a not so abbreviated list of all the dp&w things i can't stop thinking about
remember how in dp2 wade kept hearing "your heart isn't in the right place" over and over? they could've done more to emphasize "you don't fucking matter"
the biggest thing that plays on repeat in my mind is logan saying "you will never save the world. you couldn't even save a relationship with a goddamn stripper" and every part of me wants to scream for wade "i'm not trying to save my relationship with her. i'm trying to save her."
wade going nonverbal after being yelled at by logan
the intricacies of tj miller's weasel not being a part of dp&w and how that influenced wade's disappearance from the mercenary world/sister margaret's but it works so well because wade had to choose to leave the mercenary world to keep vanessa safe (this time around).
the barely mentioned worsening of wade's insanity ("where did you go?" "i'm right here!" followed by him disassociating and saying "fuck" over and over) because wade is struggling with the memories of the timeline in which vanessa died, the timeline in which he died, and the new timeline he created. his mind simply could not keep track of what was memory and what was reality and he didn't even give vanessa the opportunity to help him sort through it because he physically could not make himself describe to vanessa the full timeline after she died.
wade pushing vanessa away and forcing her to tell him to leave because he couldn't just leave her now like he had left her in the first movie, so he manipulates her until she tells him to leave. (it's what's best for them both unfortunately)
wade at no point in dp&w is trying to get back with vanessa. he just wants her safe and alive, even if that means she begins to love someone else.
wade "chosing the worst logan" because that logan was the only one that didn't physically attack him and he's "in a time crunch" but actually the sight of logan depressed at the bar subconsciously reminded wade of the timeline where vanessa died and that's exactly how he coped with her loss.
remember in dp2 where every time he died, he briefly entered heaven with vanessa before his regeneration kicked in and he was physically pulled back to the world of the living? in the sacrifice scene, wade sees flashes of memories of his birthday party but then sees an empty apartment because holding onto the matter was killing him, and in that heaven, none of his friends or vanessa were waiting for him in heaven.
the concept that originated in logan, stolen in dp2, and reinforced in dp&w is that if you die because you no longer want to live, your death is meaningless. if you use your death to save someone else, it truly means something. logan dying for laura mattered because he was saving her. wade's deaths after losing vanessa didn't matter, but chosing to die for russell even though wade reinforced his friendships with the people that could give him a happy life mattered. wade and logan chosing to die for the universe mattered because they too found and reinforced connections with people that could've (and will, thankfully) give them a happy life.
loml by taylor swift is about wade and vanessa's relationship and no one can convince me otherwise. "who's going to tell me the truth when you swept in with the winds of fate and told me i reformed you?" if the avengers accepted wade, he would've been "reformed" enough to accept a relationship with her again. "if you know it in one glimpse it's legendary" that's their fucking meet cute baby. "still alive killing time at the cemetary" he was supposed to die. she was supposed to die. their relationship was fated to die. he nearly died for her again. "talking rings and talking cradles. i wish that i could unrecall how we almost had it all" they were ENGAGED and TRYING FOR A BABY. "combing through the braids of lies 'i'll never leave' 'nevermind'" HE LEFT AGAIN. "our field of dreams engulfed in fire, your arson's match your somber eyes" that's so fucking painful as a parallel to celine dion's ashes for dp2
wade's tumultuous relationship with his own appearance and how he slowly was forced to be comfortable in his own skin in public and he was able to do that - with his trusty hair system - because he was no longer a mercenary that killed for money, and the hair system made him feel human enough to rejoin society. he's so much more comfortable in his own skin in dp&w taking his mask off ALL THE TIME.
how fucking awkward wade is though in his hair system as wade because he's lost confidence in himself when he can't hide inside deadpool's masks for false (yet very convincing) bravado.
how full fucking circle it is that wade hid his scarred face behind hugh jackman in dp1 then became comfortable enough around logan to unmask himself that many times.
the parallels between wade's desperate search for ajax and a cure for his appearance to finally rejoin vanessa and how wade fooled logan the exact same way ajax fooled him by offering logan a quick-fix to have the tva save his timeline and ultimately, they both end up realizing that they can never go back to that old normal, but maybe that's okay now.
i want an emotional tiktok edit to "matilda" by harry styles with the lyrics "you can let it go. you can throw a party full of everyone you know and not invite your family cause they never showed you love" but it's scenes of wade's birthday party and weasel's face pops up everytime they mention family that never showed you love
i also want an emotional tiktok edit to "cornelia street" by taylor swift with the lyrics "i hope I never lose you, hope it never ends, i'd never walk cornelia street again" but it's wade never returning to sister margaret's after breaking things off with vanessa because he can't return to being a mercenary after nearly getting her killed and he also can't return to a place that has become permanently intertwined with her memory and their relationship.
the amount of mental gymnastics ryan reynolds is forcing me to do to somehow make a timeline of the new timeline in which vanessa lives, but wade meets peter and shatterstar (who only met wade because of the formation of the x-force to save russell) and wade going insane with the confusion of the timelines is such a beautiful explanation for that whole fucking confusing mess because wade would still want russell to be saved, but does he have to force colossus to invite him to the x-men after his breakup with vanessa knowing that he's going to betray colossus' trust by murdering the child abusers and get sent to the ice box just to meet cable and wade ultimately repays cable for rewinding time to save wade's life by giving the fixed time slide device back to cable after saving vanessa and peter and shatterstar? who fucking knows.
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