heartcries

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the Word

a river that never runs dry

a sky that is filled

with overwhelming light

and clouds of comfort

in darkness, an enveloping peace

where the roots of the earth

are endless, boundless

where life never expires

and hope never tires

food that fills your gaps

a drink that quenches your soul

the Word

hard to fathom

hard to grasp

hard to take hold

always there

never changes

always true

never deceives

i dive deep

into You

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measure

if God would give me the same space I have for him in my mind, how vast would that space be?

if God would think of me the same amount of time i think of him, how much time would it be?

if God would look at me the same way i look at him, how beautiful would i be?

if God would pay attention to me the same way i pay attention to him, how often would that be?

if God would let me in on his secrets the same depth i let him in on mine, how deep would it be?

and

if God would love me the same way i love him, how true would that love be?

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you are here, this is my favorite place

i have always longed for a place where eternity exists and time is not bound by the rising nor the setting of not even a thousand suns; . my feet have always searched for an expanse where gravity is no force where they can walk on water and dance with the wind, where they can wander and never be lost; . my eyes have always known a face that i have never seen as if beauty is so much more than what surrounds me, it's beyond me; . my heart has always belonged to a place to a space to a face to a heart that i now know are yours; . i have always searched, now y o u a r e h e r e t h i s i s m y f a v o r i t e p l a c e .

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love always

love always hopes and i hope that when the butterflies have gone and the stars have lost their glimmer, when my youth has faded and my eyes have become jaded, you would still hope for me to come home to you . love always protects so i protect keep sacred the heart of my lover that you, always, before me. always. . love always trusts and i trust not my senses that not nearness or pleasantries not warmth or melodies will ever tell why you hold the most special place in my heart. . love always perseveres and i will never stop even if you lose your hope in us and your arms no longer wait for me to come home, even if it's always you before me first and your senses have gotten a hold of your trust, i will never leave. i will always stay. . love always, it's always you.

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before i go

this is me before i go

remember my eyes when your heart longs for me,

remember them as the only place where i held you;

when the brightest colors tried to burn me but

my eyes were always brighter.

remember my searching eyes when they longed for you,

when they smiled as we said goodbye.

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before my roots lift from your ground,

remember my songs;

my lyrics composed not of words but of gentle touches.

remember when my embrace uttered a melody to

soothe your fearful soul.

when the rhythm of my heart gave you peace

through my palms where your face laid rest

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before i go,

i’ll remember you -

that my roots were never beneath your soil

for you were never the earth,

you are the constellations that surrounded

my world.

.

i’ll remember you.

that the reason i am going

is only because you let me go.

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from where i stand

they didn’t know,

they were in each other’s eyes

that her face bloomed so radiant

as she lost herself in his words

immersed in each other’s worlds

.

they didn’t know,

their bodies conversed

so purely and innocently

like there’s a force pulling them close

like they are dancing to a song

.

they didn’t know,

their hearts were longing

that his eyes illuminated with warmth

as he was pulled in deeper

and, closer to every possibility

.

but deep down

they knew.

they were just

afraid.

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if my eyes could paint then you would see how beautiful you are to me

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it's finally over

and no matter how much it hurt i will always choose to remember only the b e s t parts of you . and if i ever find myself in the past i will always visit the moments i only wished to b u t did not last

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extravagant worship

it's surrender a daily laying down of the self of the struggles, of the trials of every pain ever felt it's surrendering in faith not in fear it's believing apart from Him you are nothing there is no good thing acknowledging He is everything it's obedience a willing abidance in times of need, of hurt, of doubt in every season of your life it's following without questions trusting beyond emotions it's knowing he holds all things, perfects all things all on his own time it's sacrifice a sincere offering of your favorite things of overdue strings and flings of your treasures it's giving beyond limits an immeasurable overflow a result of surrender a reason for obedience it's expecting he will meet your needs He will heal you when you bleed He will hear you when you plead extravagant worship is more than hands raised up in the air more than eyes closed without a care more than spoken and unspoken words extravagant worship is a daily laying down of the self a willing abidance in times of need of hurt, of doubt a sincere offering of your favorite things.

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i'll just write about the snow

I can write about the beauty of fall and the intensity of snow based only on how I imagine them to be. I've never seen oranges and reds fashionably spread out on the ground nor have I felt soft white ice touch my skin and give me chills. That's how I write about you, about us. Based only on how I would like us to be. That you'd wrap your arms around me and dance to the song you wrote for me. I've never heard you breathe those three little big words people say to people they can't live without nor have I been moved by your zeal as you love me gently, slowly yet fiercely. But I would like to know. I know we'll conquer it all. But until then, I'll just write about the snow. And the beauty of fall.

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Distance

the farther, the harder. but i'm not talking about physical distance. i'm talking about the incalculable space between us even when we are just an inch apart.

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silent love

though i do not hear, i will not fear for love does not need to always have words;

love always burns but it’s not always warm.

i have learned that love doesn’t always have to be loud nevertheless love is always extravagant.

love is wild but it also rests which only makes me long for more of love.

if i don’t already have all of love, it makes me want to feel a different color of fire, a different melody of silence and see a different way of how l-o-v-e is spelled.

i don’t always hear love or feel love or see love but love always hears me and sees me and love always loves me.

so love, even if it’s silent, sings over me.

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should i

should i wish on stardust or wait for 11:11, maybe throw a penny in a fountain? or should i just fall on my knees ask so i'll receive and pray until i see that You, You never left me

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i danced with worldly fire and sang for the heart of another i played with the rivers filled with diamond coated poison i ran after death tasted sin after sin after sin . yet i come into Your presence bare and naked and Your love burns me defeats the fire i have created Your grace drowns me overcomes the flow of poison-filled waters You run after me saving me from sin after sin after sin

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24.

it feels so good to know that someone as lovely as you loved someone as lonely as me but was it also good to know that a love too good to be true was just all of your pretending?

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let me drown myself in sad songs and memories of what used to be because no, i don't want you back i just have my period

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"Then why are you head over heels with soaring tumbling free wheeling in love with him?" "Because he knows me. And I don't want anybody else to know me like he does."