You know how some people have no filter? Well, imagine having a million. Not just second guessing yourself, but triple, or quadruple guessing. Overthinking so much that you have to force yourself to let any thoughts or emotions trickle out into words. Rarely, regrets slip through the cracks- falling from your mouth, & calling for an apology. Though, most of the time you'll end up sitting in silence while your insecurities become deafening. Still, you'll push it down. Hold it all in. Scribble out that half of a sentence you brought yourself to write, making sure it's dark enough so no one can read through it. You'll crumple up that page & shove it to the bottom of the garbage so it won't be found. Hang up the phone before it's answered. Backspace the letters typed... Leaving so much unsaid. Then, you'll be stuck wondering if maybe those who say too much are the lucky ones.
I felt all of this
