我該如何存在?

 “Doesn’t loving something that won’t love you back—something that you can’t even grasp—hurt?” “Isn’t that the definition of love? By the second bite, just about everything tastes like pain.” - A Taste Of Compulsion.

[keyukee]

écoute, j’ai besoin de m’exprimer, de t’écouter, t’admirer. un jour tu m’as regardée et moi, j’ai enfin commencé à respirer. tu sais je me suis toujours sentie esseulée. les murs de cette chambre sont menaçants et chaque nuit ces angoisses me glacent le sang. j’étais le fantôme de moi-même, je ne savais plus pleurer, j’errais. puis t’es apparu et, oh, c’est donc ça être aimée? t’es mon sanctuaire, ma salvation et peut-être bien la réponse à toutes mes questions. tu me rappelles le printemps, les douceurs d’une histoire d’antan et la douleur que c’est d’aimer de toutes les couleurs.

alors, s’il te plait, écoute tu l’entends? mon coeur avait cessé de battre, mais grâce à toi il reprend 

[keyukee]

à l’orée de cet hiver gelé, je sais pas ce qu’il reste de moi

cette année le vent était violent, un peu malveillant. à la lisière de la forêt et de ses habitants dénudés, j’avais trop peu de force pour résister. pour te résister?

malgré l’odeur de l’été et la venue d'une certaine sérénité, mon coeur ne s’est pas résigné. j’ai envie de te tenir, t’appartenir, j’aurais pas dû te laisser partir.

alors même si cet azur prend sa place dans les cieux; et qu’à l’aube les oiseaux chantent cet air chaleureux, de ce bleu mon coeur demeure tinté j’ai toujours pas pansé mes plaies.

alors même si l’ouragan a cessé de souffler, il avait déjà tout emporté. pourtant, à tes côtés, j’avais réappris à respirer.

à l’orée de cet hiver glacé, qu’est-ce qu’il me reste de toi?

[ellenent]

I love bunnies

[poetepublic]

[nipplesxoxo]

i need you to fill the void

[jungshiii]

                                            “ am I still in a dream? “

[tracyjleeart]

illusion

[taemincult]

               ✨🌌🌏🌙✨🌟You guys are my Universe ✨🌌🌏🌙✨🌟

[jonqin]

EXO : universe

[allforbts]

© MADE IN 1997 | Do not edit. 

[iboh]

[eyes snap open at 4:57 am] JUNGKOOK

[spacetaemin]

[+2,832, -32] It’s cold today, dress warmly on your way to heaven. You worked hard.

[keyukee]

“(When I'm 40,) We would definitely sing ‘Replay’, and we(SHINee) would have to wear bright skinny jeans” — Kim Jonghyun (MBC “Music”)

How tragic is it that SHINee will never get to do that with you, their precious and talented main singer, Jonghyun ?

It’s hard for me to believe it. SHINee was the first group I stanned when I got into K-pop. I loved them so much, still do, and they helped me through hard times. Now i’m older and no longer an unstable teenager, and I believe I became stronger partly because of their smiles and songs when life wasn’t treating me so well. I guess life wasn’t treating Jonghyun so well either for some time now, and most of us were blind to it because he hid it so well. He was so strong, for us his fans, his family and his friends. 

I sincerely hope your journey on Earth wasn’t only filled with sorrow. I hope that you experienced getting out of bed and not wanting to die. I hope that you didn’t spend all those cold and blue lonely nights on your own. I hope you had a shoulder to cry on. I hope you knew you had us behind you, a love army, and that it made you smile just thinking about it when you couldn’t find your way home.I hope you knew you were not alone. I hope you knew that life was worth it and most of all, I hope you have no regrets.

I didn’t know you personally, yet i can tell you’re part of the good ones. You know, the ones that make people keep faith in humanity. 

Living in such a conservative country and knowing very well that standing up for LBGT+ rights would cause you trouble, you still did so. Just looking at other idols’ posts on social medias, I can tell that you were a friend, a brother and a model to many. Now you’re an angel and you’ll keep on watching out for us.

Thank you for being such an inspiration. Thanks to you, I want to become a better and kinder person and I know i’m not the only. Your voice reached our hearts. We will greatly mourn your loss, goodbye and thank you for everything. 

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[cloudymochi]

“It’s been really hard up until now. Send me off please. Tell everyone I’ve suffered. This is my last greeting.”

—Jonghyun’s (Shinee) final words to her sister

[thegoodvybe]

[carolina-thiell]

Today, I lost someone I deeply admired to depression and suicide. Wish there was something I could have done to let him know he was deeply loved. So heartbreaking to know that he was struggling and thought this was the only way out. You inspired me with your beautiful music, with your fight for LGTBQ+ in Korea and your opines about certain topics. Rest in peace, Kim Jong-Hyun. Really hope that, wherever you are, you don’t have to deal with the loneliness and sadness you felt. Love you so much.