Katsyn

Fueled by caffine, sarcasm and inappropriate thoughts!!

[kastyn]

This guy 😂...

[kastyn]

Dad says nothing is permanent. Everything changes.

He’s wrong. Xan and I will never change. I’ll always be his Green and he’ll always be my knight.

Xan places a hand on my shoulder and shoves me, then stares at the ground. “Go away, Green.”

“No.”

He glances up at me. “No?”

“I don’t want to leave you alone. You didn’t leave me when Nana died.”

Slowly facing me, he watches me closely, his blond brows pinching as more tears slide down his cheeks. “Why are you crying?”

I sniffle, wiping my face with the back of my hand, mixing his tears with mine. “Because you’re crying.”

“Don’t cry, Green.”

“You don’t cry.” I sniffle.

He hiccoughs. “I hate it when you cry.”

“I hate it when you cry, too.” I inch closer and put my arms around his neck, keeping the one with the melting gelato away so I don’t make a mess out of him as well.

~Kim and Xander -8 yr old

How it all started... ❤️

[kastyn]

"Music is what fellings sound like"

~ Journey

[kastyn]

“I’ve loved you since before we made love for the first time. Fuckin’ a, Gremlin... I think I was born lovin’ you. When we were kids, all I ever wanted was to make you cry. I’d wish for it every birthday. I’d asked Santa every year to make it happen. Every shooting star I saw from the roof of my house was for you to just shed one goddamn tear ’cuz of me. I hated you then, but, Harley Jameson ... I love you now.”

~Jackson

[kastyn]

Me these days😸

[kastyn]

AS IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN...

Chapter 1

Contessina knows that there is no longer any space for her in this house. She was proud of her son today, he has finally earned his place not only in front of the court but in his own eyes. Larinza today played the dutiful wife to her son and she was very happy for them. Atleast some arranged marriage turned out to be happy. And then there was Cosimo, a husband who she took to play the role of a dutiful daughter to her father. She never even realized how her duty has turned into admiration, pride and later on even love.

Its maybe the first time she had admitted out loud that she loved her husband but alas on a day she was leaving him. She always knew that this love might never be returned, maybe thats the reason she had never allowed her heart to freely love him. It disheartened her when his mother mentioned his first love on the very day they got married. He played it off when she asked him about the same and it was never mentioned again. So,over the course of time she forgot all about the red headed women people talked in regard to her husband. She just assumed it to be the same infatuation she may had for Ezio before marriage. It couldn't mean much if he hadn't fought his father for it..right?.On one hand it was she, who had accepted her fate of being married to the man she didn't wish for but her husband, he has always resented it.Maybe it was his ego, his way of saying fuck u to his father who forced this marriage on him.

But today is the day i no longer make excuses for him, today i am no longer contesina de medici, a medici women fulfilling her duty towards her husband and family, no she has done enough of that. Now she is merely a women who has time and again being lied to and been humiliated in her own house by her husband. She didn't even realise that in the process of devoting herself to the family and cosimo she has now become a women she no longer recognised. She always stood for whats right for everyone but today she will stand for whats right for her.

She begins packing her belonging and summoned emila to hand over a letter to her husband when he returns from his victory, maybe this will give him even more reasons to celebrate.

[kastyn]

I never wanted perfect, hoped for it yes. But u didn't even let me had normal.

[kastyn]

-Making faces

Their friendship is everything 💖

[kastyn]

-Judith McNaught

[bloomsbury]

“if i loved you less, i might be able to talk about it more.”

[kastyn]

How do you get over the kind of loneliness when a person who cared about you the most in the world is taken away from you. That powerless, empty felling can never be described.

You just stop believing, hoping and even felling anything other than that.

Nothing good can happen, because no amount of happiness can take away that pain. Make you forget..yes, but its just a fraction of what you fell everyday.

[kastyn]

“I think in the end, you would have stayed with me, out of obligation...or maybe comfort. Maybe I was safe to you, and you needed to feel that. I know how scared you get of the unknown. To you...I must be kind of a security blanket. Do you see now, how that doesn't work for me? I don't want to be there, simply because the idea of me being gone is too...scary. I want to be someone's everything. I want fire and passion, and love that's returned, equally. I want to be someone's heart... Even if it means breaking my own.”

― S.C. Stephens, Thoughtless ❤️

[kastyn]

〰️Always His〰️

I want you to close your eyes and see me

I want you to open them and look for me

I want your eyes on the door as i enter it

I want your text saying you miss me

I want your laughter and joy

your pain and worries

your love and hate

Yes, i want it all back because it was suppose

to be forever mine.

〰️Never Mine 〰️

I still close my eyes and see you,

I just wish i didn't

I open them and look for you

Just so to avoid you

I still text you that i miss you

Just when i am drunk

I no longer want your laughter

Because it will mean you moved on

I dont want your pain

Beacuse it will mean it hurts

and if it still hurts, then its still there

And it will just make me hate you more

and love you a little less for taking away our forever.

〰️

[kastyn]

“Looks have shit-all to do with love.

Love isn’t found in the attraction you have to someone.

Love isn’t found in the laughter you share.

Love isn’t even found in all the things you have in common.

Love is not, in any way, shape or form, defined by nor found in the abundance of bliss it brings two people.”

Love is not found. Love finds

“Love finds you in the forgiveness at the tail end of a fight.

Love finds you in the empathy you feel for someone else.

Love finds you in the embrace that follows a tragedy.

Love finds you in the celebration after the conquering of an illness.

Love finds you in the devastation after the surrender to an illness.”

- Too late

[kastyn]

I don't know what hurts the most.. missing you or pretending not to miss you

I wonder how you are and if u miss me at all.. because I MISS YOU

I don't know what else there is to say.

[kastyn]

-a unique kind of love

[fighting-ghosts]