i asked myself how i’m supposed to wake up in my new reality, because this is honestly starting to get ridiculous. i already know how to imagine myself there, playing out scenarios and seeing it all in my mind. i know how to do all that and i know where i want to shift. but something about the how to actually wake up there kept taking over my mind.
then it randomly clicked when i thought about falling asleep. how would i even describe falling asleep? well, you close your eyes and then it just happens after a while. that’s it.
you literally pretend to be asleep until you are.
so what’s the difference between that and shifting? well, there isn’t one. at least not for me.
when i lay there at night, pretending, imagining that i’m there, that’s literally enough. there’s nothing extra i need to do to make it happen, just like there’s nothing extra i need to do to fall asleep. i pretend it, i become it.
i don’t need to overthink it anymore. i should just let myself assume the state (even with doubts), the same way i assume sleep. i don’t lay there affirming “i’m sleeping, i’m sleeping.” no, i let my mind drift. i let myself relax.
shifting works the same way by letting my awareness drift, instead of forcing it. i feel like once i stop trying to get there and simply just start being, that’s when it will happen. ‹𝟹
my (m27) boss (m53) bit me on the ear and now he’s avoiding me :/
Hi everyone! I hope this is the right sub for this, I’m in a really weird situation at work and I didn’t know where else to come for advice.
So, basically I work in a really fast paced and high pressure environment and do really important work. I won’t say what I do exactly bc I’m kinda paranoid about my coworkers finding me on here but I wanted to put that out there as context as it makes my relationships with my coworkers and boss really intense and maybe sometimes unusual. I also wanna go ahead and say I really like my boss, I look up to him a lot and think he’s a great guy. Idk if he would call me a friend, but I think he likes me too at least a little.
This all happened last week, I was dealing with one of those high pressure situations and things were looking bad. When my boss gets called in to help you know things are taking a turn for the worst lol. It looked like things were all over but I thought of something at the 11th hour. There were a lot of people in the room who thought it was a bad idea but my boss said to go for it and thankfully it worked! Everyone was super relieved and that’s when it happened. My boss can be a pretty touchy guy, especially with me for some reason lol but he’s never taken it this far before. He grabs me round the shoulders (as usual) but pulls me right into him and I think he’s gonna say something into my ear but instead he put his mouth on it and kind of sucked and bit it a little??? Like he didn’t bite me hard but there were definitely teeth involved and afterwards the top of my ear was wet.
Now here’s maybe where I messed up in all this. I kind of. like. whimpered a little bit??? Idk sorry that sounds weird but it just came as a surprise and I guess I’m a little touch starved since work makes it hard to try and find someone and I just let it out before I even had a chance to think about it. But he jumped back from me and looked at me like I’d just told him I was gonna kill his whole family. I tried to apologise and all but he pretty much ran out the room after that.
Since then things have been really weird :( I was hoping I was imagining it but now even other people are noticing and asking what’s going on between us. My roommate is also my coworker and she’s literally not dropping it but I really can’t tell her like omg I fucking moaned I would never hear the end of it.
Wtf do I do?? I really like my boss and don’t want him to hate me but I feel like this has really messed things up. Any advice or anything would be appreciated bc I really dk what to do please help
u/someonesensible
Um. Your boss sucked your ear and bit you. At work. Stop posting on Reddit and go to hr this is insane.
u/BittenFarmboyThrowaway876
It’s not like that
u/soberscotsman
Ok based on how you describe your job you’re either a chef or an emergency service worker either way y’all are so cracked up in there that this will probably blow over. I wouldn’t worry about it.
u/abbybabbles
DEFINITELY emergency medicine. My ex husband works in the er and this sounds exactly like the kind of drama he’d get into. He ended up a drug addict btw.
u/BittenFarmboyThrowaway876
im not a drug addict but sorry about your husband that sucks :/
u/PrincessofStitches
‘I kind of whimpered a little bit’ ok next time maybe start with that
u/jesseicarabbit
Are you trying to fuck your boss? Because this is how people end up fucking their boss
u/BittenFarmboyThrowaway876
What if he hates me now though?
u/jesseicarabbit
???????
u/AwesomeGirl_King
Have you tried talking to him? Pull him aside and just clear the air. Say you didn’t mean to make a noise and show you can be professional about this. It’s easy to get over excited sometimes and it sounds like you both did. Good luck :)
u/ BittenFarmboyThrowaway876
Thank you. You’re right, this is definitely what I should do but the idea of it is making me really nervous. I guess I just don’t want to risk making anything worse by bringing it up. I guess I’m hoping maybe he didn’t hear me or something but it’s pretty obvious by now that he did. Thanks for this, it’s definitely the best advice :)
u/Mattdeepblue
Bro your boss wants you
u/BittenFarmboyThrowaway876
I don’t even know if he likes guys
u/Mattdeepblue
Dude.
u/HolyTrinity
I think you might be the most fucked up people ever :/ freak4freak
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r/tifu
u/docrabbitbitch
TIFU by biting a kid that works for me.
I don’t know, read the fucking title. Work in an ER as an attending physician. Got a kid who works for me and he’s real cute. He did some good work and I meant to say good job to him but lost my mind and tried to take a bite out of him. Kid has barely looked me in the eye since. Trying to figure if I wait for the hospital to suspend me for sexual harassment or if I just get ahead of it and report it myself. I don’t even know why I’m posting this. Beats sitting thinking about it, I guess.
Hal having the strangest case of return to the womb wherein he wants to reattach himself to his father but because there is nothing to attach to the closest he can get to that is the jet crash because it was the last point of connection between them and maybe if he dies then he’ll be able to feel that nothingness bliss he felt before he ever perceived himself separate from his father because in death they’ll both be nothing. Do you understand me.
Just seen an advert for the pitt releasing in the uk and Noah Wyle says that we’re waiting for Gerran Howell to be famous ? Sorry? That’s Vladimir Dracula?? The chosen one? What are you even saying ?? He will always be famous to me
But they met eachother when they were still lil kids (5 to 6yrs) and developed a crush on eachother in 2 weeks of friendship
But instead of supressing the feelings their whole lifes they acted on it the same day they realised and went full on dating since then. Everyone said they would grow out of it and just be friends, and everyone thought they did when they grew up, but no, they just were full time bestfriends and full time boyfriends since the first day they started acting on it, it just became so much of a routine no one realised that it wasnt the norm for bestfriends to be up on the other like that. Because at the same time they did act like a couple they were threatening eachother and calling names like best friends. They went a full on week of not talking for nothing. They never had an official proposal but they were on eachothers family dinners all the time
Bonus if they dont ever remember the time they werent dating. Or they never realise they're dating, they just make out and sleep on the same bed while they cuddle when they have sleepovers because its the norm for them since the beginning of their memories. They dont know how to live without being on eachother
I JUST REALIZED THE REASON I FW WITH BRUHAL SO MUCH
THEY ARE DESTIEL CODED 😭😭😭
Oh fuck me I just keep jumping head first into the fucking same formula of hopeless romantic stoic top x bratty bottom with low self-esteem issues, over and over again like moths to flame
