Aphroditee

I'm a sunkissed angel and a moonkissed devil

[aaangelllll]

👽🛸📷🌈

[backto2010s]

long time no see

[anglkissss]

⋆₊˚⊹౨ৎ˚.

[dreamgirl-spilled]

I LOVE GLITTER SO SO SO MUCH IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!

[naesthentic-x]

Me tooo

[naesthentic-x]

Maybe I'm meant for quiet bigger things which others can't have in this life.

—aphroditee

[naesthentic-x]

I just want someone who connects with me deeply. A soulmate, a lover, a man in his masculine energy. Someone who'll make me see him only. Someone I can lean on, rely on and feel safest and deepest with. Someone I can marry and be forever with him in this life and the after.

I'm waiting still.

[naesthentic-x]

Did it feel good to hurt me?

[nixscriptum]

[naesthentic-x]

I wish he can be mine.

[naesthentic-x]

I'm just a soul wandering in this vastly wide world.

—naesthentic

[naesthentic-x]

Maybe because I'm at a crossroad, I gotta make sure not to delay time.

[qvotable]

You are worth finding. Worth knowing. Worth loving. You and all your one million layers.

Danielle Doby

[qvotable]

Maybe we’ll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.

Unknown

[naesthentic-x]

Then, they me your favorite flower and I could hear my heart shattering.

—naesthentic ♥️💜

[naesthentic-x]

I've never felt this alone. Even the one I thought I'm dear to, is choosing someone else now. I think I've only God and I'll always have him.

I'm just a human. I need a company for sure. It's hard to find that and harder to open up. It's never been easy but hopefully, someone shows up in my life and all of it changes to beautiful surprises.

[naesthentic-x]

Some things never change. I try to but they're just there. I either replace them or delete them forever. It's been a while. I feel so angry so furious so pissed and so many things that are pushing me to lose my temper.

I'm not in control. I'm hurting people around me and I'm easily triggered by the silliest things ever. I can't be surrounded like this by triggers. Do I need to be alone to calm down and solve it? Or do I need to be surrounded by someone who can handle me and take care of me.

I feel like I'm on the edge. Something inside me is igniting with anger and fury. I hate this feeling but I'm accepting it. I'm trying to solve it up to find a way to calm it down. Only prayers are doing so. I know I'm hurt and so deeply in pain because that's exactly how I react to it. I get angry. The angrier the more I'm feeling hurt. I don't think anybody is understanding this. Not even the one I thought he does. In fact, he's hurting me again. He's not seeing my angles or standing in my shoes. Should I just cut off this friendship? Although it's priceless but it's taking us to nowhere. I'm only needing God. My God is the only one understanding me, feeling me, knowing what's wrong with me and the one to solve it for me, to clarify it and soothe me with the outcomes.

I'm on the edge. I'm drowning. I'm saving myself. I'm getting up on my feet and opening my wings to fly higher this time. It doesn't matter what people will say about me or do to me. What matters most is how I react. I'm learning again how to react to people. I should stop attaching and seeing them the way I see myself. It doesn't matter what they say. If they're just bluffing about being there for me and helping me while they do nothing, what's the point of giving em a piece of me to shatter?

It doesn't matter. It's all passing and I'm again placing people the way they should be.

I'm learning to love myself and be able to fall in love again. I'm getting ready and this time I'll not mess up again.

—naesthentic ♥️💜

[perfectfeelings]

“A healthy relationship is where two independent people just make a deal that they will help the other person be the best version of themselves.”

— Unknown

[naesthentic-x]

He, who hasn't loved

He, who hasn't seen

Me, my heart, shoved

State, I've never been

—naesthentic 💜