𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐔𝐍 𝐀𝐁𝐋𝐀𝐙𝐄.

"𝐈 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐋𝐃 𝐔𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐒𝐇." 𝑁𝑂 𝑀𝐴𝑇𝑇𝐸𝑅 𝐻𝑂𝑊 𝑀𝐴𝑁𝑌 𝑇𝐼𝑀𝐸𝑆, 𝐴𝐺𝐴𝐼𝑁 𝐴𝑁𝐷 𝐴𝐺𝐴𝐼𝑁 𝐴𝑁𝐷 𝐴𝐺𝐴𝐼𝑁 -

[katakaios]

𝐌𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐒𝐇? 𝐌𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐒𝐇 𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐄𝐋𝐒𝐄'𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐒!

κατακαίω = " to burn up, to be consumed by fire " independent and selective, mutuals only blog for: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐎 𝐊𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐀 or ' 𝑃𝐻𝐴𝐼𝑁𝑂𝑁 ' of honkai star rail. oc and crossover friendly, single ship exclusives with @oathanatos . paving a path for dawn with: @revokosmo @bonescribes / @bloodycharge , @noein , @fancoria , @poswiecenia / cherished by lily, she/her, 25+ minors do not interact. credit goes to: @revokosmo for all graphics .

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hi, i'm lily ! this is as stated above, a very private, very oc / crossover friendly / generally friends to small dash vibes blog for phainon of hsr. i am non-affiliated with the hoyo rpc at large because i get overwhelmed easily and am also selective in general on keeping my dash small , but that doesn't mean i wouldn't be interested and very invested in those from it who i'd be lucky to meet or feel comfy with / feel we could work together writing wise ! i am sadly in gacha hell with this game and thankfully do tag my / hsr spoilers so you never have to worry !

i am just thankful and excited to write with whoever would like to interact and familiar faces and hope that you enjoy your stay here either way ! while i try to keep my rules short, i do like to be concise so there are no misunderstandings or confusion to the best of my abiility ! that said, always feel free to ask me a question if you aren't sure about something, for all my rules upcoming, i like to think i'm a generally friendly person and want to be a comfy place instead of an intimidating one also i'm INCREDIBLY shy so please bear with me! that said, and that out of the way, let's get started ! (´｡• ᵕ •｡`)

To start off, I do not interact with minors, personal blogs, or non-roleplaying blogs reblogging my analysis / headcanons, etc, will be blocked and I generally tend to softblock and hardblock personals.

I do not engage in conflict or issues that can be solved privately. Please keep those between you and the other party, however, if there is a serious issue of harassment, abuse etc, in the rpc, I will keep an eye out and make my own judgments, as I feel callouts should be used under dire circumstances, not over something one can solve by themselves. This is for my own comfort as I am prone to anxiety that comes not from lack of caring, but a need to curate my personal space, and wanting you to curate and do what's best for you as well, but if I see a lot of vague-posting whatsoever or repeatedly negative posts, for my own headspace, I'll also likely unfollow / softblock.

I do not engage with bigots, homophobic / transphobic / ablesists / racists etc, kind of people of any discrimination capacity or others who are downright unpleasant to put lightly. That automatically should not be something I need to put in my rules given basic decency and kindness to others should be a given, but just in case, people with such hurtful and harmful actions and thoughts are not welcome here whatsoever. Please be kind, please be considerate of people's real lives and spaces, and just practice rp etiquette please.

Given the shaky nature of leaks / theories at this time, and Amphoreus still an ongoing storyline, and Phainon's nature and character shrouded in mystery, these rules may be constantly updated or changed given each chapter update if I feel I need to add certain details or changes to my portrayal. I am generally canon-compliant, though I do love to explore and want to make my Phainon portrayal specificially my own.

I always will tag spoilers of the current chapter / patch going on in HSR, but tend to keep the spoilers of past patches something I do not tag. This general goes under ' / hsr spoilers ' or ' / [ patch number here ] ' . In that same vein, please please tag your spoilers as well, although I tend to not be here when a new patch is present in HSR in general.

I have not played Honkai Impact 3rd. While I am aware Phainon has prevalent themes in common with H13rd's Kevin Kaslana, I want to see the extent of how far that goes, and while he is an expy of the Kaslanas in general, I will strive to write him as 'Phainon' and incorporate what information I glean from Impact 3rd if I feel it will enrich my perception of his character / appreciation for it. I don't have enough time unfortunately, to play two gacha / story-driven games at once, but this doesn't mean I never will. I want Phainon to be his own character outside of Kevin, but will be respectful of their correlating themes and shared motifs, as I understand the Chrysos Heirs at the very least, are based off the Flame Chasers, and Kevin a prominent figure in Honkai Impact lore.

Please do not info-mod, god-mode, or be impatient with replies. Your muse is welcome to know general things about Phainon, but despite his nature, he is not an open person. He heavily keeps his emotions and vulnerabilities close to his chest, thoughts included, and I would prefer that respected please! I don't mean to be strict, but pre-established relationships while I am all for that, a complete stranger or first time interactions shouldn't know much about Phainon save his 'Deliverer / Chrysos Heir ' status or what canon has divulged about him in the storyline. If this rule is ignored or if I mention it and it still happens, I likely will just quietly drop the thread for my own comfort.

This goes for anything, but please always feel you can plot with me, ask me questions, or approach me. I am heavily shy, and struggle to initiate, but I dearly want to interact with you and tend to keep my space small, my discord I generally use sparingly as I'm not the most talkative person unless I know you, so please understand I'm more prone to IMs or asks.

You are always welcome to plot with me however, or ask for any confusion or just questions in general. I promise I'm hardly intimidating and would be happy to hear from you. While shyness is hard to break in a social hobby, it is something I hope to work on this year. If I give you my discord it's probably after I feel comfortable enough chatting / interacting with you, but it isn't often. Please be patient with me , I'm very shy and not often on it but in sporadic bursts.

Pre-established is another story. I LOVE OCS. I LOVE AUS, I LOVE CROSSOVERS, I LOVE DIFFERENT VERSES OR 'WHAT-IF'S', and all are welcome here. While I am a highly selective blog to keep my space quiet and managable in terms of who I can reach out to, that doesn't mean I don't want to plan all the things and have fun with you and mutual ideas! Please know this is an OC and Crossover loving zone.

This is a big one, but please, no character hate. You should do whatever you want, it is your blog, and while I believe being fandom critical is valid and important, exploration of canon and expansion too, there's a fine line between hating on a character and being critical of how they're portrayed in canon. Some character you may hate or show dislike towards on the dash may be someone else's favorite, and that same thought I'd like applied here, and that's okay! You do you! I just draw the line at hating characters publically in contrast to just being critical and ' I wish [ .. ] was written this way or etc blah blah ' that's totally fine and I do that too, I think it's fine and normal! Just please, let's be friendly about who likes who since there are a lot of characters in this game.

I am single / exclusive ship with @revokosmo 's Mydei. That means I won't be interacting with any other Mydeis, as much as I won't be interacting with any other version of their Jing Yuan or Boothill. Other than that, if you're interested in this lil blog, it's all open to interaction.

Unless I know you personally, or feel comfortable, more often than not this rule is in effect, but sometimes I make exceptions if I know the person! I don't usually write with duplicates as our pacing of where Phainon is in the story might be behind / and I tend to have always practiced this. Should there be tons of Phainon roleplayers? Absolutely! But if I'm following three Snowys then I'm going to get overwhelmed, plus I just feel more comfortable seeing my portrayal, unless of course, my disclaimer and I feel comfortable enough with our writing and ooc chemistry. You always should be comfortable writing with any Phainon you see! I am not exclusive generally, and I don't tend to take up mains or blogrolls unless I'm very close to that person.

I will use icons in the future, but I also encourage that I am more than happy to use textless formatting, para-novella, one liners and any kind of format. I tend to use small font or normal dependent on my partner's formatting. All credit will be given should I use icons, but I am just as happy to use textless. Do what's best for you as well!

One thing that's important to know about me is that while I know Phainon has some memetic things in the fanbase / conceptions about him, theories etc, which is exciting (and nervewracking haha :) ) and I'm not trying to change your views, but understand my priority is understanding my own portrayal / thoughts on Phainon, his character, his many facets before shipping etc.

No matter who you ship with him, he sadly has been boiled down a lot I've noticed to be being 'stupid' which is canonly untrue given his school records with Anaxa's opinion of him, a ' puppy', which is funny and cute and I agree to an extent he can have the energy, but I also know this guy is hiding a LOT and also has a very high facade through cheer and smiling, and also 'simping for Mydei'. Phainon was a brilliant student and one of Anaxa's best alongside his friend and fellow heir, Castorice. Phainon is incredibly calm and rational in dangerous situations as much as he can be emotional. He is not a dog, he isn't an idiot, and his character shouldn't be reduced to ships, as I would wish for any other person's' character not made a caricature. He cares deeply for all the Chrysos heirs, not just Mydei, however you see them.

I'm not asking you to change your views of him, I just ask that you understand I will not be writing him as a caricature when he has complexity and depth beyond fanbase conceptions and misconceptions. I'm no authority, trust me, but he is not boiled down to 'two traits' that I consider widely inaccurate, and I don't really think any character is just 'two traits' in HSR. Please be respectful is all I ask, as I will be of you, and your thoughts and feelings, we all have different ones , and all unique and neat portrayals. Well, I hope to have a good one! I'll certainly do my best.

While I really enjoy HSR or I wouldn't be picking up Phainon, I am not affiliated with the Hoyoverse rpc. I will not be following HSR blogs first, and even those if they should find me, I will be extremely selective in who I choose to have on my dash for my own comfort. Big fandoms are not usually where I migrate, so I'm nervous as is dipping my toes in here. That said I love Phainon more than my anxieties, so if if we click, or I feel I could interact and mesh well with your blog? Then following you back definitely isn't an impossibility! I just am not affiliated with the community for my own comfort and sanity of having a small, comfy dash.

I think I've gotten about everything for now, and while I apologize for length, I do like to make sure that everything is transparent with what I'm posting and everyone is comfortable, but if you do have questions relevant to this blog or writing and something I have set down confuses you, please always feel safe or know you're welcome to ask me. I'm very slow by nature in writing and replies, OOC and ICly, but there is no such thing as a dumb question unless it's um, mean I guess! I'm a very easygoing person, and I value sincerity and transparency with my partners in writing. :)

Last thing, I want to have fun with you, respect one another's paces and portrayals, rules, and comfort zones / boundaries. I want you to have as much fun as me, and it's my hope this blog is nothing but silly vibes from a relatively clumsy person and a fun portrayal as I explore Phainon's character. If I'm good at one thing, I think it's being pretty calm and easy going, so please make yourself at home and if you want to stay long term or wanna keep finding other blogs, that's totally fine. We're all here I hope to have fun and scream about our characters to each other. If you read this far, thank you so much. I hope my rules are clear and concise and friendly to read. I try really hard to make them as clear as possible.

That all done, thank you for reading! I hope I haven't scared you off, I'm probably much more shy of you than you are of me. But let's have lots of fun and take it at our own pace, and I hope you have a great time here ! Thanks so much for reading again! ૮ ˆﻌˆ ა

[katakaios]

" i wasn't sure you'd wish to see me, " her eyes linger on the deliverer softly , translucent lower legs kicking back and forth as she sits upon the swing of her own making. its complicated , both of their feelings and she .. this momentary respite where she was able to show herself to him alone .. she hoped it was alright. " i can hardly tell you if i'm her .. or i'm me. it's been so long and we've done and been through so much. " did she even have the right to call him her brother anymore ? she felt -- hoped -- so but .. she wasn't at liberty to presume. / cyrene and main canon phai ty

she says a funny thing. cyrene was always funny, she was encouraging, she was - is ? - his family and the first best friend he's ever and would ever have to claim that title. it's funny she says that, he thinks, because whether he wanted to see ely--cyrene, again, she would visit him anyway. she'd visit him, choking on his steam-turning tears and spasming, tremblingtrembling hands soaked in her blood.

that white smile on her mouth smeared in gold would stay with him and stir him awake. only back when he remembered what sleep even was. he'd remember the wheat fields where he laid her to rest, smiling, always smiling, ( you have to make it so it doesn't hurt. you promised her she wouldn't feel a thing. it's part of your promise, don't forget your promise, khaslana. )

" .... we've both been through too much." it comes out a deep, ragged exhale dragging out syllables. there's no smile, no mask, the deliverer is laid bare, every mark of his soul is a crater, an indomitable soul, but to what cost ? there's a long pause, before phainon works his throat to speak, to rasp out like an old fireplace.

" we....both didn't make it back fully, did we ? in a way, we both died for this. i . . " ( i'm sorry. do you know i'm sorry? do you know i'm sorry i am? do you know how much you've haunted me every moment until i couldn't remember who had pink hair anymore ?)

it's hard to roll out words when your throat isn't on fire anymore. when your body isn't melting from the inside out, a disproportionate mass of parts defiantly eating their own death; making it fuel for another grisly round of endurance. endless, inhuman and human endurance to continue that journey.

" i didn't know if you wanted to see me. knowing what you know, or don't. we....talked briefly, before the end. well, before you helped bring me back after... " ( his death is too familiar to him that sometimes it feels like a mercy. an obstacle in an endless path. something of both. )

living is more dangerous a journey.

phainon swallows, eyes soft and glassy on her face, briefly looking away. it's good to see her, it hurts to look at her. ( both can be true at once. )

his furnace of a heart aches with eons of a journey only a ghost would understand.

phainon can't wish for her to go back to being that ghost that knew him, before the mantle of hero, of worldbearer, of deliverance. he wants her to live, to grow up like she wanted, to write and to rest and to smile. if knowing the ghost means he is known, then it's alright if she doesn't know him. anything but to be a ghost again. someone out of reach and robbed of a future phainon isn't sure he should have survived, even if he took part in its coming.

it's surprisingly easy to answer her words, speaking to her gently, as if he is the older one and not something that died young too. that burnt out in boyhood and reignited into something else.

the nameless hero speaks surprisingly soft, a tenderness reserved uniquely to kin of a land that exists and doesn't. ( nothing is in the same way. but isn't this better? he didn't think either would come back at all. aedes elysiae, much less his best friend, his sister. )

" whether you're who i knew, or not, isn't what matters to me. we...whoever you are, i know what she wanted to say before the last battle. i know. even after eons of forgetting, in my heart, i still remembered. i remembered our promise. it's...enough to hold that promise within me. "

tired eyes lift to her face, crinkling with a fondness, a guilt that needn't be given to the one who truly understood.

" it's not important if you remember or know me, if you...remember khaslana, or not. " his name comes out cracked from his own lips.

" what matters....is that you're here. what matters is that you're alive. that's....all that matters to me."

[soapstore]

something holy inside you wants to get out but you can’t let it

[katakaios]

i'm just saying if they met uh. they'd have stuff to talk about or avoid talking about .

[kiraandfriendss]

ローエンド

[mournfulroses]

Zinaida Nikolaevna Gippius, from a diary entry featured in The Selected Diaries of Zinaida Nikolaevna Gippius

[lunaete]

i will embrace the feeling …   independent,  private portrayal of persona 3’s aigis,  by theo.   please read rules before following!

[katakaios]

continued from here . @bloodycharge

and shinjiro is met with a charming smile. in between a field of 'bark' and 'bite', phainon finds the other more of the former. he's aware of the sharp teeth, the edges, the anger, too. it's so cold and lodged between walls and walls of ' keep-outs ' that it could have been tricky to find his friend underneath. he can bite, but more often than not, its sharp words and brusque tones. it takes persistence and endurance, something he's a bit too familiar with in some ways, for all their different backgrounds.

he's not the only one with sharp teeth, and buried anger that instead of cold, burns sun-hot. burns, is seething if he was alone. if he was alone, well, how would he turn up ?

" of course you didn't. " the teen nods his head sagely, smile not once leaving his face. " don't you think you'd get lost too ? between us, i personally think you'd get lost, shinjiro. " arching a brow, the question has him on internal pause, arm loose at his side.

" hmm . . nothing important, really, " it is. " it wasn't here, so i'll just look next time we come here. things pop up all the time here, i'll find it eventually. " i hope so.

" are the others still on this floor ? " ( no. you have to carry the burden of being missed / and i have to carry the burden of losing. )

[katakaios]

phainon consistently being a character who has by choice or by design, been given lack of 'personhood' from the start of amphoreus' saga of heroes. phainon constantly being a person who doesn't know how to be anything but a vessel of wishes that aren't his but everyone else's. phainon who willfully denies himself personhood as he becomes the deliverer of amphoreus, phainon who has it stripped from him and he allows it, he allows the depersonalization to happen even before he knows he's doing it. someone prophesized to be a great hero, the one to pave the path of deliverance and usher in the new era where everyone will be happy, so that makes it justified right ?

phainon in the cycles / eternal recurrence, fighting for time, always fighting, always resisting, always denying himself to the point of complete and utter destruction of the self, physically, mentally and emotionally for the sake of amphoreus' cause, and the universe at large. depersonalization to the point killing his friends and found family for the sake of said cause becomes a numbing, dissociative prospect because he can't understand his rage and grief anymore. dissociation with literally killing himself to reset the cycle and buy more time, stall more of the world's enemy / the cosmos'. literally falling on his sword without a thought each cycle to pass on memories no human being can possibly bear from 30+ million tries.

personhood being taken from him, when at the end of his endless, eternal struggle, phainon can no longer hold back the lord ravager, can no longer do anything but be devoured by irontomb and fused with it, until nothing but death can give him personhood as his body dies in 3.7.

something about how the cause won't let go of you even then and you let it. something about you can't be a person if you never let yourself know what it meant in the first place.

[katakaios]

phainon 🤝 denia

[mothermakkar]

"All shall bid farewell to one, and that person alone will witness the miracle"

[katakaios]

Which herb would your muse represent?

dandelions ! phainon to me definitely would be a dandelion. they're symbols of resilience and strength to endure harsh conditions and places plants just won't grow. i think that ties in with him a lot and his ability to surpass his limits and endure impossible things, imho ! also they like tradition carry wishes when you blow them on the breeze, tying in to phainon's wish to fulfill 'everyone else's wishes' . they're just a tough little herb that can do and take a lot, and the wishes are another aspect of it !

[katakaios]

phainon consistently being a character who has by choice or by design, been given lack of 'personhood' from the start of amphoreus' saga of heroes. phainon constantly being a person who doesn't know how to be anything but a vessel of wishes that aren't his but everyone else's. phainon who willfully denies himself personhood as he becomes the deliverer of amphoreus, phainon who has it stripped from him and he allows it, he allows the depersonalization to happen even before he knows he's doing it. someone prophesized to be a great hero, the one to pave the path of deliverance and usher in the new era where everyone will be happy, so that makes it justified right ?

phainon in the cycles / eternal recurrence, fighting for time, always fighting, always resisting, always denying himself to the point of complete and utter destruction of the self, physically, mentally and emotionally for the sake of amphoreus' cause, and the universe at large. depersonalization to the point killing his friends and found family for the sake of said cause becomes a numbing, dissociative prospect because he can't understand his rage and grief anymore. dissociation with literally killing himself to reset the cycle and buy more time, stall more of the world's enemy / the cosmos'. literally falling on his sword without a thought each cycle to pass on memories no human being can possibly bear from 30+ million tries.

personhood being taken from him, when at the end of his endless, eternal struggle, phainon can no longer hold back the lord ravager, can no longer do anything but be devoured by irontomb and fused with it, until nothing but death can give him personhood as his body dies in 3.7.

something about how the cause won't let go of you even then and you let it. something about you can't be a person if you never let yourself know what it meant in the first place.

[katakaios]

love but also mixed feelings how in the new mili video for amphoreus < link, that khasl.ana/pha.inon is the last person to say goodbye to cy.rene, the only person who could understand the burden of the eternal recurrences, the only person who knew his sacrifice like he knew hers, the only person who knew why he had to do what he did and him why she did what SHE did.... and we never got that. they never got to say goodbye in 3.7 because cy.rene is a mixture of all these people and it isn't the cyr.ene he grew up with and in a way it's good to show just how these two sacrificed everything about themselves but also...don't they deserve that much for all they did?

they never reunited. they never got to say 'we succeeded' in saving amphoreus together with the heirs + astral express. when phai.non asks 'cy.rene / mem ' in 3.7 when having no choice but to take his life as irontomb's vessel, he asks...'have we succeeded?' but it's not the same as the girl he grew up with. he even says he just feels her there, knowing that the woman in front of him is not her, can't share his agony, his pain, his sacrifice, or her own, their mutual suffering as the two who held up amphoreus and the universe. no one else is going to remember her but him in that way. no one else is going to understand phai.non in the way the original cy.rene , 'philia' did.

kinda...not happy that yes i love this mili video, that we only got him actively grieving his childhood friend arguably one of his dearest friends, if not one of his best, or at least someone he was with so much, and buried so much like they planned, in a video and not in 3.7. my phai.non very much is grieving in a terrible way inside about her constantly. he's never not wishing and wondering why it wasn't him who vanished and not her. that cy.rene should be here, not him. so he has survivor's guilt even tenfold if possible than he already has. . that will be present in my portrayal, his grief, his drifting off thinking of her.

she was a huge part of his life, even if time has eroded his memories and made them more painful than happy. even if he remembers burying her and losing her more than playing and talking to her alive.

just...the concept of only two people who could ever understand the impossible suffering, sacrifice and burden together. one person bore the universe, bought time, and the other gave him the means to do that time, the means to uphold time and record their planet so it would never be erased even if it was destroyed. saying one isn't as important as the other is reductive, they are imho, the original mvps of this planet and at the heart of the story, just like the chrysos heirs besides them. i just idk, think it's unfair to both of these huge characters that they never get to reunite or at least talk, or say goodbye, but i also think like real life, we don't always get what we want. and once again, phai.non is still left standing.

they never get to reunite. they never get to say goodbye. the minute they made the only choice they could make in a hopeless situation cost them their bond with one another and separated them for good.

anyway, aedes elysiae duo stays...losing i guess. beautiful video though if you like mili and don't mind spoilers but i'll just be in pain over what could have been and hope she comes back somehow.

[cspcrashing]

in memory of a Ḍ̶̡̠͙̭͐̀̋̒̀̋̍͆̓̓e̵̛̻̹͋̀̌̌̎͗̅͘͠l̴̨̦̯̋ǐ̶̜̳̖̱͇͉̜͓̬̎̆̀̔͆̋͋͜v̴̨̡̫͕͑́̏̃͗͋̈̄͠e̸̹͇͓͊͆̽̉͌̔̒́r̵͈̼͚̣͇̓̓̉̃̌̂̎̔͒͠ḙ̶̢̥̥͊̊̕͠ȓ̸̡̺̥̱̝͚̙̩͈͊̉

[darklight-owl]

"Doomed characters who don't know they're doomed are great" ok but what about doomed characters who KNOW they're doomed but TRY ANYWAY?? Doomed characters who RAGE AGAINST THE DYING LIGHT??? Who have nothing to lose so they give up EVERYTHING??? Who are in DENIAL even???

[hyposelenics]

— the night belongs to you.

hyposelenics : independent and private columbina hyposelenia of genshin impact. adored by eden. established may 2026. graphic credit.