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[kariimera]

After a lot of introspection and feedback from multiple sources, I am linking a raw google document containing an apology letter complete with the addressing of all and most important points made by the callout made to my name.

YOU WILL FIND THE LINK TO THIS APOLOGY LETTER HERE.

[kariimera]

I will be back when I am ready.

Whether if the blog is remade or not, I still have to decide, but either way, I will be focusing on my own circle, friends and mutuals. I will also be strictly private and selective.

Nobody is obligated to follow me either way, I encourage you all to stick to your values and softblock now if you don’t plan to continue interacting with me when I do return, it’ll make our lives much easier.

hearty.#6666 is where you’ll find me until then.

[kariimera]

I can only say this; In my experience, 18 year old are still considered very much as children in my book. You are only given the responsibilities of an adult, and it means more judgement for your consequences is placed upon you. We aren't born with our knowledge, thus none should expect us to know what the hell we're doing. It doesn't make what you did any less serious though.

Thank you for your input.

[kariimera]

with things winding down and me wanting to regroup with my friends and loved ones so we can just ... nurture each other and recover (because damn im exhausted of all this back and forth)

Anyone wounded by the situation who is keeping up with my blog to see how things turned out?

You’re welcome in my discord, always, no matter what you have to say, be it hurtful or not at all. I will give any kind of closure you need, be it to get things off your chest and to yell at me or whatever else. I will take it, I’m fully responsible for all of this.

I might be scarce tonight as I lick my wounds but I will be around, I need to lick my loved ones’ wounds as well.

Stay safe all of you.

hearty.#6666

[kariimera]

I would like to say that I began interacting with Bird when I was a minor too, a matter of fact, our earliest interaction in discord?

It was before my 18th birthday, around February of 2018.

I was 17 at that time.

Not meant to be a counterargument, just food for thought about our circumstances and for the further context of how long we had known each other. Or maybe it is a counterargument, further introspection will decide.

It doesn’t mean anything to me at the moment, but maybe it does to my supporters.

[kariimera]

when the first of these screenshots took place?

I was a couple of months into being 18, two to three months.

My birthday is on the 29th of May, use that as you may.

Make with that what you will.

[kariimera]

I would like to say that I began interacting with Bird when I was a minor too, a matter of fact, our earliest interaction in discord?

It was before my 18th birthday, around February of 2018.

I was 17 at that time.

Not meant to be a counterargument, just food for thought about our circumstances and for the further context of how long we had known each other. Or maybe it is a counterargument, further introspection will decide.

It doesn’t mean anything to me at the moment, but maybe it does to my supporters.

[kariimera]

Can you tell us what exploded so catastrophically in the background that the callout group would do what they did? Everyone went on hiatus at once and I got a sense that something fucky was going down behind the scenes. This blindsideded everyone though. But I don't think the timing of everything should be ignored. This only comes out AFTER the drama? I smell fish. Using someones traumatic experience as a weapon against someone else is kind of fucked up imho.

Can you tell us what exploded so catastrophically in the background that the callout group would do what they did? Everyone went on hiatus at once and I got a sense that something fucky was going down behind the scenes. This blindsided everyone though. But I don't think the timing of everything should be ignored. This only comes out AFTER the drama? I smell fish.

I could tell you, but not to an anon; although what do I have to lose at this rate right? I don't think it gets worse than being labeled a pedophile by 200+ people and then their friends.

I've accepted my losses, I've accepted that this callout has destroyed my RPC standing, but I'm still a human being; I deserve to belong somewhere, and I do belong somewhere, I'm fortunate enough to have an expansive support group who will be at my side through my recovery and my progressing into being a better person.

My rambling aside ...

Using someones traumatic experience as a weapon against someone else is kind of fucked up imho.

We don't know this, but I know the people behind the callout, and I wouldn't be surprised if it was the case knowing what they're capable of, what they're capable of stringing up to win, and the amount of vitriol they have against me. I see all of you, I always have.

Once more, this is a much separate thing from the callout. By no means does this discredit my apology to Bird & Break, they are the victims here who have suffered the most, to my knowledge, and everything I said in my letter still stands, all of that repentance doesn't fade because a different group wanting ill upon me.

Rebounding, once more.

Anon, if you want the full story of what exploded so catastrophically, you can approach me on Discord, or DMs, preferably the former. Again, you will remain anonymous upon your request, just as all my supporters have.

[kariimera]

to note: the callout never said you were a pedophile, it stated you engaged in pedophilic behavior, which is true and they are not the same thing

people just like to jump to conclusions when they see the mere glance of a word

True, and you're not incorrect here anon.

But you also can't deny that people also jump to conclusions when they see the mere glance of the word, for the worst.

Regardless, pedophilic behavior is the closest term to what I practiced back then, sure. But it by no means reflects who I am today.

That was three years ago, hence the issue with the matter from people taking my side.

I assure you that half the people who saw the callout skimmed through it and settled for calling me a pedophile and a groomer and moved on with their day.

And with such a sensitive topic and accusation, I think we're allowed to 'jump to conclusions’, just as everyone has about me.

Once again, and because I can’t stop stating this enough, I have long since owned up to how I fucked up, and I have emotional and physical scars to prove that I have done my fair share of regretting and repenting and damning myself for all the harm I did, as a person who bleeds their heart out for the people he cares about.

On a side note.

Look up Stephen Kartman’s Drama Triangle, it is a studied view into how things tend to pan out when callouts ensue and circles fall apart, and just general human drama.

Here is a link to the best version of it I could find, but there are many, many others.

[kariimera]

Hey Hearty.

I read your apology. I think it's important to have a full picture on things like this even though ultimately the small details don't really change the wrong that was done. I do believe what you did was wrong, but I absolutely believe that the creators of that callout targetted you and did so maliciously. They are not the 'heroes' they are trying to play at being. It's not a coicidence that those people are also the same people who were involved in the december clash.

But again details do not shift the big picture. The reality of the situation is that this will follow you wherever you go in the rpc even if you do get better. I say this without a shred of malice-

For everyones sake, its probably best you leave the rpc for good. Probably tumblr as a whole. I feel like that is the best path to take and the one that causes the least amount of damage for everyone.

Sincerely.

I think it's important to have a full picture of things like this even though ultimately the small details don't really change the wrong that was done.

I do believe what you did was wrong, but I absolutely believe that the creators of that callout targetted you and did so maliciously. They are not the 'heroes' they are trying to play at being. It's not a coincidence that those people are also the same people who were involved in the December clash.

Me more than anyone knows that, anon.

I'm well aware of the strings being pulled backstage, and I'm much more perceptive when it comes to people wounding me and my circles that I let on at times. Some of you who know me well might know that rarely anything slips my knowledge, either by my own vigilance or by that of my friends in many widespread circles. The truth eventually comes out one way or the other, I'm sure the people from this December clash know this very well, I see all of you.

And if I am to be bluntly honest, I already had a feeling things were off with the main victim, I tried many times to ask if things were right, but it was always met with confirmation that I was apparently worrying about nothing, despite me not being entirely confident that they were saying the truth.

Not that I blame them, merely adding context to the situation -- Bird had his reasons to not trust me.

Bird and the other victims ALSO have all the right to be angry at me and to be hurt by what I did, for as long as they please, forever or not. I fucked up, and I was wrong -- I was awful and inappropriate.

All of these things are very clear in my head.

And the December clash does not make me any less responsible for the harm I've caused, but it doesn't slip my mind that it is a factor.

But again details do not shift the big picture. The reality of the situation is that this will follow you wherever you go in the rpc even if you do get better. I say this without a shred of malice-

For everyones sake, its probably best you leave the rpc for good. Probably tumblr as a whole. I feel like that is the best path to take and the one that causes the least amount of damage for everyone.

Sincerely.

I'm aware that it will follow me everywhere, but that doesn't quite discourage me. I will go where my friends go, and I will devise how to continue according to them. If it involves Tumblr or not, that's fine.

I’m afraid that no one can pull me away from this platform as soon as I still have friends who wish to interact with me, that is my decision and mine alone. I will for certain be taking a break, for my sake and everyone’s involved.

Rebound though ...

I hurt a person, I made a human mistake, I was awful on account of my trauma and the shitty perception it has made me build across the years. And yet, it is not an excuse.

I own up to how awful people make me out to be. But I'm still human. And we’re all flawed one way or another.

With all this said, I frankly invite you to reach out to me via DMs or Discord, anon, no matter who you are -- your identity will remain anonymous to anyone involved on my side, that much I can promise you; you have a more than an informed grasp on the situation, and we need more people like you.

Thank you, the invite is always there, regardless of whether if you take it or not. Either way, I am grateful for your input.

[kariimera]

I was just informed about all this, I know you’re doing your own response and that’s good. But just some outsider’s perspective: I don’t believe you’re a pedophile. You pressured a someone into sexual scenarios and initiated sexual RP with a minor and that’s what you need to apologize for. But I also just want to make sure you know that even if people “cancel” you for this, it’s important to be open minded to your mistakes and what you can do to be a better person moving forward. Just be careful to not emotionally dismiss everything, shift the blame, or be too defensive in your apology. Just take responsibility for the things you did and move on. Learning from this is the best way to move forward from here. But that’s just my thoughts

I don’t believe you’re a pedophile.

That is the general consensus of everyone who has reached out to me, and I appreciate that we're looking truly deep into the humanity of what has happened here. I was an idiot, not a pedophile, but it's hard to believe otherwise with the evidence construed, and I accept that.

You pressured someone into sexual scenarios and initiated sexual RP with a minor and that’s what you need to apologize for

I agree with you anon, I am eternally sorry for the harm I've done through this, my apology letter is a testament, and the hurt I've gone through and the friends I have lost are a punishment I've been enduring. I was wrong to be defensive in my first posts.

I did harm, and I must own up to it, that much I acknowledge.

But I also just want to make sure you know that even if people “cancel” you for this, it’s important to be open-minded to your mistakes and what you can do to be a better person moving forward.

Hundreds of people will demonize me without even hearing my side or my apology, and they have the right to -- unfortunately I can't force anyone to see my side, and that's okay.

I'm willing to accept this and already healing from the situation with help of loved ones and close friends. This didn't kill me, so it will only make me stronger. So yes, I will strive to be a better person moving on.

I thank you a lot for your input regardless, anon, you have a level head with you and I respect that. My discord or DMs are open if you want to continue this conversation further, I invite anyone to do it.

Again, you have my gratitude, be safe.

[kariimera]

i genuinely do hope you will improve and get better in the future, hearty.

unfortunately, that will have to be for you to show different people, you've hurt people far too badly to ever heal that wound.

I fully accept this, everyone who has cut ties with me has the right to not talk to me ever again, and that is fine.

I welcome anyone who might want closure, no matter who it is, I'm willing to weather that storm for anyone, regardless of what they might have to say.

[kariimera]

With all this said, I will have a post up soon with my own side of the matter.

[kariimera]

I’m going to say that until this mentioned post is made, I am actively working to hold myself accountable for the things I did, so I can make an informed apology on where I went wrong and how I could have done better, and where I will improve in the future.

[kariimera]

I have seen your asks and I am receptive of them, I appreciate all criticism as soon as it is constructive, I am aiming for my apology document to be out before today ends.

[kariimera]

With all this said, I will have a post up soon with my own side of the matter.

[kariimera]

I’m going to say that until this mentioned post is made, I am actively working to hold myself accountable for the things I did, so I can make an informed apology on where I went wrong and how I could have done better, and where I will improve in the future.

[kariimera]

With all this said, I will have a post up soon with my own side of the matter.

[kariimera]

I will make a post on regards to this callout very soon, a big one.

I’m just doing damage control.

But to tide you over, I want to let you all know that it is all wrong and lacking context and it is the works of an inflammatory group of people who hate my guts and hate my friends even more.

I am a lot of awful things, selfish, egotistical. Whatever.

I was stupid and young and idiotic back then, I was obnoxious and learning and I thought I could get away with anything on the fact that I thought this person who I will name soon, was a close friend. But they are as much at fault here because they have a history of pushing other people over with their behavior.

I’m a lot of these things, but I am not a groomer or a pedophile, and if you guys want to come at my throat with these lies? That’s okay, I’m perfectly calm because my conscience is clear, I’m not either of these awful things because I was taught much better as I grew.

Because they are lies, my real friends truly know me and they will take my side. You are more than free to add me to hear my side at discord, I’m not afraid and I’m not scared, because I know who I am, and I know my values today, and they couldn’t be any more farther from these awful things these people claim me to be.

Anyways, my discord, I’m available to talk things out and tell you the simple truth, you can ask as many questions as you want: hearty.#6666

[kariimera]

But I will apologize for everyone I’ve hurt through this, I will say I’m sorry for not being the bigger person the victim needed.

I will not accept being called a pedophile or a groomer, because I’m neither of these things.

But I will say that I’m sorry for not being smarter and not being the adult I should have been.

I thought that my circumstances allowed me to do what I pleased and whether if we were good friends or not 4 years later, it still wasn’t right, and I’m well aware that I must be better than believing that something is okay just because we mutually trusted each other.

I wish I could have taught them better, shown them a better person, but alas I was too stupid and too young and I had just come out of being abused myself for who I was and my confidence in the end ended up hurting someone I cared about.

I won’t deny anyone their hurt because they deserve to be as hurt as they want to be, but know that all these posts display is immaturity from a younger me and not the behavior of the evil person I’m claimed to be.

Once again, I’m truly sorry, I encourage anyone willing to reach out to me.

[kariimera]

I will make a post on regards to this callout very soon, a big one.

I’m just doing damage control.

But to tide you over, I want to let you all know that it is all wrong and lacking context and it is the works of an inflammatory group of people who hate my guts and hate my friends even more.

I am a lot of awful things, selfish, egotistical. Whatever.

I was stupid and young and idiotic back then, I was obnoxious and learning and I thought I could get away with anything on the fact that I thought this person who I will name soon, was a close friend. But they are as much at fault here because they have a history of pushing other people over with their behavior.

I’m a lot of these things, but I am not a groomer or a pedophile, and if you guys want to come at my throat with these lies? That’s okay, I’m perfectly calm because my conscience is clear, I’m not either of these awful things because I was taught much better as I grew.

Because they are lies, my real friends truly know me and they will take my side. You are more than free to add me to hear my side at discord, I’m not afraid and I’m not scared, because I know who I am, and I know my values today, and they couldn’t be any more farther from these awful things these people claim me to be.

Anyways, my discord, I’m available to talk things out and tell you the simple truth, you can ask as many questions as you want: hearty.#6666

[hatsudenki]

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