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Pisarad voolavad- veri samuti
Probleeme arutades nagu ühel kohal sammuksin.
Silmad pilus ja nägu maetud patja
Ei, nutmine enam ei aita.
Hinge piinavad küsimused õitsevad peas
Kui aina enam pikenevad sinu loobitud süüdistuste read.
Lahendust ei leia kuid hinges vaid piin
Kuidas ma küll mustad mõttes peast minema viin?
-26.01.19
You make me feel like i'm not there,
Is there someone who seems to care?
That your daughter is not the same
She's just playing that 'happy' game.
Putting up an act
That's the only fact
But you don't seem to notice
That i'm walking on a thin ice.
Can you save me from it all?
Before i give in and do the fall.
I will slip and you will know,
Why i put up that little show.
Muutlikud ilmad ja suurenev viha. Sinuta olemine-märjad silmad ning tungivalt suurenev iha. Kui vaid suruksid oma külmad peod ümber mu piha-ütle ausalt kas sooviksid seda teha? Ning tunda lähemalt mu külmast kanget keha?
-Itu
And you did it! You used me like i was nothing and left me lying there asking for a round two just for your own pleasure. If anyone ever asks me- yes i would tell them that i didn't want it, that you put pressure on me and touched me all over to just get me to do anything for you, i would tell them how you begged me every time we slept together.
You used me
And i'm still hopefully here-Itu
You know, day by day I still hope thay you'll come into my life one day. Maybe it won't be this easy weekend, but lets say next month! I feel like I'm lost because I don't hear much from you- you are too far away and I can't seem to do anything about it.
Please don't use too much alcohol and drugs to take everything away- don't take me away!
We'll meet one day my S.- Hopefully here Itu
I still don't know- I'm like a passenger in my own life. I let everyone push me here and there and I can't keep it up anymore. How can I step into my life one day and say that I want to control it now? It's not that easy and I'm not entirely sure that I want it. I'm like standing in the middle of the crossroad and everyone are yelling at me what should I do, but im not sure if I want to listen to them or listen to myself.
Hopefully waiting here- Itu
Kõik Sinu valed.
Mul ei olnudki plaanis valetada, miks ma oleks pidanud? Kusjuures ma olin ainuke kes rääkis tõtt. Selle valetamisega nad tegid selle kõik endale raskemaks, nad said nii kui nii karistada.
Meil on väga väike tõenäosus vahele jääda. See oli üks nendest kõikidest valedest. Tuli välja, et sa valetasid kõige kohta- pere, suhete, sõprade- isegi oma nime kohta. Terve mu elu oli tagurpidi pööratud. Ma ei ole kunagi selline olnud nagu tol hetkel. Ma olin teadmatuses, hirmul, ärevil- mul ei ole iial sellist paanikat olnud.
Kuid illusioon, et homme on parem ei muuda paremaks hetkest olukorda, ning hetkelisi tundeid mis meid tol hetkel läbivad. Ma ei teadnud mida teistele selle kohta öelda- ma ei pidanudki, nad said ise teada. Kuid SINA, SINA kes sa mulle algusest peale valetasid, oled väikese haleda leegiga läbi põlenud.
Tema pärast tekkis mul hullem ärevus ning usaldamatus teiste vastu. Ma tahan, et ta teaks, et ta on hale
Kõik ta valed on viinud mu tagasi sinna kus ma alguses olin- üksinduses.
Kas surra oleks parem kui joosta paljajalu, kui oleksid öelnud seda varem poleks tundnud nii suurt valu. Kui mõtled, et muru on pehme ja põgeneda seal sees on mõnus siis tunnistan, et minu positiivsus pole ehtne kui üritan plehku pista alkoholi mõjus.
Itu
Algusest peale olen mõelnud, et mis juhtub siis kui tõmban oma elu kokku. Pühin kühvlile ning puistan selle alla kaljult, mille servale ma iial pole julgenud astuda. -Itu
Tänu sinule.... Tänu sinule ma olen unustanus kuidas olid asjad siis kui Tema veel oli. Ma olen unustanud kuidas suured sooja pisarad mööda mu põski alla kihutasid nagu oleks tegemist olnud rallisõiduga. Ma olen unustanud mis tunne oli ennast täiest väest vihata, sinu heasüdamliku, armsa jutusaatel ei ole mul selleks lihtsalt aega jätkunud. Olen kiindunud sinusse nagu kaheksajalg hoiaks kõigi oma kaheksa kombitsaga kinni palmipuust mis on tema ainuke tugipunkt. Ma arvan, et sa ei mõista mis sa minuga teinud oled.
Itu
I was waiting you right here, and wishing that you could see, That i miss you every day and try to say it every way. That only light that shone so bright, Made me feel like it was all alright. All these nights that i was gone, none of them really shone. These lonely nights have made me strong, they just feel little bit slow. Those stars that once shined in the sky they are now in my eyes.
Itu
I was sand and you were the screaming ocean
Itu
Lootusetult armunud, kuid suutsin hoida vaid mälestusi, loodan, et tuled tagasi.
Itu
Those smiles and all these miles that are between us could never bring you back again.
Smiley faces and depressed places. I never knew what to say.
I got my life upside down I got too many wounds.
I neverasked for your help.
I was trying to die and never say good-bye cause it´s not fucking good and will bring down your damn mood.
Võrreldes meie mõlema probleeme mõistsin, et sinu kõrval on minu probleemid olematud.
Kustuv kuma su silmis andis kindla vastuse, et meie aeg on möödas
//Meid pole olnudki, oli vaid sina ja mina//
Lootsin et oskad mind aidata kuid ütlesid, et sa täna ei viitsi.