A Random Dreamer's Babbles

Welcome to my page where I just go on a tangent about…pretty much anything that catches my eye | 20 years old

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So far my experience of having watched “Half Man” has been like doing the walking on legos barefooted challenge but instead of legos it is glass shards, freshly lit cigarettes, mousetraps and sharp rusty nails.

In other words, I love it and I cannot wait to see what more it has to offer so that I can further stress myself the fuck out and scream into a pillow

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I was gonna say something else here but then I forgot so instead this is just a post of me collecting up all my fav shots of IT!Pennywise in the seventh episode in preparation for the final episode coming out soon ok bye

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Me realizing that there’s only one episode of WtD left, and then I have to return to my boring, clownless life

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Episode 7 of It: Welcome To Derry was absolute PEAK! But man was it a very fucking hard watch in terms of the horror and emotional aspects.

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Okay so I am definitely not okay with Rich dying, even though I had a very good idea that it was coming based off of what some people were saying alongside what some of the promos and stuff were implying. I’m gonna miss him so much 😭😭 again I had a feeling it was coming…but damn did it still hurt.

Also I just really love how they utilised doing a continuous-shot/long-take when shit began to hit the fan over at The Black Spot, but I can’t lie I do feel really horrible saying that considering how fucking terrifying and disturbing the scene was.

I also can’t fucking forget to mention the whole Bob Gray flashbacks, which were really sweet, but also kind of heartbreaking when taking into account what IT did to him. Like imagine your whole-ass father’s likeness getting stolen by a literal malevolent cosmic entity? I can somewhat see why Ingrid was the way that she was (even though I absolutely do not fuck with her for basically snitching to the fucking racists about Hank hiding in The Black Spot. Like girl, fuck you. I’m glad you got deadlighted).

I do wanna mention though how funny it is that it has taken me so long for me to actually start feeling literal dread with seeing IT(as Pennywise). Like in both the 2017 and 2019 movies, whilst I still obviously was spooked by IT (don’t get me wrong), I was mainly just gassed to see the motherfucker. For some reason, it seems like this prequel series is the time where my brain finally comes to its senses to actually realise just how horrifying IT is. Like wooooowww how surprising is it that a malevolent interdimensional cosmic entity is doing malevolent interdimensional cosmic entity things????? My brain is so slow I stfg.

Also that ending??? Like dang I did not anticipate seeing IT!Pennywise jumping up on poor Will like that! I know my guy Will eventually survives since he obviously grows up to become Mike Hanlon’s dad (though dies just before the events of It: Chapter One, sadly), but I seriously did not anticipate seeing him getting deadlighted.

Overall, I really loved this episode, and I absolutely cannot wait for the season finale. But I am definitely terrified for everyone now 😭😭😭 I just know shit is not gonna end entirely well for them.

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Yeah okay for some reason I did not expect Episode 6 of It: Welcome To Derry to start making me feel somewhat sad for a good amount of time hours after watching it.

Though perhaps I should have anticipated that because knowing that this is, again, a prequel series to the 2017 and 2019 films…it’s kind of evident that whatever is due to come next with the last two episodes will certainly not end well for a good chunk of the lead characters. Like seriously, you’d think I’d follow the general rule of thumb of “don’t get too attached to the main characters this time around”, and yet I have deeply failed 😭😭😭

…wow I’m going to absolutely suffer with the last two, aren’t I?

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Freaky-ass bitches out here with fictional characters like “no I can fix them 🥰🥰🥰” and then this is the kind of character in question:

(it’s me. I’m freaky ass bitches)

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Sometimes I hate my crush and hyperfixation on Pennywise because what do you mean I can look at this motherfucker causing literal mayhem and bloodshed and then think “Damn…this bitch is hot”???????????

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I forgot where I got this video from since I downloaded it a long time ago (or who made the video - if you know who it is from please lmk so that I can edit in a credit!)

But the guy making the alarm noises here is me from now on with the second half of It: Welcome To Derry now that Pennywise is set to appear more often moving forward:

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I am completely aware that because this is a prequel series, the trajectory of a handful of the main characters’ fates (apart from Dick Hallorann and maybe some others) are definitely not looking good

But my god that midseason trailer + the additional trailer for it that the It official account posted on their instagram and TikTok has me even more scared for everyone (especially the kids) way more than ever.

This show has shown to us numerous of times how merciless it can be, and it is clear that this second half will likely be far more merciless with the brutality and horror that lies ahead.

It has really put into further light just how insanely lucky the Losers Club were, which is a bold statement to make considering even they went through a fuckton of shit.

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what would happen if I booped Pennywise on the nose? (wrong answers only)

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Man does it feel good to have my old hyperfixation on the modern It franchise (2017+2019 films & now the new prequel series) resurrect at this time because my god was the first episode of It: Welcome To Derry so goated.

And trust me, I am having a delightful time with Pennywise now living back in my head rent free

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I feel like somewhat elaborating more on what I posted on the 25th of July regarding a dynamic between two characters in season two of The Sandman that has just been…plaguing my mind. I don’t even know if what I’m about to express further below will even make much sense, considering how my feelings are all over the place, but I’ll try my best 😭 (spoilers for Season 2 down below):

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I have not been this goddamn confused, fragmented and bugged out of my head about an on-screen relationship in any fictional media as I have been until seeing The Corinthian and Johanna Constantine now being in a romance of sorts. It has gotten to a point in which if I continue to ruminate on it, my mind will eventually split off like that one scene with the multiple Destinies in Destiny’s garden and go crazy (I’m literally writing this whilst listening to some brown noise on near full-volume in hopes that my mind will stay sane enough to get through to this post).

Now do not get me wrong (apart from the eventual romance), I liked seeing both The Corinthian (2nd version) and Johanna Constantine on screen for the most part. I think much of their scenes held my interest and engagement long enough for me to enjoy seeing how they interacted with each other; plus, in another (more simpler) reason, I love Johanna, and I love The Corinthian. It was a welcome treat.

…But then when the show began to start brewing some kind of romance between the two, that’s when my mind started drifting off into a very contorted position - and it didn’t help when it eventually led to the two kissing.

I don’t even know if what I’m going to write from this point forward will even fully cover my all-over-the-place feelings, or if it will completely cover all the other things people have expressed, or if I’ll even properly describe things in a way that are accurate - again, it’s something my mind isn’t having a very easy time with. But I want to start off with the issues that others have already noted down.

Though this is something that has already been mentioned before, I think there is something rather peculiar (in a not so good way) with how the idea that The Second Corinthian (who is meant to be better than the First Corinthian) is into women now comes across in this situation - it leaves a weird, thorny (and at worst, problematic) implication (whether intentional or unintentional) that The First Corinthian being attracted to men was also a “flaw”, alongside his disobedience and malevolence. And with Johanna, it also leaves a rather strange implication as well - considering that it was mentioned in the 11th episode that her past relationships with women are suggested to have been disastrous (though not dismissing how she also stated the same thing for her past relationships with men just beforehand), it feels even more off that both The Corinthian and Johanna being in a m/w relationship appears to be something that ‘betters’ the two together - that their past experiences of being in same-sex relationships were messy, disordered and hectic.

Again, my description on those parts may have been horrendously worded, so please do forgive me if that is the case (and don’t hesitate to correct me on details I missed out or misunderstood).

As for my general personal feelings…I can’t really fully describe what I was mentally going through when I saw that a romance was brewing between them both, other than the fact that I was feeling confused.

I can somewhat see what they are trying to angle at with pairing the two together in the romance, and I will call myself out and be candid when I say that there are some parts of me that admittedly do go “…hear me out-“ when it comes to the Corinstantine (is that the ship name?) romance. However, as I already described with the thorny and problematic aspects in the paragraph above, it also puts me in a very confusing and contorted position. Because although I don’t completely agree with the notion that it makes both characters “straight”, I still do feel that the way the show goes about it does diminish their queerness. And thus, my mind ends up fragmenting all over the place.

It’s interesting (neutral) for sure, and certainly a…choice? But I just absolutely do not know how to feel about it, and as of right now it’s not something I find easy to dwell on without my brain shooting off into multiple different directions without clear destinations.

Again, I hold no judgement against how people feel about their romance - if you love it and ship them, I won’t judge. If you absolutely hate the show’s decision to ship them, I won’t judge either (and I also get it). If you’re also confused (like myself), I won’t judge.

Perhaps maybe when I have a more clearer line of thought on how I feel, I’ll maybe do a follow up post.

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I’m sorry but am I wrong for feeling weirded out by how much insane vitriol people are giving towards Lyta Hall??? (major spoilers in tags)

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Popping my head up to post on The Sandman tumblr again (despite my initial caution prior to the release) after some time of taking a long time from posting about it because Season 2 is now out and I just have to say (spoilers down below)…

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I seriously did not anticipate seeing The Corinthian and Johanna Constantine in some kind of a romance together like what the fuck my brain’s all glitching up in confusion on how to feel about this

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Every once in a while, there’s a film I’ll watch that as soon as I walk out the door of my local cinema (or turn off the TV, if at home), it sits in a rather gray area of my mind - I may have enjoyed it, but it’s something that I feel needs to sit in my mind much longer as I’m not 100% sure on what to feel.

And then as time goes on, it feels as if the film blossoms more in my mind the more I ruminate on it (and my experience with it). As if it just gets even better the more I think about it, and the more I search up about it online to see what others had to say.

That was my experience with 28 Years Later. Everytime I just think about it, or look it up, I just end up falling in love with it even more.

I always have a fond appreciation for films that grow on me.

(edit: I do not know why Tumblr automatically labelled this as mature content LMFAO anyways I got that out the way now)

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what would happen if i booped remmick on the nose (wrong answers only)