k.

Because we can't really talk about the things that matters

[quotemadness]

“I saw something that reminded me of you. I wanted to show you, but then I remembered that we don’t talk anymore.”

— Unknown

[dreams-of-mutiny-deactivated202]

Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.

~ Anaïs Nin

[qvotable]

“It’s been a long time since I’ve been me.”

— Fernando Pessoa (via bnmxfld)

[katlnb]

And when we wake up,

are we still going to be together?

[katlnb]

So this is what it feels like,

To give your all

And not get anything in return when it's important.

[greenstudies]

Hi! Can you do something for me?

Relax your shoulders. Let them fall down. Now tense them up for a moment really hard. And relax again. Use your hand to massage them gently

Relax your jaw. Open your mouth, stick out your toungue. Let your mouth hang open for a bit. Now puff your cheeks. Relax your jaw again

Relax your neck. Move your head side to side slightly. Stretch your neck muscles a little

Relax your arms. Let them fall by your sides. Wiggle them! Now stretch them a little

Take a deep breath. Hold it for a moment. Breathe out

Straighten your back. Tense it up for a little. Relax

OKAY THANK YOU AND BYEEE

[quotemadness]

“That’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.”

— Khaled Hosseini

[katlnb]

We don't actually know them. 😔

[katlnb]

[katlnb]

She hated the flowers when she’s only let herself pick up the thorns.

[katlnb]

It’s like I never have to walk on thin ice.

It’s like I won’t be hanging on a thread.

Still, fear outweighs love.

[katlnb]

My anxiety has thought me to laugh when I'm hurting.

Validate everyone's emotion and judgement while I disregard my own.

[overpricedvodka]

I was walking behind a woman for five minutes and she got catcalled three times.

I usually walk everywhere with my headphones on, but I had them in my bag and I was reading a book on my phone instead (I do that when the foot traffic is light).  A young Latina was coming down the street as I was coming up the avenue, and when she got to the corner a few paces ahead of me, she turned to walk in the direction I was going.  We were traveling at the same speed, but since she was like ten paces ahead and it’s bright outside in the middle of the day, I didn’t feel the need to fall back or slow down to give her more space. At night, I try not to walk too close behind women just so they don’t feel like I’m any sort of threat.

We got to a corner and this dude standing outside of the bodega was like, “Slow down mama where you goin? You don’t have to work today, you can stop and speak.”

She didn’t break her stride. “I’m going to the gym.”  The Walk sign was on, so I didn’t break mine either.  

A block later, a young guy was coming toward us on the sidewalk riding his bike.

“What’s good shorty?”

She didn’t respond.

“Well you was lookin, you can say something, stuck up bitch.”

We kept walking.

In the middle of the next block, an older man was walking toward us and he put on a friendly smile and said, “Smile young lady, it’s a beautiful day.”

I don’t know if she smiled, but we kept walking. She went into the gym and I kept on toward where I was going thinking about how that was just five minutes of her day.  How many other blocks of five minutes are just like that?  

Only one of them was truly aggressive. The other two guys seemed nice enough and it felt more like a pleasant compliment. It felt like the kind of thing a guy says who argues with women online about catcalling. “We’re not all bad guys. We can’t even compliment women? We can’t even say something nice?”

No.  You really can’t.  I was annoyed in that five minutes and I just happened to be walking behind her with no headphones on.  Can you imagine those five minutes over and over every day of your life?  Nobody wants to be spoken to by strangers day in and day out forever regardless of what they’re saying.  

So no.  You can’t say anything. The quality of your life has not decreased because you aren’t allowed to say nice things to strange women on the sidewalk, but your silence greatly increases the quality of hers.  So just be quiet, and let her go where she’s going.

[mybrainrots]

The quality of your life has not decreased because you aren’t allowed to say nice things to strange women on the sidewalk, but your silence greatly increases the quality of hers.  So just be quiet, and let her go where she’s going.

[should-be-sleeping]

The quality of your life has not decreased because you aren’t allowed to say nice things to strange women on the sidewalk, but your silence greatly increases the quality of hers.  So just be quiet, and let her go where she’s going.

[cwote]

[sunsetquotes]

“We never made it, did we?”

— Lang Leav; Sad Girls

[swim-deep-poems]

The night you saved my stupid ass

[qvotable]

“I’m sorry. I know you’ve been looking for something and this isn’t it.”

— Unknown

[katlnb]

He gave too much of himself, he opened up to me. Yet I can't tell him about the demons in my head, I can't even tell him that I've fallen for him.

Saying goodbye to an almost-relationship is hard. I couldn't tell you how much I'm willing to compromise, how I'm about to take a leap of faith no matter how afraid I've been of jumping in with both feet.

How wanting you everyday is already a leap of faith.