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writer: kaffi. this is a very trivial blog for random musings from books & music mostly. text might contain triggering content. activity on here will be sparse and not promised. all posts are ok to reblog! i don't take musing submissions or requests.

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icons of ENO & CHII from OGERETSU TANAKA’S one-shot CHII-CHAN & ENO-CHAN:

free to use ! like/reblog appreciated !

55 icons of eno ( DROPBOX. )

38 icons of chii ( DROPBOX. )

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icons of SHIMA and NOBUNAGA from  OTSUKI MIU’s one-shot LINE:

40 icons of shima. ( DROPBOX LINK )

32 of nobunaga. ( DROPBOX LINK )

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I wonder why I get paranoid when I’m high. I wonder why I say yes to everyone in my life. I wonder why I can’t run that fast in my dreams. I wonder why I feel short when I know my money’s tall. I wonder why I miss everyone and I still don’t call. I wonder why I can’t run that fast in my dreams. I wonder why I feel emptiness and I sing these blues. I wonder why I feel hopelessness when I watch the news. I wonder why I can’t find my voice in my dreams. I wonder why they say hate your brother and hide your gold. I wonder why we all fear the things that we might not know. I wonder why I can’t find my voice in my dreams. Although I guess if I knew tomorrow, I guess I wouldn’t need faith. I guess if I never fell, I guess I wouldn’t need grace. I guess if I knew his plans, I guess He wouldn’t be God. So maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know. Maybe I don’t know, maybe I don’t know. But maybe that’s okay.

jon bellion | maybe idk

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I guess if I knew tomorrow I guess I wouldn't need faith, & I guess if I never fell I guess I wouldn't need grace, & I guess if I knew His plans, I guess He wouldn't be God.

jon bellion | maybe idk

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another flirty/nsfw sentence meme .

  ( since we all have different tastes ! )

❝ for the date, do you have any... tighter jeans~? ❞ ❝ those ripped jeans are just a tease... i want to tear them apart. ❞ ❝ you know i love to hold your hand, but today you just look too good from behind. ❞ ❝ come on and dance with me~ if you can move in those pants, that’s it? ❞ ❝ let’s not... take of our clothes just yet... this is just too hot. ❞ ❝ oh lord, i just can’t stop staring at that piercing... ❞ ❝ ahah... p... please be nice to me... my asthma might kill me otherwise~ ❞ ❝ no, don’t sit... i’ll go down on my knees. ❞ ❝ woah... don’t you have an early morning tomorrow? ❞ ❝ i don’t care for being bullied in bed, so you should just stop. ❞ ❝ you don’t think sweatpants are hot? i mean... these are an expensive brand? ❞ ❝ there’s nothing dangerous with a little party make-out, right? ❞ ❝ candles? nah, that’s a fire hazard. i can set the mood very well without it. ❞ ❝ there’s just something so extremely irresistible about a uniform... ❞ ❝ let me smudge my lipstick in all sorts of places, hm? ❞ ❝ that paperwork seems awfully boring... wouldn’t i look better on your desk? ❞ ❝ my paperwork is killing me... i’m just imagining you laying on the desk instead. ❞ ❝ victoria’s secret? don’t tell me it’s a bag of perfume now~ ❞ ❝ fuck... you can step on me in those heels. ❞ ❝ i know i slept with a lot of people, but... it wasn’t making love. ❞ ❝ i’ll be your type, if you would only tell me what it is. ❞ ❝ i’m not sure if i’m comfortable being someone’s first time... ❞ ❝ you should keep the boots on~ ❞ ❝ these underwear are so... smooth... ❞ ❝ oh...~ i didn’t expect you to shave all the way. ❞ ❝ i’m not sure if i can... do that... i’m scared i’ll hurt you... ❞ ❝ i know you like it, but i’m not... comfortable... ❞ ❝ is that... lace i see? ❞ ❝ why from behind? well... i like the thought of showing off what i got. ❞ ❝ oh my god... here? really? are you sure? ❞ ❝ do you think i could... put my fingers in your mouth? ❞ ❝ ahaha... want to make me sweat right after i showered? ❞ ❝ the sweater... do you have anything under? ❞ ❝ anything you want to do, before i get dressed? ❞ ❝ wow... aren’t you even going to touch the food first? ❞ ❝ i put this on, thinking... dessert? ❞ ❝ i... put on a little weight, but... it’s okay, right? ❞ ❝ what’s with the layers? playing hard to get~? ❞ ❝ come here... warm your hands. ❞ ❝ my marks suit you. ❞ ❝ holy shit... i love stockings. ❞ ❝ if i break them with my teeth... will you hate me? ❞ ❝ i really... want everyone to know i’m yours. ❞ ❝ i like my reflection a little more with you all over me. ❞ ❝ a---ah! a bite?! ❞ ❝ the more the merrier, don’t you think? ❞ ❝ i got a new apartment, and i need someone to put clothes on the floor. ❞ ❝ let’s climb into the backseat... ❞ ❝ oh, look! my hand fits perfectly in your back pocket! ❞ ❝ look at the mirror... don’t you look cute? i know you do... ❞

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SHORT STORIES, my favorite kind of poetry ( meme ).

SIX WORDS .

❝ i heard you were doing good. ❞ ❝ you don’t grow your horns overnight. ❞ ❝ i promise, it gets better eventually. ❞ ❝ & we never talked after that. ❞ ❝ am i really, truly, that unlovable? ❞ ❝ don’t talk like you’re coming back. ❞ ❝ my most dangerous habit is trusting. ❞ ❝ we’re made of stars & stories. ❞ ❝ you didn’t have to do that. ❞ ❝ everything is poetry when you’re drunk. ❞ ❝ did i mean anything to you? ❞ ❝ real feelings don’t just go away. ❞ ❝ you came & changed the weather. ❞ ❝ when can you just be mine? ❞ ❝ there was no love, only lust. ❞ ❝ darling, stop wishing on dead stars. ❞ ❝ art is another form of screaming. ❞ ❝ silence is the most painful goodbye. ❞ ❝ what the fuck did you do? ❞ ❝ i’m drunk, dizzy & missing you. ❞ ❝ kiss me like you’re losing me. ❞ ❝ i don’t feel like smiling today. ❞ ❝ not all good people are innocent. ❞ ❝ we’re a disaster in the making. ❞ ❝ some things are better left unsaid. ❞ ❝ we really should’ve talked about it. ❞ ❝ i’m so glad i met you. ❞ ❝ i wish i knew you earlier. ❞ ❝ i fucked (pronoun/name) to our song. ❞ ❝ i dreamed of you this night. ❞

TEN WORDS .

❝ you saw the messed up parts of me, & stayed. ❞ ❝ all i’ve ever wanted was for someone to save me. ❞ ❝ since you left, i have no one to talk to. ❞ ❝ i apologize for the nights in which i cannot breathe. ❞ ❝ everytime i look at you, i want to kiss you. ❞ ❝ we said no strings attached but now we’re in knots. ❞ ❝ there’s a difference between missing someone & missing having someone. ❞ ❝ for which f are you drinking? fuck, forget, or fun? ❞ ❝ my biggest mistake was thinking i could live without (pronoun/name). ❞ ❝ whenever (name/pronoun) rose to kiss me, i fell even more. ❞ ❝ i wish that ‘goodnight’ was followed by ‘i love you’. ❞ ❝ let’s smoke a pack of mentholds & talk about love. ❞ ❝ your deep, sleepy voice makes me feel like i’m okay. ❞ ❝ i read both of our horoscopes looking for an answer ❞ ❝ reality is the absolute last place i want to be. ❞ ❝ i didn’t expect that drunk kiss could mean this much. ❞ ❝ all i need is a late night drive with you. ❞ ❝ feeling pain is nowhere near as terrifying as feeling nothing. ❞ ❝ your eyes are the color of summer fading into autumn. ❞ ❝ you are the warmest home i will ever, ever find. ❞ ❝ the world is less scary when i am with you. ❞ ❝ i still can’t tell which of us was the victim. ❞ ❝ i just need an excuse to hang out with you. ❞ ❝ your expectations for me have been set way too high. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to feel this way about anyone else. ❞

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130 misc manga icons .

contains; ☆ 130 of them. ☆ lots of intimacy & sexiness.  ☆ also; some cats , for tradition. ☆ fashion , food , scenery , hands , hair , more. ☆ beware of: nsfw content , nudity . info; ☆ this is the person behind @kamicons , y’all.  i officially forgot the e-mail for my icon blog! ☆ the only edit here is -12 contrast , since that’s what i use for my own roleplaying purposes. as usual, edit as you please! ☆ i actually re-named them & gave them numbers to give a more organized look, for once. ☆ anyone can use these. ☆ no credit is required. ☆ likes / reblogs are always appreciated!

DROPBOX LINK.

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132 misc manga icons .

contains;  ☆ 132 of them.  ☆ mouths && hands. sometime hands in mouths.  ☆ now with more; HECK YEAH CATS.  ☆ fashion , food , scenery , boobs , dicks , etc.  ☆ beware of: nsfw content , nudity , cigarettes && weapons.   info;  ☆ this is the person behind @kamicons , y’all.  i officially forgot the e-mail for my icon blog!  ☆ the only edit here is -12 contrast , since that’s what i use for my own roleplaying purposes. as usual, edit as you please!  ☆ anyone can use these.  ☆ no credit is required.  ☆ likes / reblogs are always appreciated!

DROPBOX LINK.

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I'm a one-woman demolition derby!

hanna, pretty little liars

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I'm so glad your back into iconing again, when i first stumbled across your blog i loved using your icons!

kaffi. thanks for the love, you !! this was really really sweet! my first icon posts got a lot of notes and gave me a lot of feedback, but it died really quickly and i honestly forgot how great it is, being able to help people, when i’m always making these icons for myself anyway! expect many more in the future! ♥

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172 misc manga icons .

i officially forgot the e-mail for my icon blog! as sad as that may be, here’s some more i made!

contains;   ☆ 172 of them.   ☆ LOTS OF MOUTHS && HANDS. sometime hands in mouths.   ☆ hands.   ☆ fashion , food , scenery , pets , etc.   ☆ beware of: nsfw content, nudity, cigarettes, scars && blood.   info;   ☆ this is the person behind @kamicons , y’all.   ☆ the only edit here is -12 contrast , since that’s what i use for my own roleplaying purposes. as usual, edit as you please!   ☆ anyone can use these.   ☆ no credit is required.   ☆ likes / reblogs are always appreciated!

DROPBOX LINK.

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THINGS SAID ON SKYPE TODAY #2 sentence starters

❛ he makes a good enemy. ❜ ❛ it feels good always having you by my side. ❜ ❛ i knew you could do it! ❜ ❛ that’s one hell of a pretty lady. ❜ ❛ i don’t blame you. ❜ ❛ i thought it was a chick at first! ❜ ❛ let’s cross our fingers. ❜ ❛ he’s usually really kind. ❜ ❛ i’m going to try be optimistic. ❜ ❛ may i suggest taking a deep breath in addition to that? ❜ ❛ i punched it and got it to work. ❜ ❛ the app crashed three times, and i tossed it to the floor. ❜ ❛ i took a shot and found a piece of chocolate. ❜ ❛ i just wish i could help you better. ❜ ❛ i'm all here to listen to your babbling and frustration ❜  ❛ he has probably used it more than you too. ❜ ❛ he has a boyfriend! ❜ ❛ i hope it’s okay. ❜  ❛ i'm here debating whether i want coffee or not now. ❜ ❛ just try to relax a little even if it seems impossible. ❜ ❛ this coffee is warmer than my heart right now. ❜ ❛ work can make one do crazy things. ❜ ❛ how are you still alive? ❜ ❛ even i am feeling shame now! ❜ ❛ how can a human being be so annoying? ❜   ❛ brilliant! ❜ ❛ don’t leave me to my doom! ❜ ❛ shoot, you’re right. ❜ ❛ be careful, young one. ❜  ❛ he loves family gatherings. ❜ ❛ she’s no pest! ❜ ❛ good start on a date! ❜ ❛ it’s a big puppy! ❜ ❛ look at that smile! ❜ ❛ may his soul burn forever in hell. ❜ ❛ can you get a blanket? ❜ ❛ it’s fucking freezing! ❜ ❛ damn that’s early. ❜ ❛ what will your mother say about this? ❜ ❛ she’s my darling now. ❜ ❛ maybe you could use him? ❜ ❛ kinda have to pee. ❜ ❛ just get some sleep. ❜ ❛ i want to be insulted, but know it’s true. ❜ ❛ i don’t want to kill a seal, what the fuck is wrong with you!? ❜ ❛ i wish it was a lie. ❜ ❛ she likes fish, what the heck. ❜

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HOLD BACK the RIVER   let me look in your eyes,  hold back the river    HOLD BACK

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i TRIED to keep you close to me, ––––– but l i f e got in the way...

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❛ the thing about love, is that it brings out the best of you. but it could also bring out the worst.                         fears.      rage.    self-doubt. ❜

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she had often mimicked death on the stage. then Death himself had touched her, and taken her with him.

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❛ ––– i have been right, haven't i, to take my love out of poetry and to find my wife in shakespeare's plays? lips that shakespeare taught to speak have whispered their secret in my ear. i have had the arms of rosalind around me, and kissed juliet on the mouth! ❜