I DESERVE PAIN

**TRIGGER WARNING** I'm done

[kill-or-kill]

Guilt

Everytime I look at her I feel pain. I want to apologize. Im the reasin she is so fucked up. I was in love with her andd my sadness brought her down. We were so good together and we loved eachother but my illness made her hate herself.

Everytime she pops up on my feed I want to be able to transfer her any type of happiness I have to her to try and make up for my wrongs.

The last time I saw her she said she didn't forgive and I was the reason she was in therapy.

I don't want to ever love anyone again because I don't want to see them hurt; like she was.

I'm sorry LD, I'm endlessly sorry.

-RC

[kill-or-kill]

"Fuck I'm sad again and I do not know why"

-RC

[wnq-writers]

“You always wanted me to be like you, whereas I — I only ever wanted to be myself.”

— Rumana

[books-n-quotes]

“There are few people whom I really love and still fewer of whom I think well.”

— Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice

[books-n-quotes]

“…Maybe everybody in the whole damn world is scared of each other.”

— John Steinbeck, Of Mice and Men

[poems-and-word]

[wordsnquotes]

“If you expect nothing from anybody, you’re never disappointed.”

— Sylvia Plath

[poems-and-word]

[wordsnquotes]

“If a man cannot understand the beauty of life, it is probably because life never understood the beauty in him.”

— Criss Jami, Killosophy

[wordsnquotes]

“And it has been one hell of a year. I have worn the seasons under my sleeves, on my thighs, running down my cheeks. This is what surviving looks like, my dear.”

— Michelle K., It Has Been One Hell of a Year. 

[iamnotperfectiamsorry]

[approvers]

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