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[khushfehmiyan]

hi, on a rainy day when I didn't wanna go outside so I decided to clean up Internet account things - I wanted to see if anyone was still around

im happy to say that alhamdulilah - I am in such a better place. didn't know what a sudden break up could do to bring up a lot of the depression issues I know I previously had but im like....a whole ass functioning human again and not the shell of what I was for a while

not everything is perfect, and im not perfect and I think when I was in my low point - I hurt people - mostly unintentionally but also being in such a bad place, maybe even intentionally

but alhamdulilah, I want to wake up again . Alhamdulilah I see a future, even though it isn’t what I have always wanted or pictured for myself. but I am happy. I can live with life not going to plan, and finding the happiness in the now again

I want to say thank you to all of you. for every kind word any of you have ever sent my way. I can say without a doubt, that I am alive due to the kindness of a lot of you - strangers. I wish I could express my appreciation more.

tumblr is both a reflection of what I consider to be the best part of me - my youth, when I was learning who I was - before adulthood ruined everything (lol) and the worst part of me, during my lowest moment. I will always keep this around

thank you all

[khushfehmiyan]

Salam all

Could you all just please keep me in your duas

I still don’t know when I’ll start feeling like myself again and able to move on

Please pray I find sukoon in my heart, and my heart won’t feel so heavy

[khushfehmiyan]

tbh it’s really hard not to give up

[amxtullahhh]

🍁

It's difficult to control how the heart feels. But it's easy to supplicate to the Controller of the hearts to ease what I feel. Alhamdulillāh.

- unknown

[nonchalante]

Suicide is real with Muslims. You can love God as much as you love to be gone. But listen, this one is for you : you exist and you matter. & maybe you’re trying and the thoughts are so incessant. Maybe you have days where your eemaan is off the roof and other days where you ask God to take your life. But listen, you have a purpose. God created you for a purpose. Live long enough to see it. Live your days one moment at a time. Keep trying. & keep asking God to ease matters. You were created for these times and you were never created in vain. You have a purpose.

[storybookprincess]

suddenly remembered this poem as i was making breakfast this morning & frantically googled “poem remembered to buy eggs?????????” & somehow managed to find it & it utterly knocked the wind out of me just as much as when i first read it

[islamicrays]

-Shaykh Mohammed Aslam

[khushfehmiyan]

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[khushfehmiyan]

sending you healing energy

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[haybaeden]

its overwhelming.

[wellbutrinboy]

mood bort

[khushfehmiyan]

That's a poor decision.

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[khushfehmiyan]

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[vedurnan-archive]

Literally every time I ride a bus I’m shocked by how complicated and beautiful the world is. This almost only ever happens on buses