A nursing student's thoughts

[khawailam]

Heading towards the end!

I think this semester wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. I was seriously dramatic in how I thought I would do due to listening to the experiences of people who went before me. My experience won’t mirror the experience of someone else but rather it will be unique to me and I think that with keeping this in mind I have allowed myself to feel proud of what I accomplished. It wasn’t exactly what I had hoped for as I’m getting toward the end but I did pretty good I kept up with good study habits and I put in the work while also making small bits of time to take care of myself. Its been a struggle but its a struggle that I’m proud of. Comparing myself to others gets me no where. Comparing myself to where I was to where I am now gives me motivation do better and go further. For the time being I’m going to forget that there is only a 1 week break between semesters. I’m going to make that one heck of a week.

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You’ve come such a long way and you can still go further. You got this! :))

[khawailam]

Survival

Though I don’t think I’m doing bad at all, in fact my grades are good, but when I don’t get the score I want on an exam I start panicking and thinking that I have to set the mindset of just surviving all the way through. Survival becomes my priority.

[khawailam]

Thinking

Right now I’m thinking about all the things I wanted to do this summer but may not be able to. But god willing in the end it’ll be worth it. I sacrifice a summer for a bachelor’s degree.

[khawailam]

Excited!

Even though I don’t know why there is a such thing as Good Friday nor do I celebrate Easter, but I’m glad those things exist because I get a much needed break from those darn clinicals. I’ve got plans to at first do nothing and then... who knows. Maybe I’ll binge watch a series or something. Just kidding, I’ll be spending it studying.

[khawailam]

The only thing

The only thing I can think about is making it towards the end and dodging the nightmare of bad grades. I feel as though my studying isn’t as effective as I’d like it to be but I just got into making my own guides. Its working for peds pretty well. Now I just have to translate that into med surge.

[khawailam]

That really blows.

I really hate how I had to go to clinicals during my “spring break”. What a let down. It really breaks up the sense of being free from school responsibilities and such. I still feel stuck to it even though I’m on “break.” The upside is that I do get to finish my clinicals earlier. Glass half full is how to look at it.

[khawailam]

Spring Break!

Even though I won’t be going anywhere for spring break I’m still glad I get a chance to catch up and study. I realize that all I ever do is study while I’m in school so maybe I’ll try and make time to do something different. I’m horrible at self care while in school and all I can think about is the exams that follow spring break. Makes me nervous. Hopefully though I’ll get some enjoyment out of spring break! :)

[khawailam]

Sleepy

I’m tired and I’ve been studying for hours. Time to take a break. I think I’ll end up with carpel tunnel once this is all over. But the only way that I can remember something is if I write it. And I have to write things more than once but multiple times to get get it down. Maybe I’ll take of those “what kind of learner are you” tests or whatever to see what will work best for me. Maybe I can break myself away from the constant writing.

[khawailam]

I realized that I handle stress pretty well. At first I thought I didn’t but now I realize that I do. Makes me happy. I always imagined myself as one of those people who crumble and fall apart when things get way to stressful and that I wouldn’t know how to deal with it. But you know what I feel as though I am stronger than I gave myself credit for and I should appreciate what I’ve accomplished so far.

[khawailam]

Sitting in class

Waiting for class to start and wishing that I was in the day program instead. I feel like they have it easier in the day program. But not easy in terms of how the content is presented but easier as in how much is thrown at them at one time. They also get breaks. Like actual breaks. Like summer break. We get a week between spring and summer and that's it until like winter break. Just little weeks in between. Maybe I can try to make the best of those little weeks unless there's an exam waiting at the end of them. Like there always is.

[khawailam]

Yea

Too many tests in a row is not healthy. Whoever thought it was a good idea to just pile exams on us like that as if it were finals week needs to readjust this schedule. I mean this is stressful as heck and I feel entirely drained. With Hesi and finals in my future I don’t know how I’m going to deal with the massive amount of stress that I’m going to be feel. Think I’ll binge watch a show to decompress. I guess the takeaway is the fact that I’ve made it and I didn’t do as horribly as I thought I would so I can be proud of that.

[khawailam]

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