Your faith could let you down.

Shit, I know I probably will.

[paper-wounds]

via

[paper-wounds]

[paper-wounds]

via

[paper-wounds]

[Dimension 20's Neverafter - Brennan Lee Mulligan]

[paper-wounds]

via

[aaaangel444]

[midnitetears]

I’m Letting You Go (Version 2) #233

Funny how everything became a sign to you.

Every argument.

Every bad day.

Every moment we struggled.

Every crack you could find

became another reason

why we were never meant to last.

You called them signs.

I called them excuses.

Because maybe you just wanted to leave

and needed something

anything

to make it easier

to walk away from me.

If you didn’t love me anymore,

why couldn’t you just say it?

Why couldn’t you look me in the eyes

and tell me

that the person I loved with everything in me

no longer loved me back?

It would have destroyed me.

But at least it would have been the truth.

Instead,

you turned everything against us.

Every imperfection became proof.

Every difficult moment became fate

telling you to leave.

While I was still fighting for us.

God,

I was still fighting for us.

Still holding onto the life

I thought we were going to have.

Still believing that seven years

couldn’t just disappear.

Still thinking love meant

you stayed when things became difficult.

But you left.

You actually left.

And I was still standing there

with my heart in my hands,

still wanting you,

still wanting us,

while you had already decided

that I was something

you could live without.

Do you know what that does to a person?

To love someone so deeply

and watch them become comfortable

with never seeing you again?

To lie awake at night

missing someone

who is sleeping perfectly fine

without you?

To keep replaying the ending,

wondering if there was something

you could have said,

something you could have done,

some version of yourself

that would have been enough

to make them stay?

I have tortured myself

with your absence.

I have carried you

long after you stopped carrying me.

And I know

I know I’ve said this

a thousand times before.

I’m letting you go.

But then I find you again

in an old memory,

a song,

a dream,

a place we once stood together.

And suddenly,

I’m right back there

loving someone

who is long gone.

But I can’t do this anymore.

I can’t keep bleeding

for a person

who walked away

and never came back.

I can’t keep waiting

for someone

who already chose a life

without me.

So maybe this goodbye

won’t be beautiful.

Maybe I’ll cry after writing it.

Maybe I’ll miss you tomorrow.

Maybe some part of me

will always love you.

But I have to let you go.

Not because I stopped loving you.

God, I wish it were that easy.

I’m letting you go

because holding onto you

is destroying what is left of me.

You’re gone.

You’ve been gone.

And I have to stop pretending

that loving you enough

will somehow bring you back.

So this is me

finally loosening my grip

on the person

I once thought

I would grow old with.

This is me

burying the future

I still secretly hoped for.

This is me

saying the words

my heart has refused to accept

you are not coming back.

And I cannot keep waiting.

So goodbye.

I loved you.

I loved you more

than I knew how to survive losing.

And maybe that

is why it has taken me so long

to finally say

goodbye.

Yours Faithfully 🌻

[paper-wounds]

[thisandthatandeverythinginbtween]

This.

[a-mind-in-ruins]

[omgitscass]

[consecuences]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Greg Santora

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[anothertragichero]

there are roads I'll never drive again

homes I'll no longer enter

names whose faces don't match up

I'm broken down on the side of the road

watching the storm approach,

all the traffic lights turn red

I'll scream my qualms

at the confused crows

I'll cry my heart out

across the sea

Because I remember everyone, everything

But who even gives a second

to ponder about me?

[remanence-of-love]

[free-my-mindd]

[catalisst]

Self - listen up!!