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My cat, Cuddles! I love him to death! I've had him for 10 years and he means the world to me!
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My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 10
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to go and see that first but it's up to you, just if you want to catch up you should read them in order. Please don't judge me in the comments, this is just my life and I wanted to share that so if you don't like it just ignore it please, thank you!
17th of February, Friday, 2023
So... Today was really fun! Even though Matt and Jarred (my best friends) because they were doing TAFE every Friday, I still had a fun day! Firstly, I had councilling with the new councillor which it was my first time.. it wasn't too bad.. I go their to get over my anxiety and try and get a job. Then, in third period I had my favourite teacher, Mr Grierson, he said my name with a nice sigh again! Plus I noticed he always looks at me when he calls my name it's a quick look until I say "here!" But he still looks at me and he don't look at anyone else when he says their names and he says everyones name quickly and mine slowely with a nice/good sigh at the end! Hehe, yay! I may be his teachers pet... not sure yet though! Anyway, then I had a class with my second favourite teacher (my old teacher crush) Mr Pickett... he's about 40 with kids but he's cute and looks like Brad pitt when Brad Pitt was young! Same hairstyle and same eyes! Haha! Today we were playing Kahoot (a school learning game) and I was cheating by using a calculator hehe, and Renee was calling me a cheater and trying to click on my laptop to get the wrong answer, then Mr Pickett laughed and said "Click on the calculator to get to get the wrong answer!" With a laugh and then he came over and tried to click on my calculator with his finger, I actually touched his finger with mine because he tried to click the weong number OMG and I said "go away!" With a giggle and he just giggled, OMG I said "go away" to a teacher! Haha, yeah... he's a pretty fun teacher! Well... he did use to be my teacher crush... now I understand why, he's fun and he's cute! Overall it was a great day!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 9
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to go and see that first but it's up to you, just if you want to catch up you should read them in order. Please don't judge me in the comments, this is just my life and I wanted to share that so if you don't like it just ignore it please, thank you!
16th of February, Thursday, 2023
So... Today the most exciting thing happened... well so far anyway... so, I saw the sexy teacher today (Mr Grierson), I didn't personally have him in class like the last 2 days but I was in study period outside and both of the study period classes were together so.. he was walking near us because he was taking the othe study class... he glanced at me a lot and I looked away and blushed like I do with all cute guys if they look at me! OMG, his eyes are so... soft and nice.. he's not very photogenic but I do have a photo of him from the newsletter because they were showing all the new staff which it was only him and a women that is a councillor. The first thing today when I saw him... he was walking out of class, I nearly jumped out of my skin, he shocked me that much my heart started to beat fast and do back flips from how excited it was! I took a couple of deep breathes and giggled with Renee, she stared at me when he came out and I turned to her and just said "I didn't even say a word!" and giggled again, then she said "I know what your thinking" with a giggle. LOL. God, I wish I could read his mind, what he thought about me.. because he sure does look at me quite a lot and I don't even talk to him, I'm pretty sure he looks at me extra... maybe he does the same with others and I'm just paranoid... not sure though! Everytime he went around the corners he took the last peek at my table then went into the class room everytime he came out which was 3 times... so im not sure if he was looking at me or.. just my table! Plus there is still no Tex from Luke... so yeahhhh... Anyway, mum also saw Sam working at the bottle shop again, he seems to really like my mum! So, sam was serving her and mum says "Hello!" In a happy tone/voice, then he turned and looked at mum, she said "I thought that you finished in this area" then he said "no, Saturday is my last day".. "I'm glad you noticed" he said with a smile! Then mum just talked about her night at work. Then he finished serving mum and said "I'm working days next door" (woolworths) then he said "aw, I won't see you again!" And mum smiled, then she looked for his name tag, didn't see one so she said "Thank you.. same is it?" Which she knows because I saw his name tag the last time at woolworths, he said "yes, what's your name?" Then she said her name, the "oh, see ya later" with a nod. Then mum said "see ya" and that was it with Sam! I can't wait to see him again.. he's not my crush yet because I hardly see him but in the future.. maybe!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 8
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to read that one before reading this one so your all catched up on what happening!
14th of February, Tuesday, 2023
So... Today Valentine's day! No one to give anything to though... Luke... hasn't answered me since... somehow I don't feel as close to him anymore... like I'm slowly drifting away because I can't be bothered anymore for all I know he may have blocked me on messages. Anyway, today I had business studies like on friday with the sexy/hot teacher.. I don't know what it is... it's not a crush but I'm attracted to him... it's just a teacher crush! Anyway, today he said my name with that nice/good sigh where as with everywhere name he says quickly, I'm still not sure if its because I'm the last name on the roll or because he likes me as a student. Anyway, Then he said to me "I always am nervous when saying your name incase I say it wrong because I'm use to the other name" with a big grin on his face.. the biggest grin I've ever seen him have! Anyway, Then we had class and I sat next to Renee like always. I know he likes me as a student at least because today after saying he gets nervous he gigled/laughed! His smile/grin was so huge!!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 7
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to read that one before reading this one so your all catched up on what happening!
10th of February, Friday, 2023
So... 4 days until Valentine's day... it's a shame no one's going to be my Valentine... I wish either Sam or Luke were... no chance in hell thought so why do I even bother asking?... so I won't. Today I had Mr Grierson and like the other day he said my name with a sigh in a nice way which he only does that to me! Then one of my classmates kyeisha thought he said another name so she said "Telahea?" Which is another girl in my year then she said "we don't have her in this class" then some of my friends said "no! He said 'Helena'!" which is my name, and then she said (kyeisha) "oooh" then she says " it's a lovely name, isn't it sir?" I thought OMG she actually asked that to Mr Grierson and then he said "It's a very nice name, yes" while looking down at his laptop with a smile, I was again like OMG, he likes my name!! I blushed as he said that! During class Renee (my so called friend)... Renee and I keep having fights so we are kinda like frienemies (friends/enemies).. anyway, she kept asking sir (Mr Grierson) a lot of questions in class and because I sit next to her in that class he's near me as well. As he answered the question she asked he looked back and forth at her and then at me.. even though I didn't ask the question, then she stayed at the end of the class and asked him stuff and I waited so I could look at his gorgeous face some more... hehe... then she talked to the other teacher on the way to lunch and he walked pasted us on the upper level and he looked at me as he walked on the other level of the path! ... no he's not my crush, he's my teacher crush... totally different, hehe!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 6
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to read that one before reading this one so your all catched up on what happening!
9th of February, Thursday, 2023
So... Today nothing much happened, just now nor.al year 11 I guess.. I really like year 11, it's great so far. I totally forgot to tell you with the Luke situation going on.. These past few weeks of year 11 there has been a new teacher! Usually I'm not really excited about new teachers.. I mean there's not a lot of new teachers that come to our schools because we are a tiny country high school with less than 300 students at the school but still I don't get that excited when a new teacher ever comes to teacher at our school but this teacher is different then all the others that come to iur school normally they are past their 40s and not good-looking at all but this teacher, Oh Boy!!! He's got the looks!! His name is Mr Grierson. He's only 24 turning 25 this may and he's so gorgeous! He's like one of those models that dress in Gucci wear and walk down the cat walks and shows off the clothes... OMG if you put him on the cat walk everyone would be looking at him! He's one of those good-looking surfer dudes! He surfers and he loves to play soccer... he played soccer for a team last year when he use to teach PDHPE but he quite from that big city and came down here into our quiet little town. He has a girlfriend.. which is a shame... well in our state in Australia it's legal to date a teacher but like as if I'd have a chance even if he didn't have a girlfriend! Anyway, he's teaching the Business studies class I'm in so that's pretty great! Every girl... nearly every girl thinks he's cute/hot but ya know, I'm a teachers per so I'll get him to like me as a student eventually.. I mean he's already calling my name out in the role with a nice sigh at the end.. I mean I'm the last on the roll but still... it may be because I'm his teachers pet or it could be because he sometimes gets my name wrong, he explained that it was because he use to have a girl at his other school called near my name but it was spell the same way! Ahh he's so cute!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 5
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to read that one before reading this one so your all catched up on what happening!
6th of February, Monday, 2023
So... after writing yesterday's diary entry I decided to text Luke "Hey Luke, I was wondering why I always have to say 'hi' first... you never say 'hi' to me first.. It would be nice if you would say 'hi' first sometimes.. so, why is that you never say 'hi' first?" I know it's not like I'm his girlfriend but I'm still his friend.. it would be good if he atleast says hi first sometimes..that's what friends do.. they take turns.. normally they say hi together.. all I'm asking is a hi first... is that too much to ask.. its not like I asked him to give me the world! Anyway, Then he texted back after 5 hours "because I'm the type of person that never sends messages unless something js sent to me. Same with real life, I won't say hi to someone unless they start it." Then he texted a minute later "cause that's who I am." So then I texted "Oh, okay so if I say hi to you, you'll say hi back." The he texted back an hour later "In real life more than likely unless I don't hear it, in messages it's either I'll read it forget to message hi back and get distracted with other things or I'll respond." Then I texted Oh okay, thanks for letting me know." Then a few minutes later I text him "Don't take effence but I just want to ask you this because we are friends... I wouldn't care either way but are you gay, straight or bisexual." I can't believe I asked him but.. I need to know! If I don't I could be wasting all my love on him when he's gay... so I can't actually be with him, of course I would still be his friend its just to know if I have a little chance atleast. Also he just got his green P's which I'm so happy for him! Anyway, I might text him om the weekend to see I'd he answers me because he hasn't answered me back yet.. which it has been 4 hours..
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 4
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to read that one before reading this one so your all catched up on what happening!
5th of February, Sunday, 2023
So... Today I went to the shops (big shops, woolworths, Coles, big W, target, etc) 45 minutes away from us (because we live in the sticks/bush/outback) and saw a cute boy, my mum saw him before at the alcohol shop a month or 2 ago but now he was working in the Woolworths section, he showed mum were the turkey was and had a 1 minute chat as I just looking at him with hearts in my eyes like one of those anime girls people draw, mum thought he was cute and when I saw him he reminded me so much of luke, his name is Sam, he looked at me a few times when he was talking to my mum... at the checkout he was then serving and I glanced over at him while he was serving and he glanced over at me too and it happened 3 time or more.. eek!.. anyway then later I got a nice blue dress and a lovely heart necklace and then this same afternoon I went to the little town 20 minutes away for some if my nans shopping plus to see Luke of course... so I put on my necklace and dress after I got home and I saw Luke working for the first time in 5 weeks, he firstly brought trollies in after I went in, then after shopping with my nan we got served by a guy because Luke wasn't there at the time, then we were nearly finished getting served and Luke comes over and stands right next to me and asks if the guy was nearly done so he could start serving people. Luke then walks away as I'm putting the bags in the trolley and then after a minute Luke comes back over and asks him again and the guys says nearly and Luke just stands there next to me... he didn't even say hi... I normally say hi so it was his turn to say hi so I just stood there quietly.. I think I started to shake at some point... I was so furious! He kept looking at me with a side eye as I just stared at him with daggers! I was so angry, I'm glad I didn't give him a fist to the face! Then I walked out and nan and I went home!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 3
If you haven't seen part 1, you may want to read that one before reading this one so your all catched up on what happening!
1st of February, Wednesday, 2023
So... Nothing special has happened really that's why I haven't wrote in a while, I went to my dads for 2 weeks but before that of course.. I asked Luke again the next week if he wanted to come to the pool (over text) and put "?" Each day because of course he didn't text me back which isn't surprising anymore.. on the last day though he actually answered me with "I won't be able to, working at the moment" I was upset but I just text him back "okay" then 2 days after days later after being depressed over it, I explained that I thought we could be good friends but that he didn't seem to want to hang out even before he was so busy then I texted him "so would you like me to leave you alone?" The next day he texted me back "it's more of I have work on and don't have time to hangout" then I texted sorry and I asked if we could still be friends and he texted "Yeah I'm fine with that".. ugh, that was annoying.. I shouldnt of even bugged him about it but I just was so depressed over it I like him so much.... anyway then a few days ago my mum found out off one of the girls at woolowrhts (where luke works) that he started his apprenticeship and he's loving it, he still works at woolworths but he only works on Saturday and Sunday, I'm not sure what times yet though. I just really miss him so damn much! I started year 11 yesterday so that takes my mind of it a bit but I still miss him.. I can't even text him as much anymorehes just so busy! I use to text him 2 days a week now it's like.. 1 day a week or less.. hopefully I'll get to know him more when he's not busy!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 2
I'll be starting off from my last post of part 1 so if you didn't read that, you can go and check out the first part! Let's continue!!
3rd of January, Tuesday, 2023
So.... Today I asked Luke if he wanted to go to the pool today or tomorrow or Thursday but he texted "I won't be able to because I have relative up" so, I texted him back "oh okay", that's sad but I'm just glad he messaged me because it normally takes him days or hours to text back... it took 3 hours but that's good enough for me. The other day I rang him twice for the first time, both times he didn't pick up but he actually has a voice message, I thought he'd be too shy to leave a vocie message. His voice is so different from what I expected but it kinda sounded like my half-brothers voice to be honest. The same type of tone and some of the words sounded like the same accent. Now everytime I see my half-brother I'm going to talk to him more to listen to his voice because it sounds like Luke's! Anyway, I said to myself before I texted him the message today if he didn't text me back this time I'm not going to text him until after the holidays which is 4 weeks. So, maybe the universe does want us together because he texted me back after 3 hours...I bet once I spend time with him in person he'll like me a lot because when people get to know me people don't mind me speaking to them and hanging out with then after that! By the way.. I say the universe might actually want us together because about 20 years ago before I was even born my mum went to this fortune teller and she said that their is going to be a Luke in your life.. my mum don't know any Luke's so it must be this Luke... normally I don't believe fortune tellers but she said to my mum before that, that we were going to live in an A and B house like a 2 end house with my nan living in one and her living in the other which 20 years later here we are living in a flipping A and B house.. yes it might just be good guessing but... I'm just going to believe it for now!
My Days at school
My story, 2023: Part 1
So, this is going to be like my blogging page about my life, if anyone wants to give me some advice, you can do so but please don't judge me.
I'm going to start from the beginning of the year until now and I'll fill in some gapes, I'll just put dates like a diary so enjoy! (I won't use real names for privacy reasons).
To catch you up with the situation:
I had this crush and I adored him, his name is Luke, I made a friend, her name is Krystal and she helped me to get talking to Luke and get his phone number, he doesn't talk to people first so I had to get out of my anxiety stage and actually talk to the guy which he is 2 years older than me so this year (2023) he's not at school, hes out in the workplace... that was my second crush out of all the years I've been alive which I am now 16 turning 17 this September. The first crush I spent 3 and a half years (year 7-a little ways through year 10) liking him, his nams is Kyden, so I got over liking him through using luke as a distraction because their was no other way for me to get over him because I get attached to people, just noting I never ever spoke to kyden once in my whole life and haven't till this day, so that's that and I'll continue on from here with New years day and this year (2023) I'm in year 11!
1st of January, Sunday, 2023
So.... Today is just like any other day except it's the new years, hopefully this year I'll get closer to Luke, I have been overthinking a lot of things like if he likes me just is very shy which my nan's friend, Margaret, said the same thing so, maybe that's just it he might like me but just is so shy or just is afraid of regection but im pretty sure he knows i like him so I dont think thats the case... I'm just not sure... he work at woolworths so he can't be too shy to talk to people. On Wednesday I'm going to text him and see if he's going to be busy if not Ill invite him to the pool, if he's busy on Wednesday, I'll ask if he's free on Thursday. Hopefully he says yes, but I don't know. If he does say yes I'm going to be so happy, one of the happiest I've ever been, the day is going to be so fun if he don't want to go to the pool because he might see people he knows I'll suggest the beach which it would be rare to see people you know unless you know there going there, either way I'm pretty sure it's going to be fun and I'll be able to be myself around him by the end of the day!
Thank you so much for reading! I'll continue the parts if you want to enjoy them! 😁