sons, Bon Iver und Ben Howard live sehen

Jemandem lange Schreibmaschinenbriefe schreiben

Eine Polaroidkamera besitzen

Eine Nirvanaplatte besitzen

Nach London reisen

Nach Paris reisen

Nach Venedig reisen

nach Budapest reisen

An ein Musikfestival gehen

Gitarre spielen lernen

Mit jemandem Jam Sessions machen

Den Eiffelturm umarmen

Nach Schottland reisen so wie Mum & Dad

Eine The Smiths Platte besitzen

Eine Bon Iver Platte besitzen

Ein Moleskine Notizbuch besitzen

Ein Thanksgiving Essen kochen

Eine Minoltakamera besitzen

Gulasch kochen 

Jemanden glücklich machen

spontan zum Frühstücken nach Paris fahren

einen Hund adoptieren

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kleines Update

[wakeningwoods]

theslowtraveler

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der traum

[listentothestories]

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life in a box

[myfairylily]

Shaftesbury | formgestalter 

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this life

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how I feel about scotland ☀️

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still

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back home

[sverate]

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bei dir komm ich zur ruhe

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on re-watching old movies #submarine

it is strange, you know to re-watch a movie that used to be really meaningful to yourself. In my case, it is Submarine, produced by Richard Ayoade. The last time I watched it must have been about six years ago. I was sixteen and really struggling with myself. My sister and the few people I forced to watch it, described it as a depressing and horrible movie, but I loved it. (Actually, I just came to the realisation that they might found it depressing because they saw how I felt and what it did to me, but I didn’t know back then.) In a bad week, I watched it three times, that was at my high peak when I realised I should actually watch it less and don’t identify too much with Oliver.  I love the movie, though, because there was and still is so much to explore. The motif of water that ‘ runs through’ (pun intended)  the movie, and the great soundtrack by Alex Turner. I love everything about it. Yet I felt like I needed a break and I took it. Yesterday I re-watched it after almost six years and it didn’t break me, as I thought it would. I guess in the last years I grew not only older but also stronger. I don’t identify with Oliver as much as I used to and I really questioned the relationship between Jordana and him.  It is still really close to my heart because it reminds me of who I was and how much I struggled, but somehow, at least for now I got out of it and I really hope Oliver did, too. I know that sometimes it’s hard to get around the wind, but it’s possible and necessary.

PS: By the way, did you know that the actor who plays Oliver’s father is staring in Game of Thrones as well? No? Now you know. 

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going to Wales later this year and desperately want to go to Swansea where submarine was filmed