living dead girl.

moved to wanlidas.

[kanimal]

ok hi… i’m moving tracy to my multi.  i know that’s weird since she’s been on her own for 4 years and has never been there but i don’t really give a lot of opportunities for other people to write with me here with my lack of memes / starter calls so she will be more accessible there. if you happen to have any threads you want to continue please just @wanlidas! 

[kanimal]

ok hi... i’m moving tracy to my multi.  i know that’s weird since she’s been on her own for 4 years and has never been there but i don’t really give a lot of opportunities for other people to write with me here with my lack of memes / starter calls so she will be more accessible there. if you happen to have any threads you want to continue please just @wanlidas! 

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌:

❝  okay,  well,  i appreciate that,  baby,  ❞  he nods.  ❝  i’ll be ready for it if it happens.  ❞  and even if he doesn’t understand why she would want to reconnect with her father,  he will SUPPORT her.  theo will always support her.  theo laughs at the way her cheeks redden,  hand coming up to allow his thumb to brush over her skin gently.  ❝  good.  i still find your blushing absolutely ADORABLE,  ❞  he teases,  eyes resting on her fondly.  those things that he adores about her will never go away;  he’s sure of it.  a slow sigh slips past his lips and he nods his head.  ❝  i was VERY vulnerable that night.  you know,  i think i was more vulnerable that night than i EVER have been.  even when i told you i loved you,  that night still felt more vulnerable because it was the first night i ever HAD been vulnerable with another person.  it was terrifying,  but  —–  you showed me it was okay with you.  it never felt scary after that.  so yeah…  it definitely happened how it needed to.  i NEVER want to have that time apart from you again,  but it brought us closer together.  it made us more sure of what we felt.  it was good for us.  ❞  it was a defining moment for them.  a soft chuckle falls out of him and he nods quickly.  ❝  i can’t wait either.  tracy raeken.  that’s…  it’s so PERFECT.  ❞

she rolls her eyes,  and his words cause her to blush anyway.  ❝  you know it’s not on purpose,  ❞   she claims with a small laugh.  she brings her hand up,  cupping his cheek softly and nodding back at him.   ❝  it was the first time you were telling me how you felt about me,  and  -----   seeing you like that,  vulnerable and open,  that’s when i realized i was definitely falling in love with you,  ❞   she admits.  ❝  so being that way .  .  .   it was good,  theo.  it was really good.  ❞  her grin grows.  ❝  even when we have time apart,  at least now we know that we get to come back to one another.  the not knowing if i’d ever talk to you again was what killed me.  ❞   too excitedly,  she leans forward and steals another kiss at the sound of the name.  ❝  that’s my name.  wear it out.  ❞

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

his eyes drift down to her body,  unable to look away from her as he watches her other leg slide up him,  remaining still as it travels over his arm and upward to join her other leg on his opposite shoulder.  a shaky breath pushes past his lips.  there is so much they could do in a position like this,  so much that he is ACHING to do.  it’s difficult to hold back,  to stop himself from stepping forward more and pressing himself against her,  but he manages.  the exhilaration of what they are doing now is far too tempting to stop.  both hands move to her thighs,  gripping them a bit tighter to encourage her to keep them there.  ❝  i think you are definitely flexible,  ❞  he speaks lowly.  ❝  and…  i think there is a lot i could do with that.  ❞  things he will be thinking about for a long time now.  his eyes deliberately study her body,  tongue swiping over his lips before he glances back up to her with a nod of his head.  ❝  good.  neither will i.  ❞  he already does not hide from her,  but maybe he’ll push that a little farther.  less clothes,  tighter clothes,  things that will aim to draw her eye to him in the same way she is looking at him now.  and he NEEDS her to do the same.  he can’t have them just go back to normal after this.  it seems impossible,  especially considering it doesn’t appear they will be getting any relief from this today.  ( he doesn’t even WANT to.  theo loves this little game too much. )  a low chuckle drifts past his lips at her taunting words,  eyes locking with hers more intensely,  grip on her thighs tightening again.  ❝  oh,  i can make you sit still,  ❞  he speaks firmly,  DOMINANCE in his voice.  his hands slide down her thighs to reach her hips,  gripping them to hold her still on the counter.  yet,  his eyes drift from her.  they find the clock,  staring at it for a few moments before his gaze drifts back to her and his hold loosens.  it’s a silent way of telling her he may need to end this soon.  ( he doesn’t NEED to.  he wants to,  just to torment the both of them a bit. )  but he doesn’t pull away yet.  he wants to see how much she needs this,  how much she craves this before he pulls away completely.

she watches his eyes,  trying to imagine what’s going on in his mind.  when he grabs her thighs,  she gulps,  nodding her head slowly.  ❝  start making a list,  ❞   she insists,  as if they’re going to work their way through that list  (  she doesn’t know if that’s actually a possibility;  she doesn’t know if he’s just having fun in the moment or if this is something that genuinely excites him  ---  but either way,  she wants him thinking about it.  )  she can’t help but smile at his next words,  shaking her head slowly.  ❝  you already don’t hide,  ❞   she notes,  looking down at his shirtless body,  then back up to his eyes.  the way he tightens his grip,  the look in his eyes,  his words  ----  it’s all too much.  she wants to keep teasing,  to keep acting like none of this is getting to her too much,  but all of his actions make it impossible,  so she stops trying to hold back.  a soft,  shaky moan falls from her lips,  her head nodding in an obedient manner.  she bites down hard on her lip as his hands reach up.  ❝  but can you keep me quiet?  ❞   she asks with a soft voice,  her eyelashes batting to him.  her body winces as he looks away,  the desperation so obvious in her features and in her body language,  the idea of him taking his attention off of her something she DREADS.   her legs slowly sliding down his arms,  widening again for her knees to push against his waist,  inviting him in farther.  she wants him.  there’s a near-panicked expression on her face that is ready to BEG for this once he looks back.  as much as she enjoys the game they’re playing,  and as fun as it would be to keep it going,  she’s not sure she has the willpower anymore.  she could make a choice now  ----  she could make a move.  she could get him to forget about whatever it is he needs to do now.  or she could leave it up to HIM,  but make it count.   but as much as her confidence has blossomed in the time they’ve spent together,  she’s out of moves,  too afraid to be the one to lean in first,  even though her eyes dart to his lips,  lingering there for a long moment.   ❝  what’s wrong?  ❞   she finally asks,  her voice shy as she looks back to his eyes.  she pauses,  taking a  deep breath as her legs tremble around him.   ❝  theo-----   ❞   it’s spoken quietly,  desperate,  a moan behind the word reflective of what he might hear more of if he gives in.  she’s pleading him with her eyes,  telling him that HE has to make this choice.  he has to be the one to decide how this plays out,  because she can’t.  

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌:

brows raise at her and he nods his head quickly.  the bright smile on his lips is FUELED by the easy one that crosses her.  it’s not often that she smiles,  so seeing it is BEAUTIFUL.  seeing it makes HIM smile even brighter,  especially when he’s like this.  he wants to see it more.  ❝  i’m going to save your party and your night and you’re going to save MY night!  ❞  he claims.  ❝  i had a good night,  but  —–  not as good as it COULD have been if you were there,  so here i am.  ❞  she makes his nights better.  he LOVES the company she gives him.  his head tilts and he looks past her into her room for a moment before his gaze finds hers again.  ❝  well,  luckily,  you are the only girl i need,  ❞  he chuckles.  ❝  even if you DID have other girls here,  my eyes would be locked on YOU.  ❞  he may not as readily admit that if he was sober,  but he’s not,  so he CAN admit it.  he can admit it without thinking.  theo chuckles as she tugs him inside and he lets out a happy sigh the moment she pulls his zipper down and slides her arms around his waist underneath it.  it makes this warmer.  it makes it more INTIMATE and he doesn’t hesitate to hug her back,  his hold on her TIGHT and almost needy.  his grin holds in the kiss she presses to him,  arms staying on her when she pulls away. a single brow raises at her flirting,  an AMUSED look on his features.  ❝  WORK for it?  i can do that,  ❞  he teases.  ❝  but be warned:  working for it means i might make you forget the pizza even exists at all.  ❞

❝  does your night need to be saved?  ❞   she asks,  looking for MORE.  he came here,  she wanted him to,  but why?  did he really just want to see her?  ❝  being here is not the same thing as being with me at a party.  trust me,  i’m a lot more fun here,  ❞   she teases.   she sucks in a breath,  heart racing a bit faster as he tells her she’s the only girl he needs.   ❝  really?  ❞   she asks quietly,  her head tilting to the side.  ❝  well lucky for you,  it is just me.  just me and you  -----   i wonder what we’ll do with that,  ❞   she taunts.  with her arms around him,  she feels the most comforted she has been all night,  relieved that he’s here now.  she doesn’t have to wonder or worry about any kind of trouble he’s getting in,  and she doesn’t have to keep waiting to see if he MIGHT show up.  she just gets to really enjoy her night now.  ❝  you’re warm,  ❞   she mumbles,  squeezing him a little tighter as she pulls back to look at him.   her nose crinkles and she shakes her head.  ❝  you forget how easy i am,  ❞    she taunts.   ❝  one kiss for once slice,  ❞   she suggests,  fingers tapping lightly at his back.  ❝  and then,  when it’s gone  .  .  .    we’ll have to find a new game,  ❞    she teases.    

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

his head shakes quickly and he lets out a soft laugh,  hand moving from her back to run down over her unclothed waist,  pulling her body against his to let their skin touch.  ❝  no,  neither of us are allowed to put our clothes back on,  ❞  he insists.  why should they if he intends for them to wind up in the position they were in last night?  ❝  of course i had an incredible night,  ❞  he mutters,  eyes looking over her fondly.  ❝  i was with you.  ❞  the words are spoken with a slight smirk,  a TEASE to his voice as if to make it less serious,  but he means it.  she made the night incredible  —–  more incredible than any night he could have had WITHOUT her.  there’s just something special about her.  he doesn’t know what it is and perhaps he doesn’t want to.  ❝  then it seems like we need to have some more nights like this.  ❞  they should be TOGETHER more.  brows raise as she begins to speak,  eyes darting between hers until she poses the question she really wants to ask.  the smirk that holds on his lips widens into a real SMILE,  a soft chuckle slipping past his lips.  ❝  of course i’ve thought about you,  ❞  he scoffs.  ❝  i have.  but…  last night,  you surprised me.  it was BETTER than any thoughts i’d had of you before.  ❞  she’s shy.  but some of that shyness seemed to go away last night as things began to get INTENSE between them,  like she was just going with what felt good,  what felt right.  he loved it.  ❝  —–  had you thought about me before?  ❞

she hums as he pulls her body against his,  so comforted by the intimacy and the closeness that is still so NEW to her.  ❝  well  ---  good,  because  .  .   ❞   she looks past him,  around his room for a second.  ❝  i really don’t know where mine are,  ❞   she admits with a small laugh.  she gulps at his words,  looking up at him with SURPRISE.  his words make it seem like it’s obvious.   no one has ever spoken about her presence like that,  and it feels so intense.  she gulps,  nodding her head and smiling.  ❝  i’m glad i didn’t ruin your night then,  ❞   she says.  ❝  i really thought i’d be a buzzkill,  but  ----   i suppose i kept you somewhat entertained,  ❞  she adds with a small smirk.   she nods her head,  biting down on her lip for a moment as she thinks.  ❝  maybe we  .  .  .   um,  start here,  though.  instead of pretending like we want to be at a party,  ❞  she admits with a small laugh.  she doesn’t necessarily mean HIS ROOM;  she means just alone,  but being here isn’t bad anyway.  her features turn bashful as he tells her he’s thought about her.  she looks down,  butterflies filling her stomach and making it twist as she takes a deep breath.  when he asks the same question,  she looks back up.  ❝  we were  ----  i don’t know what we were.   but i  .  .  .  i thought about what it would be like to kiss you.  what our first kiss would be like.  not like that,  ❞   she admits with a soft laugh.  ❝  and then i wondered if you even wanted that too.   things were  ----  i don’t know,  they were happening between us,  i guess,  but i didn’t know if it was all in my head.  i’m glad it wasn’t.  ❞   she pauses for a moment before going on.  ❝  so, yeah.  i thought about what it would be like to kiss you.  and i ----  okay,  yeah,  i did.  i thought about more,  ❞  she admits,  as if it’s some big secret.  ❝  i thought about what it would be like to do more with you.   but i didn’t think of it as something that would happen or was possible.   i was sort of  .  .  .   convincing myself you wouldn’t want me,  ❞   she admits in a quieter voice.  she didn’t want to set herself up for rejection;  she was just trying to protect herself.

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

a soft laugh slips out of him and he shakes his head.  ❝  vacations with tiny are called a ‘bro-cation.’  completely different from what we’re talking about,  ❞  he jokes.  his head tilts at her,  eyes trailing over her face fondly.  ❝  really?  you haven’t?  well,  then i guess i need to show you the world,  ❞  he speaks quietly.  ❝  i WILL.  we’re taking plenty of vacations and you’re getting out and EXPLORING.  we’ll explore together.  because i bet there’s a lot of things that you would want to do on those vacations that i never would have considered doing if i went on my own and i bet they’d be fun,  especially with you.  so we’re definitely going to do this.  we’ll make a LIST of places we want to go,  ❞  he insists.  ❝  —–  i’m looking forward to that too.  i’m looking forward to everything with you.  i…  finally feel HAPPY.  really happy.  the last time i felt that was back in college with you.  ❞  she is the first person who has shown him that happiness can MATTER.  a brow raises playfully at her and a smirk pulls at his lips.  ❝  then i guess i will have to scream it with you,  ❞  he teases back.

the intimacy between them is causing waves of WARMTH to run through his body despite the chill of the air around them.  he groans softly against her skin as he kisses her,  eyes shut and focus completely shifting to her and her body.  arms slide around her under the blanket as she wraps it around both of them,  sighing softly against her at the way it warms him up  —–  the way he feels so entirely ENRAPTURED by her.  nothing else on this trip,  in the WORLD,  matters right now but this.  when she breaks the silence to speak and pushes her hips into his,  he lets out a soft chuckle,  grip tightening around her to pull her hips into his again.  he knows what she wants and he will give it to her.  lips pepper over her neck until he finds the spot he knows is the most sensitive and lingers.  theo doesn’t say a word,  simply giving her what she wants —– he always does —– and beginning to suck at the skin,  wanting to leave a dark,  noticeable mark as evidence of their happiness on this trip.

❝  a bro-cation?  ❞  she spits back and laughs,  shaking her head.  ❝  you guys are so lame, ❞   she teases with a bright smile.  lips rub together as she looks up at him,  nodding her head slowly.  ❝  i’d really like that.  going anywhere would be fun with you.  but  ----  experiencing new things with you too,  yeah,  i’d like that a lot.  have you been on a lot of vacations?  been a lot of places?  ❞   she asks curiously,  realizing this is something she really doesn’t know about him.   ❝  i like that.  we already do that,  but  -----   getting to do that other places?  that would be fun.  it’s the perfect way to keep getting to know you better,  ❞   she insists.  she laughs,  nodding her head quickly.  ❝  well,  doing things together is always better,  ❞   she reminds,  nudging him playfully.

she sighs softly,  feeling so close to him now as they sit here together underneath the stars.  the sounds of the night around them feel so peaceful and relaxing as he kisses her skin,  body moving against his slowly to feel that intimacy.  as he begins to suck at the skin,  a soft moan falls from her lips,  her arms sliding up his back to really trap the two of them underneath this blanket,  reserving this intimacy just for them.  it reminds her of the first time he ever left  a mark on her  -----  the night they first kissed,  bodies found in a similar position as this.  it brings a grin to her lips as her back arches slightly,  encouraging his actions.  ❝  theo,  ❞   she whispers,  her eyes shutting.  ❝  don’t stop.  ❞

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌:

❝  we do,  ❞  he whispers.  with all the uncertainty he has in his life at the moment,  he’s not uncertain about THIS.  he’s CONFIDENT in this and that is something he is clinging to so tightly at the moment,  especially after his argument with tiny.  a soft chuckle that is slightly empty falls past him and he nods.  ❝  yeah,  i do.  i thought i was supposed to be the stubborn one of the relationship though,  ❞  he teases.  his head nods and he pushes out a slow,  shaky sigh.  ❝  yeah,  and i’ve always known i’m right when i was in your position too,  so…  you’ve got a point,  ❞  he promises.  ❝  i believe you.  ❞  it’s easy to speak those words,  but it’s not as simple to feel them.  but he’s saying he believes her because he will TRY.  he will try to let them set in and comfort him.  eyes lock with hers and he lets his body SOFTEN.  ❝  you’re mine,  ❞  he whispers back.  ❝  and i’m yours too.  that’s…  that’s all i feel like i have right now,  but i think it’s enough for me to hold on to.  ❞  his voice is barely audible,  as if it pains him to admit it.  and it DOES.  but he has to let her know how much he needs and appreciates this  —–  how much he needs and appreciates HER.

eyes shut as she speaks the words,  leaning his body into hers and letting him find such SAFETY in her touch.  he always does.  theo takes a deep breath when she complies with his request,  moaning softly against her lips when they press into his,  but only from the RELIEF of her touch and how much it comforts him.  he lingers against her lips,  kissing her back with a sense of softness,  adoration,  LOVE.  ❝  thank you,  ❞  he mumbles against her as he parts his lips from hers just barely.  ❝  for everything.  ❞

❝  don’t worry,  ❞   she whispers,  nudging him softly.  ❝  you’re still the stubborn one,  ❞   she teases,  offering a gentle smile.  she lets out a small sigh as he tells her she’s his,  knowing that those words will likely comfort him.   ❝  it’s not all,  but  ----   it’s A LOT,  ❞   she encourages,  pressing her lips to his cheek again.  ❝  but it’s not all.  i promise.  you can hold onto it though,  because it’s not going anywhere.  what we have isn’t small.  it’s  ----  ginormous.  and thinking about that always brings me to a better place.  i know it can’t fix it all,  but ---  i hope it does help, ❞   she insists.  

there’s already a soft grin on her lips as she pulls away from him,  bringing her hand up to cup his cheek.  her fingers brush over his ear,  nose bumping against his lightly.  ❝  it’s no problem at all,  ❞  she whispers.  ❝  i’d do anything to make sure you’re okay.  i  .   .  .    i don’t know what happened today,  theo,  but just remember that when you’re having those bad days,  you have this to look forward to at the end of it.  we’re always going to find a way to RELAX.  you taught me that.   ❞

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

a laugh falls out of him and he nods his head once.  ❝  okay,  sounds like a plan,  ❞  he teases.  his head tilts and he thinks it over for a moment.  ❝  yeah,  i guess i don’t really know what it’s like either.  i’m not exactly speaking from experience  —–  just what i’ve seen from my friends,  ❞  he notes.  theo has never been romantically involved with someone.  he has never WANTED to be.  still,  he believes he has seen enough and knows enough to speak with certainty.  eyes roll at her playfully,  a scoff erupting from his mouth.  ❝  of course i do.  lots of people want to be friends with me,  ❞  he taunts back.  his head nods and a smile lifts at his lips at the mention of tiny.  ❝  yeah,  tiny’s a great guy.  he’s been my best friend since i met him,  practically.  ❞  he’s one of,  if not the ONLY,  real friend that theo has.  he’s glad she thinks he’s nice.  he’s going to be here often.  ❝  looks like neither of us do,  ❞  he chuckles.  for some reason,  he finds himself PLEASED that they agree on that.  everything about this has told him that they get along better than he expected.

a brief,  low chuckle slips out of him as he stares back down to her legs.  he knows what she is telling him.  he can move her as he pleases,  TEST that flexibility she speaks of.  and he does.  one of the legs that is hooked around his waist is grabbed,  sliding his hand underneath her thigh to push it up higher,  testing not only how far she can go,  but how far she is WILLING to go as he adjust her to rest her leg up over his shoulder.  it makes his heart POUND to have her in this position,  mind already racing through thoughts of what he could do like this.  his eyes flick back up to hers to gauge her own reaction,  tongue wetting his lips.  ❝  i guess you are flexible,  ❞  he notes.  he’d like to test that eve MORE someday.  the soft moan that slips from her makes his whole body TENSE,  jaw clenching and deep breath draw in.  he would love to hear that more,  hear it LOUDER.  but this is enough for him to be able to imagine it.  ❝  good,  ❞  he whispers,  almost BREATHLESSLY now.  ❝  good.  ❞  every time she wears her hair up,  he is going to think of this moment.  his eyes drop from her features to glance down to her body,   studying it briefly before glancing back up to her features.  ❝  don’t hide anymore,  ❞  he instructs.  not around him.  not after this.  seeing her legs spread more invites him to step just a centimeter closer to her,  badly wanting to push this father,  to feel her.  his entire body is on fire,  ACHING and needy,  but he doesn’t give into it.  there is something so exhilarating,  so enticing about just THIS.  he doesn’t want that to end.  his breath is SHAKY as she moves her hand up to touch the corner of his mouth and down to his jaw,  his own sliding further down her thigh,  fingertips BURNING with their desire to drift between her legs.  her question drags a sigh that nearly turns into a moan from his lips,  eyes drifting down between her legs for just a moment before glancing back up.  ❝  i would very much like that,  tracy,  ❞  he whispers, gaze locking with hers.  it’s SINCERE.  he wants that.  he is CRAVING that.  and it is going to be on his mind for a long time. 

❝  i guess that means there won’t be any people coming over getting jealous because we live with someone then,  huh?  ❞   she asks with a soft laugh.  ❝  that’s  ---  weirdly relieving.  ❞   she never wants to be in anyone’s way,  especially his,  so it’s kind of nice knowing he won’t be seeing anyone like that.  she rolls her eyes and laughs.  ❝  oh,  okay.  i’m sure they do,  ❞   she teases.  but she does actually believe that.  talking to him now,  she can understand why.  her grin grows to hear that,  head nodding.  ❝  it’s nice to know you have good friends. ❞

she doesn’t try to stop him as he moves her leg,  only staring back at him as she waits.  a small grin tugs at her lips at the decision he makes,  teeth tugging on her bottom lip as she finally looks over to the way her leg looks stretched out in front of him.  ❝  you think so?  ❞   she whispers,  a look of PRIDE in her features as moves the other leg away from his waist,  sliding it against his arm and moving it up to rest on the other shoulder.  she grins at him,  shrugging her shoulders.  ❝  what do you think now?  ❞   she asks quietly,  her body sitting up right despite the way her ankles rest on his shoulders,  only emphasizing that flexibility now.   they could do this.  they could get rid of the barriers of clothing between them and do this right here on the kitchen counter,  but something tells her it’s not going to happen  ----  that she will be in this position for a lot longer,  simply craving it instead.  she gulps,  nodding her head slowly.   ❝  okay,  ❞   she whispers.  now she won’t.  she has reason to not.  her hand moves to tug on her shirt,  bringing it down just barely,  her eyes looking up to him.  ❝  i won’t.  ❞    she’s trying to hint that maybe,  she won’t hide in other ways too.  maybe she will consider something else than a baggy t-shirt if they’re going to end up here.  she hums,  lips pursed together tightly just so that nothing comes out the way it wants to as his hand travels more.   but it’s hard not to think about it when he says her name.  it sounds so sweet coming from him.   it makes her smile so sweetly,  her teeth tugging on her lip shyly.  ❝  you should know,  i don’t know how to sit still,  ❞   she taunts,  gulping as her eyes travel down his body.  ❝  you might have to make me,  ❞   she adds in a whisper.

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

❝  you did.  that’s a shame,  isn’t it?  ❞  he sighs.  he truly did miss that this morning.  he wanted to see her,  to KISS her right when he woke up and he didn’t get that.  it makes him sadder than he had originally thought it would.  theo leans toward her as her voice lowers as if to increase how PRIVATE this is between them.  and it is.  there is something inherently INTIMATE about it when they are together;  it’s surprisingly NICE.  ❝  we would have woken up in each other’s arms.  WARM.  comfortable.  not wanting to move.  and i would have been staring at you and then…  i would kissed you.  and i would have stayed like that.  not just a peck,  a REAL kiss.  and  —–  then my lips may have wandered.  to your neck.  and i would have stayed there for as long as you let me,  ❞  he speaks softly.  he wants to have that with her someday.  he leans back slightly,  shaking his head and giving her a warm smile.  ❝  you could never give me a reason to kick you out,  ❞  he insists.  he liked her falling asleep with him too much to want to kick her out for ANYTHING.  a smile breaks out over his lips when she seems SURPRISED that he isn’t joking.  his head shakes.  ❝  no,  i have nothing else to do,  ❞  he speaks firmly.  ❝  i’m sure.  come on,  ❞  he repeats,  extending his hand to hers for her to take it so he can lead them back to his room.

she looks down,  tongue clicking at the roof of her mouth.  ❝  yeah,  i----  i definitely screwed up,  ❞   she admits with a small laugh,  finally peeking back up at him.  she watches as he tells her what would have happened,  biting down on her lip as she imagines it.  she adjusts in her seat slightly as he goes on,  blush painting her features as she glances around them quick,  then back to him.  ❝  i---  you know,  i did.  that is how i woke up.  up until  .  .    the kiss,  anyway,  ❞  she admits.  ❝  you’re really warm.  i liked that.  ❞   she wants it again.  and she wants the rest,  too.  ❝  -----  a long time,  ❞   she blurts,  letting him know how long she would have let him,  knowing that it would have been hard for her to want him to STOP.  she lets out a small laugh,  raising a brow.  ❝  really?  even if i ----  accidentally punched you in the face,  or something? ❞   spoken as if she’s teasing,  but it’s a genuine concern she has.  she’s shy as she holds her hand in his,  stomach a knot of butterflies as they make their way to his house,  then to his room.  she always gets like this,  so nervous when they’re about to be alone together,  not because she doesn’t want to be,  but because it’s still such an adjustment to get used to being the only one his attention is on.  as the door closes to his room, her hands tug at her sleeves,  bashfully glancing back at him as she smiles and looks down.  ❝  yeah,  i shouldn’t have left,  ❞   she mumbles,  barely loud enough for him to hear.  she takes a deep breath,  slowly sliding her cardigan off her arms,  leaving herself in a tank top.  she puts it neatly on his chair,  then moves over to the bed,  sliding underneath the covers where she had been earlier that day.  she lays on her side,  waiting for him to move in with her,  heart racing for no reason other than the idea of being so close to him again.  

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

his head shakes and he gives her a warm grin.  ❝  we’re both in luck because that’s not a conversation we need to have,  ❞  he assures.  he’s not going to need to tell her to leave,  he’s not going to need to deal with any awkwardness about this,  because he doesn’t WANT her to leave.  he likes this.  he likes it more than he ever thought he COULD.  a smirk pulls at his lips and he tilts his head,  eyes glancing her over slowly.  ❝  sometime?  if neither of us want you to leave and that means you’re going to be stuck here all day…  then why not more today if the mood strikes us?  ❞  he asks.  they’re still here.  they’re still with each other this morning.  they might as well take advantage of that.  his features soften when she tells him she only cares what he thinks.  he doesn’t exactly care what anyone else thinks about this either,  but he’s not upset that people think that happened.  even more shockingly,  he’s not upset that it DIDN’T actually happen.  with how intense everything was,  with how pleasurable it even not going that far with each other,  he CAN’T be upset.  it was enough.  she’s enough.  ❝  yeah,  they would have talked regardless,  so it doesn’t matter. because i think that we had an incredible night,  ❞  he insists,  voice whispered for only her to hear.  when she doesn’t finish her sentence,  he gives her a gentle grin to tell her that’s okay.  he knows what she is saying and he doesn’t mind.  in fact,  he likes it.  his hand moves along her back again,  fingers tracing over the bared skin.  her use of the word ‘when’ causes his breath to catch.  knowing she is anticipating it,  knowing she is PLANNING for it,  fills him with hope,  with EXCITEMENT over all of this.  he wants it badly,  but here,  he can be patient.  if last night tells him anything,  it’s that the wait will be worth it.  ❝  okay.  i’ll be ready too,  ❞  he whispers,  grin growing on his lips.

she blushes instantly,  eyes looking down as she lets out a small giggle.  ❝  okay----  i guess you make a solid point,  ❞   she mumbles bashfully,  looking back up at him with a grin.  ❝  i guess that really means i’m not allowed to put my clothes back on,  ❞   she teases,  biting down on her lip as her eyes look over his features.  ❝  yeah?  you---  you had an incredible night?  ❞   she asks.  hearing him say that means EVERYTHING.  it’s so relieving to know she’s not alone.  ❝  i did too.  i---  well,  i don’t really remember anything better than this,  ❞   she admits,  still speaking so quietly.  she gulps as he says he’ll be ready too,  her features shy as she looks up at him.  ❝  theo?   can i---  ask you something?  ❞   she starts,  taking a deep breath,  her fingers running along his chest.  ❝  have you thought about it before?  with me  --- ?  .  .  .   i mean,  before last night.  did you ever think about being with me like  ----  that?  ❞   she asks,  curious to know if last night was RANDOM,  or if she wasn’t completely off base with her own feelings that had begun to form before the night prior.  

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she walks toward the living room slowly,  debating her move carefully in her head.  she could sit in a chair,  or she could sit next to him on the couch.  she’s not sure,  because she wants to sit next to him,  but she doesn’t want to make it weird.  things have changed between them  ----  ever since that day in the kitchen,  she can’t stop wondering how to get back in that position,  so close to him,  taunting him,  touching him.  but forcing that to happen again feels wrong  ----  she wants it to happen naturally,  yet she’s overthinking everything.  hands are clasped together,  and she goes for the second option.  it’s casual;  she’s next to him,  but not too close,   her hands falling to her lap as she stares at the television for a long moment before saying anything.  ❝  watching anything good?  ❞   she asks, turning her head over to look at him finally.  /  @dreadheir​.

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

❝  no,  it’s not my fault and you’re taking all the blame for it,  ❞  he insists,  but keeps a teasing expression on his face as his small grin matches hers.  eyes roll at her with a playfulness behind the action.  ❝  ‘ way too much, ’  ❞  he taunts.  ❝  it’s NEVER too much.  in fact,  it’s never enough and this conversation just means you’re going to DROWN in these compliments now and you can’t change my mind on that.  ❞  he likes complimenting her.  he likes her reactions and he actually likes how HONEST he is with them.  she is someone certainly worth complimenting. a brow raises when she speaks of benefiting him.  ❝  it does.  you know,  there’s a lot you do that makes me smile,  so…  if you want to benefit me MORE,  then i guess you’re just going to have to keep doing those things.  ❞

she rolls her eyes,  letting out a small laugh.  ❝  that sounds like TORTURE,  you know.  not fair,  ❞   she insists with a teasing grin.  she gulps,  her eyes searching his for a long moment before she takes a deep breath and nods her head slowly.  ❝  any chance you’re going to tell me what those things are?  ❞   she feels like she needs all the help she can get,  though she doesn’t.  it’s just hard for her to believe that she’s actually doing all of this right. 

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

eyes trail over her features,  a satisfied smile pulling at his mouth.  he wants to be the exception for her.  he wants to be SPECIAL to her.  it’s just a great feeling.  ❝  good,  ❞  he mumbles.  a laugh slips out of him and he raises a brow.  ❝  that doesn’t really surprise me.  okay,  i will be careful to not intimidate you,  ❞  he assures.  unless he wants to.  there may be certain situations where that is beneficial to him,  but he can’t imagine it with her.  he wants to keep things GOOD between them.  he wants their living situation to be easy.  shoulders shrug.  ❝  you don’t need a relationship to have your own personal cheerleader,  ❞  he points out.  ❝  friends do that.  yeah,  exactly,  you’ve made it this far without one.  we both have.  so  —–  what would be the point now?  ❞  he can’t be convinced that a relationship is a good idea until it’s right in front of him and he has fallen for that person.  theo doesn’t even believe THAT could ever happen.  ❝  me neither,  ❞  he admits.  he’s never wanted to date anyone and he’s rarely met someone who feels the same.  he likes it.  a soft laugh falls past his lips and he shrugs.  ❝  no?  maybe that’s not such a bad thing.  ❞  he’s always viewed romance,  relationships,  all of that as a NEGATIVE thing.  he thinks she’s one of the lucky ones that it’s not part of her life.

his eyes remain locked on hers,  his heart racing,  his breathing heavy as every thought of what he desires with her floods his mind.  theo doesn’t remember how they got here at this point, and he doesn’t care.  all he wants is to enjoy this,  to taunt her,  to taunt himself.  he wants to escalate this,  but not yet.  the anticipation of it all,  the thoughts they’re putting into one another’s head is far too EXCITING for that.  his gaze breaks from hers to flick down to the leg that raises again,  only to see it slide back down.  ❝  i believe that,  ❞  he whispers.  a pause is taken and he glances back up to her.  ❝  or maybe i DON’T.  ❞  theo wants tracy to prove it to him.  how she complies with his words so easily,  so QUICKLY makes his heart pound in his chest even faster,  watching as she raises her hands to put her hair up.  it’s easy to get her to do something he wants,  and that power is FUELING him.  her legs tugging at him bring him just an inch closer to her,  jaw clenching as he does as if he needs to contain himself.  tongue swipes over his lips as his eyes scan her features,  tilting his head to study her intently and a smirk raising at his lips.  a hand makes its way back up to drag his fingertips along her collarbone before reaching for her neck again,  tracing along the places her hair had been covering before he drops his hand to her thigh again.  ❝  i like this better,  ❞  he whispers.  easier access,  he thinks.  his head tilts as he thinks over what she would look like with long hair,  taking a deep breath.  ❝  i bet that looks beautiful on you.  but  —– the shorter hair is better.  i can see you more than i would have been able to,  wouldn’t i?  whoever this new person is that you are…  i like her,  ❞  he notes quietly.  his words run deeper than he makes them sound on the surface,  but even he doesn’t realize that yet,  assuming he’s so caught up in how close they are,  their soft touches to think of anything beyond that.  his eyes glance down to watch her study his hand,  not moving it an inch as she examines it.  now,  all he can think about is what he would like to do with her with his hands.  his gaze glances back up to watch her face as she glances them over.  when she places his hand back down on her leg,  higher on her thigh than he had it,  his breath catches and he dares to slide it just an inch higher.  if that’s what she wants,  then that is something he will give her right now.  his head nods slowly,  jaw clenching again, but her words make him relax,  unable to stop the taunting chuckle that slips past his body.  he clicks his tongue before letting it wet his lips again,  biting down on his lip while his gaze breaks from hers to stare down between her legs again.  ❝  i do eat here.  which means what thoughts i’m having about you now are very fitting,  ❞  he speaks quietly.  he’s been thinking about that since he got close to her and it hasn’t left his mind.

a small smile forms on her lips as she nods her head. ❝  okay.  and  ----  i’ll try not to be so sensitive about it for no reason,  ❞   she insists with a soft laugh.  she holds her hands up in defeat and shakes her head.  ❝  fine,  i guess not,  but  ---  i don’t know.  i don’t really know what it’s like at all,  ❞  she admits.  so she doesn’t really know how to vouch for or against it.  ❝  nothing.  nothing really,  ❞   she answers with a shrug of her shoulders.  ❝  friends?  you have friends?  ❞  she taunts with a playful smile.  ❝  you have that one  ----   tiny?  ❞   she asks,  raising a brow to ask if she got his name right.  ❝  he’s always nice to me.  ❞   which makes her feel so relieved. that was one thing she was terrified of  ---  what if her roommate had a bunch of guests that made her feel uncomfortable in her own home?  he doesn’t.  he head tilts as she thinks it over,  finally nodding her head.  ❝ yeah,  maybe.  means i don’t have to worry about it. ❞   it means she can AVOID whatever comes with a relationship,  all of which would be new and feel so scary.  she’s better off comfortable as she is now.

her eyes narrow in on him and she scoffs.  ❝  you don’t?  ❞   she has already proven her flexibility to him,  but his words taunt her,  make her want to show him more.  she’s not sure if she should,  afraid it would be too much for the pace they’re at  (  as if they haven’t already broken plenty of rules.  )  ❝  then i guess you’ll just have to wonder,  ❞   she taunts instead,  raising a brow.  ❝  or,  i’m sure there’s a way you could find out for yourself.  ❞   he could grab her legs and put them wherever he wishes,  if he pleased.  the taunting look in her eyes gives him permission,  if he wants.   her eyes stare back at his,  not moving as he brings his hand to her neck.  she can’t help herself;  a small,  barely audible moan falls from her lips at the touch,  her mind racing with ideas as she find herself so sensitive to it.  ❝  o-okay,  ❞   she mutters,  nodding her head.  ❝  i will.   i’ll--  i’ll wear it like this more.  ❞   and she means it.  no question about it;  she just wants to keep impressing him.  and if she wears her hair like this again,  it means he will remember THIS conversation,  and that’s something she wants.  she nods shyly.  ❝  yeah.  i liked to hide,  ❞   she admits quietly.  sometime she still does  ---  buy right now,  she feels really exposed,  yet that doesn’t scare her.  she looks down at the hand back on her thigh,  her legs still trembling and her heart beat quickened.  she is so desperate  ----  desperate to KNOW more,  feel more,  experience more  .   .    .   yet all the while,  she likes wondering.  she likes pushing boundaries and getting no ultimate reward yet  ---  it’s only building a fire inside her.  her legs spread apart just a bit more,  taunting him,  begging him to slide his hand inward,  just enough to get CLOSE.  she gulps hard as he responds,  a shaky sigh falling from her lips.  she’s silent for a long moment,  too busy imagining it,  her legs involuntarily moving closer just for some kind of relief.  her eyes flash back at him,  expression NERVOUS yet excited.  carefully,  she brings a hand up.  her fingers shake lightly as she brushes her fingertips against the corner of his mouth.  then,  she slides it down,  brushing over his jaw,  examining it as if she is for the first time  (  it’s not the first time she’s studied it.  )    ❝ would you like me to sit somewhere else?  ❞   she finally asks,  words slow and quiet.

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dreadheir‌

her words WARM him,  bringing a bright SMILE to his lips.  ❝  yeah,  maybe that is the case,  ❞  he speaks quietly.  ❝  that’s not a bad thing.  it just means that i have to be with you as much as possible.  i can hardly complain about that. ❞ it hurt her this time because she woke up just as he had gotten up and it scared her.  but it’s SWEET.  their bodies know each other.  they are USED to each other,  so much that when the other isn’t around,  it feels OFF.  ❝  yeah,  i know what you mean by that.  fine.  i will wake you up from now on.  i’d be HAPPY to.  ❞  if he gets to see her,  he is pleased.  and this benefits her,  so he has no reason not to do it.  theo lets out a content sigh when she drops on top of him,  arms wrapping around her tightly and planting a kiss to the side of her head before he answers.  ❝  my head is fine.  feels better since i saw you.  you always do that to me,  no matter what,  ❞   he whispers.  ❝  how do you feel?  ❞   

she offers a small smile and nods her head.  ❝  i’d like that.  i’ll take every excuse there is to spend more time with each other,  ❞   she teases with a small grin.  she gulps, running her hand along his arm.  ❝  i won’t be upset. i promise. i’ll be glad.  and it’s a little extra treat in the middle of the night,  ❞   she adds with a small laugh.  she hums at the kiss placed to her head,  smiling softly as he says he’s feeling okay now.  ❝  calmer.  you always do that to me,  no matter what,  ❞  she says,  repeating his words with quietly as she looks up to him.  ❝  i really do.  i like laying here with you.  even if it’s the middle of the night——  it’s just really, really nice.  ❞

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

theo looks down between their bodies,  seeing the way they hold each other,  feeling the warmth of their bodies together,  and he shakes his head.  ❝  that does sound pretty stupid,  ❞  he agrees.  how could either of them just go back to their lives and forget about this?  it doesn’t seem possible.  that thought is startling,  but theo is soothed by the comfort of the way they lay together right now.  theo pushes out a slow breath when she assures him she’s not going anywhere,  leaning in to press his lips to her cheek lightly,  pulling away quickly to look at her again.  ❝  good,  ❞  he whispers.  his head shakes slowly.  ❝  no.  no,  i don’t usually like doing this at all.  waking up next to someone,  having to have that conversation of getting them out of my bed,  wanting them to leave,  it’s…  it’s never been something that appealed to me.  but  —–  i don’t want you to leave.  so it’s different.  ❞  there’s more to it than that.  the intimacy this brings is something that would normally scare him off,  but with her,  he LIKES it.  theo just can’t recognize that yet.  ❝  you have done nothing wrong,  ❞  he chuckles.  ❝  i’m glad it’s there too.  it looks nice on you.  ❞  he’d like to do that AGAIN.  he’d like these marks they left on each other to spread to the rest of their bodies.  a little smile pulls at his mouth.  ❝  probably,  ❞  he admits with a shrug.  ❝  i know people saw us come up here and no one saw us leave,  so…  ❞  he trails off.  that’s not something he minds at all.  ❝  you know,  people are going to think we had sex up here.  and these,  ❞  he pauses,  pointing between the marks they left on each other.  ❝  are not going to help.  ❞

she grins back at him,  nodding her head.  ❝  yeah,  okay,  i know when i’m being ridiculous,  ❞   she says with a small laugh.  her eyes search his as he explains,  holding her breath momentarily.  ❝  yeah,  i guess  ----  that’s why i was scared to say yes when you asked.  because  .  .  .  i also didn’t want to have that conversation,  ❞   she admits quietly.  of course,  she would be on the other end,  and if she was,  she would have been scared to ever talk to him again,  for fear of more rejection.  she grins back at him and nods.  ❝  you think so?  maybe-----  maybe sometime you can give me more,  ❞   she offers,  nose crinkling as she looks down shyly.   she looks up at him nervously as he tells her what people are probably thinking.  she doesn’t know if that’s good or bad.  she doesn’t care what people think of her,  but what does he think?  that’s not true;  but is he disappointed?  ❝  we  .  .  .   didn’t,  ❞   she mumbles,  gulping before she glances up to him again.  ❝  but  ----   i don’t care what they think.  ❞  because they almost did.  it’s not that crazy to imagine.  ❝   i just  ---  i care what you think,  ❞   she speaks quietly,  only getting more bashful now.   ❝  theo,  i’ve never   .  .  .    ❞    she knows she doesn’t need to finish that.  he already knows,  but she wants him to understand that she didn’t hold herself back last night because she didn’t WANT to.  she did.  ❝ so  ---   when we DO .  .  .    ❞   because she wants to,  with him.  ❝   --- i’ll be ready then.  ❞  because she wants more of this.  she wants to keep exploring,  keep understanding him and herself.

[kanimal]

dreadheir‌

❝  oh,  yes,  i’m sure you do.  i believe that,  tracy.  i definitely do,  ❞  he speaks sarcastically,  a teasing smile forming on his mouth along with a raise of his brows.  her own smile betrays her words and he’s not blind to that.  a scoff erupts from him and he shakes his head.  ❝  no.  you didn’t save my life.  but maybe you saved THAT guy’s life,  ❞  he argues.  ❝  —–  i’m glad it worked out for you too.  i’m really glad we’ve ended up here.  ❞  this is FAR better than a fight;  it ends with something much more satisfying and RELAXING:  being with her.  theo groans softly against her lips as he holds her to the tree,  hands sliding up her thighs and to her waist as he deepens their kiss.  he dares to push a bit farther,  fingertips sliding just underneath the hem of her shirt as hers does to his shoulder,  dancing over her skin lightly.  his touch is barely there,  but it is ENOUGH to bring a slight intimacy to the movements.

she rolls her eyes back at him and shakes her head.  ❝  and if i didn’t save that guy’s life,  where would you be now?  ❞   she challenges,  raising a brow.  ❝  definitely not making out with me in the dark,  ❞    she teases.  she gulps,  turning more serious as she nods her head.  ❝  yeah,  me too.  i didn’t want this night to turn into something else.  i just wanted to be with you.  i didn’t want that taken away.  ❞   it’s a hint,  a request that he remembers that next time when he’s invited her somewhere but his attention it drawn away for something like that.  when she feels his fingers push under her shirt slightly,  she sighs,  trying to encourage the action by sliding her fingers farther up his sleeve,  her fingers lightly digging into his skin.  legs tighten around him,  keeping herself close to him.  ❝  you kiss better than you fight,  ❞   she mumbles against his lips with a devious grin,  pressing them back into his quickly.