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[kathiee]

I'm fed up wt school errr

[kathiee]

Uh why do we need to study _-_

[primalscne]

[kathiee]

:(

[bymikeshaw]

[naesthentic-x]

The exit door is always open for those who want to be away.

I personally don't mind that and I don't think it's good to hold onto something, someone or some place or even a memory that bad just because it means a lot to us.

What's prior is myself. I keep remembering that. At some point, the things I think they're good for me sometimes are not actually.

I exit the things that cause self destructions and negativity.

—naesthetica 🍒

[naesthentic-x]

It is a sunny autumn day. Cold breeze and warm sunlight, my favorite weather of all. On my way to meet myself, to enjoy, to have fun, to see how I behave in this world.

Getting on a bus, looking from its window with some cool music. The blue sky is beautiful for the first time in so long. Few white happy clouds dancing and the sun smiling above. Just can't take my head off it.

What I feel most is, breathing. Reborn, renewed, refreshed and happy.

For the first time, I could feel what getting out of a dark tunnel means. It's beautiful and makes me think like, I made it myself, we're a great team, we fight together and fall together and stand up together. We're flying together.

Autumn days will always be my favorite. It's the season I celebrate myself, enjoy the little things, feel its cold breeze always. It's where I feel relaxed and ready.

People are busy with things that either vanish or until they vanish. Everyone's working for their own surviving. It's not new but I'd love to see them for once, appreciating nature around, breath to feel, stare at the trees and smile to realize that they're alive.

—naesthetica 🍒

[paradoxical-plutonian]

“I read countless books, spent hundreds of hours in lectures, and still it was pain that became my most powerful teacher.”

— journal entry, 8/27/20 

[dsu2014]

good morning to people who still use wired earphones only

[naesthentic-x]

Some people are engraved in our lives. Either in a good or a bad side. No.. there's no bad side but more of lessons to pick.

I used to fear losing people, I used to do my best to keep them around because they were precious for me. Then I questioned myself "Do they think or do the same to me?"

When I caught up with all the answers I got shocked at first. It was so unexpected and stupid of me to put them before me and sacrifice a lot even my own health to keep what we had up.

Then, I concluded that many will eventually leave at the end so why should I fear and spend all this effort for that? Why do I have to be extreme? I consumed myself mostly for those who left. And what's left for me? Nothing.

Some people are engraved in our lives because they keep shaking our insides even when they leave, hurt and hate us too or even when they don't care anymore. They keep moving us and let many things randomly spreading inside us, makes it chaotic and sounds tragic.

It's not. It only means they still mean a lot to us.

—naesthetica 💜

[capistrania]

[lunadarkbloom]

Just started Cyberpunk 2077 and these are a few screenshots I’ve taken so far. I LOVE the visuals of this game <3

[naesthentic-x]

Sometimes I fear my moodiness. It gets me back some unwanted memories and feelings.

I fear going back to those states where I feel like a second choice, like a free time passed by or as a replacement.

It gets me back some hateful painful memories that made me once sob till I fall asleep or to feel hurt till I couldn't feel anything after that. To a feeling that kept me up every night thinking if I ever went wrong, if I ever dismissed something, undid or forgot special things, occasions or even days. A feeling that made me losing myself my core and feeling sorry about everything I've given, for waiting, for acting impulsively, immaturely and in a rush. To a feeling that made me feel as if I don't deserve efforts, time, feelings or even worthy of em. Somewhere I'd be losing everything for a waste or for a running time.

I don't want to see myself drowning or sinking in a darker sea or even lose the ability to swim. I don't wanna throw myself to a higher fire without a mindful decision or a solution to get myself out.

Things get complicated and I get distracted. I used to fall apart fast and weigh every word and action and everything in between. Though now I don't do that anymore but my heart reminds me rarely to tell me that I've got through it and that the next levels are harder than what have passed.

—naesthetica 💜

[quotefeeling]

“The person you’re meant to be with will never have to be chased, begged or given an ultimatum.”

— Mandy Hale

[kathiee]

hi, im new here. looking forward for new and exciting people here on tmblr :)