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@kincadedonnelly
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behrooz-najm:
Bez grinned, a slightly awkward smile as they tried to remember what Turkish tea actually contained. They had taken it for granted, that much was for sure. Was it cinnamon? Mint? Not it wasn’t that, they had enjoyed several different kinds. They took a breath as they wrecked their brain over it, then turned to Kincade again. “I think it’s because of how it is made, I don’t remember how, but I bet someone explained it to me once.” They looked at Kincade apologetically. “I’ll ask my aunt when I go to visit, I bet she knows.”
“Would not mind that,” Bez said, nudging Kincade lightly. The interaction between the two of them wasn’t solely about the research after all. It was the type of work where interactions between people was of equal importance.
Bez laughed. “Yeah, maybe,” they said, finding Kincade’s happiness completely endearing, and totally relatable. “I can’t even make it up some stairs without feeling my heart beating. Though that might be my daily coffee intake. Yeah, think you can run a marathon?”
“You have an aunt? What’s she like? Where does she live? You’re going to go back to visit her? When?” The questions rolled off their tongue smooth and casual despite their back-to-back speed. They weren’t even trying to be so nosy, it just came easily in this particular moment, totally at odds with their usual hesitant, withdrawn nature. It wasn’t childlike in nature so much as it was a rare glimpse of a sun constantly behind clouds, though Kincade did usually prefer their calmer demeanor.
They hopped up another step or two, then back down, then back up again as they ever-so-gently delayed actually going in to the library. “Do I think I could run a marathon? Right now, of course! I feel great! But I guess- I guess on a different day, I would think different. Like, on a day when I had a hard time getting out of bed, you know? Then I would feel like I couldn’t. So many the healthy thing to do is- is learn to convince yourself to believe that you can more often than you can’t. You know? I mean, maybe you could run a marathon on all that coffee! Who knows? Shall we?” Kincade had finally made it to the door, hand on the handle.
“Huh. Is it called a handle because you use your hand to open it? Same root word maybe? I bet it has to do with Latin or something. It’s always fucking Latin.”
orionxcastillo:
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“So you’re telling me I can get a raise?” Orion’s response comes along with a chuckle, not really asking for one but taking the opportunity when it shows itself. But Kincade has a point - money must be flowing if you’re not having to invest too much money into a store. “You should have called this place ‘Trash or Treasure?’ You keep finding everything people throw out and suddenly everyone wants to buy it. Forget counsel clean ups - they’ve got you doing it for free.”
“An old fancy clock piece people collect,” he simplifies it for his boss. “Dibs not fixing it.” Orion hated clock work. It was a fiddly job with gears that needed to all sit in the right place and if you left one little screw out the whole thing could burst from the gears locking up. His patience only ran so far for that type of work.
“My Abuela had one when I was a kid. She had two fish on the sides. I remember I chipped off the top fin of one when I kicked a soccer ball through their house. I think I was about ten. Little trouble maker.” It was rare for Orion to talk of his life before moving to Pleasance, but sometimes like now he would be gifted with a memory less painful than those that still haunted him. “They have a little plate on them with the designer,” he shows the metal plate with 'jemma ware made in holland’ written on it. “Plus, I know a lot of things you don’t. It’s why you keep me around. That and my good looks” he jokes.
“Sure, I guess,” Kincade offered, thinking mentally about the possibility of a raise. It seemed doable, they had pretty good overhead and it’s not like Kincade needed to take home stacks of cash at the end of the day. “Yeah,” they confirmed, “I can make a raise work. We can talk about it later, though, I wanna finish getting this stuff put away by the end of the day.”
As Orion talked, Kincade started digging around for a small toolkit, or even some spare screwdrivers, curious to crack into the clock and see if it was working at all. “I think I just get lucky,” they said, voice a little louder to account for being halfway into a cupboard. “People don’t tend to see the value in things, especially expensive items, if they’re broken or worn down. At least, not until you put it in a store with a price tag. I think someone else valuing something makes people suddenly see its worth. Especially- especially if you- aha!”
Kincade emerged victorious with a small toolkit and a velvet cloth to lay out on the counter. They looked up at the mention of the soccer ball, smiling happily at the memory. “You’re still a little trouble maker. I don’t remember ever making that kind of trouble in my home. School, though... but there’s nothing valuable there. Are you gonna at least help me get this thing open so I can look at the clockwork? I gotta have more reasons than looks to keep you around, don’t I?”
orionxcastillo:
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“Just because they are free doesn’t mean you need to pick them up” he finds himself reciting, it was becoming a catch phrase for him around here. The words vary each time but the meaning stays the same. Honestly, at this point in time, he was positive Kincade was a hoarder of some kind. The only perk was the man understood the items would be sold, though it took a moment to do just that.
“Since when did we own a Jema Ware clock?” Orion surfaces with the item in hand, the clock sits in his palm with a pair of Siamese cats on either side of the clock face which was decorated to look like a ball of wall. The whole thing was porcelain, fragile and beautiful painted. “If it’s working this is worth least $100.” It looked like any little figure on the shelf, easy to mistaken for the cheaper items unless you were a collector with a trained eye. “These little guys have lasted least 60, maybe 70 years. Not a chip out of them.” He holds it up to show Kincade as he stopped before him.
“I think you forget my whole business model!” Kincade laughs, going for another box of books. “My overhead is incredible. At least I think that’s what it is? I don’t know, you make more money when you don’t pay for what you sell. I don’t think I’ve paid a dime for a single thing in here, except maybe the materials for the shelves. Can’t be that bad, can it?”
They start riffling through the pile of books, mouth taking a quizzical pinch at one side as they realize they don’t recognize most of the titles and so don’t know their value. The question gives them pause. A what?
“A what?” Kincade pops up as Orion rounds the corner with a very delicate-looking little porcelain piece in hand. It looks familiar, but Kincade is sure it’s not anything they’ve bothered to google yet. “Oh, so you know what that is? I hadn’t come around to it yet. Even if it’s not working, I’m sure we could get it running again. Even if not, it still looks in good condition. That must mean something! I wonder when I picked that up...” They lean closer, taking in the careful painting and perfectly level glaze giving everything a high gloss. It certainly looks like it’s worth... something. Though it might be a better online sell, much like most of the books and records.
“How’d you know what this is, anyhow?”
rhyslovespopcorn:
Kincade didn’t respond to Rhys’ explanation, which made him a little nervous, but they probably understood, right?
Right?
They didn’t want to ask, they felt like asking was rude.
So they didn’t ask.
But hoped that maybe if it came up again that Kincade would seem like they did understand.
Or maybe it would never come up again and that was very very well with him.
At the answer to the question Rhys raised an eyebrow. But then again… they had wanted to leave Pleasance to become an astronaut, but also had never really thought about the consequences of leaving Pleasance. It was easier to imagine becoming something than letting go of his family.
He scratched his head. “Oh, I’m sorry about your parents,” Rhys said, the one thing he had picked up on. He had no idea what had happened, but it already sounded sad.
“That’s okay though… I also… I’ve always wanted to be something huge, maybe too huge, but I never left Pleasance either. I like Pleasance, nothing wrong with Pleasance…. And… uhm, if you want, we can hang out more often?”
He didn’t think that was anywhere near having parents, but he hoped it was a good move.
Rhys watched them get some juice and took a swing from his milk.
“Hmmm, I like stop motion movies… and nature documentaries,” he said.
He actually liked every movie, and everything. His movies probably would make little sense.
“Oh, or a friendship family movie, about people who are friendly to each other. Like that… uhm, that movie with the three dogs that are running back home… I don’t remember what it’s called.”
The sentiment is always expressed with sincerity, and it is always shallow coming from someone who didn’t know their parents or know what it was like to lose parents just the way Kincade had. It always meant they struggled to understand what to do with well-meaning comments like that. They knew you couldn’t just let it hang there in the air, but ultimately the sentiment was shallow, and any response from Kincade was going to be just as shallow. Still, they rolled through the formalities of it, smiling sadly and nodding, uttering a soft “thanks, it’s easier now” even though Kincade wasn’t entirely sure that was true.
“I mean, you’re right. Nothing wrong with Pleasance! It just never occurred to me that there was a wider world out there that wasn’t exactly like this one. I don’t think it even occurred to me to want more. But it all feels kind of small now, even though I still don’t really think I want to leave. Not permanently, anyway.”
There was something else Kincade was going to say, but they paused for a moment. Hang out more often? Yeah, that... that might be nice. Kincade could stand to have friends. Or at least, acquaintances.
“Yeah, that... yeah. We could hang out more. I have a pretty flexible schedule and I don’t do much once I leave the store. Maybe coffee or something sometime? Something... less impromptu?” They snickered softly.
Kincade tried to think of any stop-motion movies they knew. “Like Wallace and Grommit? That’s stop-motion, right? I always thought those looked so cool, but doesn’t that require a ton of patience? Although I guess if you love it, it’s worth it, right?”
“Don’t you think we should sell more things before you start piling more in?” Orion picked up one of the latest items to appear in the store, turning it over to see what state it’s in. “One day I’m going to come to work and not fit through the door,” he jokes. It wasn’t that bad inside, but it always wasn’t the easiest store to navigate when new customers came in. “Where did you find this lot?” he speaks from his spot by the shelf, not sure where his boss was but knowing his voice would carry to them. “
@kincadedonnelly
As usual, the comment caused Kincade to pause and take stock of the layout of the store, the density of items for sale. It just didn’t seem that bad to them. Everything had its place, it made sense together, and it was all worth selling. Sure, perhaps the walkways had slowly narrowed somewhat over time, but it couldn’t be that bad, could it?
They set another box of books and knick-knacks down next to a shelf, Orion’s voice appearing seemingly out of nowhere once more. Kincade shrugged before remembering that visual cues most likely couldn’t be seen. “These were on the way out of town, just on the edge of the ranch. Had a free sign on em, figured I’d pick em up and see what they were worth. Finding anything good over there?”
behrooz-najm:
“Oh, it is,” Bez informed Kincade with a grin. “Though… Turkish tea, mostly. Have you ever had Turkish tea? Because it is delicious, really sweet, really really sweet. My grandmother used to make it a lot, or we got it at the Mosque.” Bez did miss home when they were talking about it. They missed the community they had there, the one that took place away from school and the neighbourhood. The community and interactions that their grandmother took them to, that the family was a part of. They hoped to find a gap on the weekend to drive to Cincinnati.
“Maybe a little. I mean… if it’s really strong tea, you will taste the tea through,” Bez told them, nodding, longingly.
“Uhm, recent, but also up to two years ago, that’s what I understood from the person who is looking for him. I wish I could’ve gotten more information out of him, but that’s about it. He’s not from around Pleasance, so maybe we won’t find anything, but any Miguel we spot, I’m taking home.”
Bez just wanted to prove to Reza that they were a good cop. That they were going to help.
Kincade, practically bouncing around, suddenly turned to them. They couldn’t help the smile that they gave in return. The fact that Kincade was so happy about this, made Bez even more happy as well. “I don’t think I can run a marathon even on my good days,” they said. “But yes, I definitely feel like that too.” And they knew they could explain it as well, the feeling of belonging, of having someone who was like them to talk with. To feel heard, to feel seen.
Kinkcade shook their head quickly, trying to guess what Turkish tea might be like before it gets explained. “What’s Turkish tea made from? I know tea comes from tea leaves and there’s all different kinds. What makes it so sweet? Is there a special way it’s brewed or prepared or something?” Kincade was really overflowing with questions at this point, but sometimes that was just the case. In this case, the newly-found energy had Kincade’s mind working overtime, so it was inevitable that every new thing involved a slew of related questions.
Blowing right past the questions they just asked, Kincade carried on. “So any Miguel in the last two years. You know, it’s easier now because many more of the records are digital, but not all of them! Some of the odds and ends might take a while to sort through. It’s even plausible we’d have to come back again to cover all our bases.”
As they approached the library, Kincade slowed their stride but still jumped up a couple steps, turning on their heel to face Bez. “I bet you could run a marathon. I mean, I don’t know, but people are always capable of things they never new about themselves, right? Everyone is full of secrets, secrets even to themselves.”
keyders:
He feels like a child lying in Kincade’s cradle; too easily, almost an embarrassing amount, he submits himself to the fingers carding through his hair and the remnants of warmth and the traces of cologne on the jacket - if he had a reason to come home all those years ago, this moment would have been it.
Above him, the sky is intimidatingly gray. It could rain at any given second; it looks like it already has. But nothing’s stopping the clouds from wringing themselves into a downpour, soaking Kincade and Dakota and him.
He wishes it would, so he’s not the only one who feels vulnerable.
There’s nothing remotely funny, but he laughs, anyway. A bizarre, misplaced sound that elicits a small whine from Dakota who lays her head on his arm, as she was trained to do. She blinks at him with dark, soulful eyes strangely filled with concern. When he looks up, Kincade is wearing an identical expression.
He laughs again.
“I had a boo-boo in Seattle.” Each word is uttered crisply with an exaggerated bounce as though he were a host on a children’s program. He amuses himself and so he repeats the statement, quieter this time. “I had a boo-boo in Seattle.”
It’s not so funny anymore.
He closes his eyes and takes in a sharp inhale through his nose.
“You remember when Kyle Gringham threw that baseball into that window in the shed on Death Ranch?”
A boo-boo in Seattle? It doesn’t make any kind of sense to Kincade, though perhaps that’s because of the lingering panic. Even if Tan is laying down, head supported, looking a little less out of it than before, there’s certainly nothing that says he’s fully alright either. So Kincade is still worried, chest still tight with nervousness. What if this is their fault? That feels stupid, self-centered even, but an old, familiar anxiety creeps in like an old friend with a key to the backdoor that you’d forgot you’d given them. The self-doubt settles in easily.
“Kyle?” It actually takes Kincade a moment to remember. It feels so long ago now, and they’d barely ever been to that stupid ranch. Not because they believed the stories, but because it just didn’t feel right to trespass on that land. “Kyle Gringham... didn’t he end up getting a concussion from the bounce-back? We never thought the windows were that strong and it flew right back and knocked him out cold. Scared the shit out of us all.”
In any other moment, the memory might have been fond, but there’s just no breaking through what the atmosphere of this moment is becoming. They wish the ground would simply swallow them whole, like so many of the graves here, and leave behind only memories and broken hearts.
For some reason, Kincade’s hand has yet to return to their side. Quite suddenly, they notice it still there, cradling Tan’s head, warm against the other’s skin. A familiar warmth, one that they miss, not that this is the time for that. Not that there will ever be a time for that again.
“You... Montana.” Kincade says, trying to be serious and concerned at the same time. “What happened in Seattle? What’s going on?”
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KJ offered a gruff nod, making a low noise of affirmation in his throat. “Or every single thing’s so specialized you gotta use specialized parts to fix it.” He sighed. “But money’s fake. We made it up.” In truth, however, the Wake family had run an array of businesses on Northwood Lake throughout Pleasance’s long history. Whether or not money was ‘real’ or not, they, like most people, had still tried to get their little cut of it. Still, KJ liked to pretend he was above it all, and perhaps his heart was in the right place. In truth, he would not mind if small town life could really be so simple as neighbors and friends and favors.
“If you say so,” he replied shortly, raising his brow. Maybe other people were not like him, he thought. KJ, of course, kept things, he collected memories, scraps of paper, and trinkets in boxes, not to display them for others, but to always know where they were. It had begun with the death of his grandmother, and then of his grandfather. He hung onto their articles too closely, the gramophone itself proving the point. “I just…I don’t know. People form attachments to funny things. That’s all.” He shrugged, not unaware of his own hypocrisy.
As Kincade continued, though, their words seemed to catch KJ’s ear. He pursed up his lips. “You know, you’re actually not the first person to tell me something like that. Things just turnin’ up. I think it’s one of those Pleasance quirks. Well, maybe.” He furrowed up his brow, giving something of a nod. But in that moment, something else seemed to strike him. “Uh…as a matter of fact, I sorta just found one of my grandad’s old journals out of nowhere little while ago.” This was a lie, but he had been leaning on the falsehood to probe others for information on R.M.R. “You…uh, you get a lotta old books and stuff ‘round here, right? You ever seen one with a white cover and a black dot?”
KJ allowed the question to trail off. “Again. Not so sure it was luck. This place, it, well, it likes to dangle carrots. Do you know what I mean?” He took a long breath, the words almost earnest, even for how often he spun stories for the sole sake of being dramatic or troublesome. “Maybe you were meant to find it. That’s all. If you believe in that sort of thing.” He nodded his head and watched Kincade go before continuing to fiddle with the items atop the desk.
Things happened for a reason in Pleasance. They always did.
He looked up. “Uh, sure. Yeah. Let’s do it,” KJ replied at last, taking a few more moments of fiddling before accepting the record and going about getting it to play. He gingerly arranged the device’s cone and set the thing in place, and there, he gave it a small crank. It crackled hoarsely to life, finding its voice despite age and grime. KJ smiled, his pleasure evident enough, as the music began to trickle forth.
Catching himself, however, he allowed it to fade, but he looked up to meet Kincade’s eye. “You really don’t know much this means.”
Kincade listened and nodded along. It was true, people did form funny attachments, but that wasn’t really their own style. Things were plenty transient in their life, which suited Kincade just fine. They appreciated what they had while they had it, but had no great trouble letting it go later. That was true of almost everything and everyone, with a few specific exceptions.
“I think it depends on the person. I don’t have any funny attachments to most things, and not to these. They’re all yours to get attached to all you want, I don’t mind. I think it’s because I find so many things, you know? If I made little attachments like that, I’d- I’d be a hoarder!” Thankfully that danger had never been real. Kincade had learned very quickly to let go, even where most children tended to collect trinkets and treasures like crows and ravens.
The question about the book peached their interest and Kincade had to pause for a second as he put the record on the player. “White with a black dot, huh? I can’t say it sounds familiar, but I do have a ton of old books, so I might be mis-remembering. I can show you where I keep them if you want to have a look. I actually just finished shelving a big haul I found a couple weeks back.”
Carefully, KJ cranks up the record player and Kincade gently settles the stylus on the outer edge of the record. The sound that pours forth is a bit crackly with age, the sound almost tinny, but it still rings true. Haunting, distant voices belong to people they will never know call and repeat a work song about losing love on the rail line. He listens to all the records he gets, and this was a favorite.
The emotion KJ levels at them is earnest and true, even Kincade can tell that. Still, they accept it easily without any awkwardness or discomfort, only a warm, welcome smile. “Of course,” they respond, “it’s no big deal. Sounds like it works, which is good news! I don’t know if I believe all that carrot business, but if it’s true, I’m glad it dangled this for me. Seems like a good fit.”
After another pause, Kincade perks up. “Oh yeah, the books! Here, they’re just over on that shelf.” They pop around the counter and point to a neighboring bookshelf, one they’d restored themselves some years ago. It’s not packed with books, but there are quite a number, most of them cloth- or leather-bound without any dust jackets.
“Most of these are old occult tomes, but there are some old or rare prints of major literature here, too. Jane Eyre, Anna Karenina, War and Peace, Scarlet Letter, Sea Wolf, Ivanhoe, Scarlet Pimpernel... There’s more I’m sure, but those are the ones I remember from the last pile. Feel free to have a look, see if this place dangles you any carrots.”
rhyslovespopcorn:
Rhys nodded, because when people said they hadn’t heard of something before, or weren’t familiar with it, that meant that Rhys had to explain it to them, or at least try his best to make the situation more… palpable… was that what people said?
“It’s like ADHD, the attention disorder, but then… I think for grown ups, in a sense. Mostly kids have ADHD, which regularly is like not being able to pay attention, having bad time management, getting distracted easily by sounds or lights or smells. And then also paying too much attention… or at least that’s what it like for me,” he explained.
“I have meds for it and I drink coffee to focus, but sometimes I can get side-tracked, and like… read wikipedia till 3 am, or read several books in a row. I used to play games all night because I completely lost track of time.”
He grinned. Hoping he was giving the right idea.
His smile was still bright after he made Kincade laugh. That was nice.
“That does sound like fun!” he said, nodding along.
He loved puzzles, and as long as it was even a little connected, Rhys would continue reading.
Instead of shaking his head, he simply bit his teeth together.
“Why don’t you think there is something you can aspire to be here?” he asked.
“Maybe I should shoot movies!”
Rhys did like to make up stories, especially when he had been younger his whole room had been littered by tiny lego towns. His bed was always the sea, and sometimes he would sleep on the ground because the sea story was too wonderful to disturb.
Something about the way Rhys was explaining it tickled Kincade’s brain, though they couldn’t quite put their finger on why. It sounded... well mostly like what Kincade thought people functioned like. Who wasn’t a bit distracted at times? Or got into the groove reading something? It didn’t sound all that weird to noteworthy to Kincade, especially with kids. As kids, they’d been easily distracted and excited, though too many teachers seemed to think Kincade was too loud even though they’d been no louder than any other student. Then again, if Rhys had to be medicated for it, maybe it was serious. Kincade made a mental note to look it up later, but didn’t want to press too much now.
Thinking on Rhys’ question, they considered carefully why they’d never aspired to higher goals. “I guess I just... I never thought I’d leave town. I never thought I’d be without my parents. Thinking past that didn’t seem that... necessary? I figured it would work itself out. And it did, I guess, for better or for worse.”
Suddenly unbearably thirsty from the popcorn, Kincade reached into their bags of groceries for one of the bottles of juice, popping it open for a long drink. “What would you should movies about I wonder? What sorts of topics interest you?”
behrooz-najm:
Bez smiled. “Sure, hot chocolate works too, or tea, honestly, I’ll go for the tea, it’s rare that I drink any tea in this country unless it is the absolute fanciest.” They grinned. “With lots of sugar and milk, that is.” They felt light, and in their lightness, no words seemed to be too much, no sharing seemed to be questionable. Mostly, with everything that had transpired between them in one quick walk, Bez was mostly just glad to be out. They had always battled with a fear of being all the little parts of them in front of others. Some more visible than others, some that were expected of them. They had always been forced to identify as something, it was always made to be something others held them accountable for. It was why it was so easy to be open about it, because it was a defense mechanism.
A defense mechanism to get the bad people away from them, and the good ones near. To make sure they knew what they could expect from people.
Actual understanding was rare however. Bonding over something like that was even rarer. Bez wanted to bask in it for a moment, but the library’s shadow fell over them, cutting off the sun, and Kincade reminded them of information. They picked up their notebook and flipped back to the page. “Miguel Matias.”
“The fanciest tea, huh? Is it much different there than here? And with all the sugar and milk, does it even matter? Does it not just taste like sugar and milk at that point?” Kincade was mostly joking, tone light, but there was a level of earnest curiosity hidden in their playful tone. Kincade drank plenty of tea, but it was all fruity stuff they ordered online. Stuff that nearly tasted like melted popsicles to drink.
“Miguel Matias...” Kincade rolled the name around in their head, trying to remember if it sounded familiar or not. “And what’s the time frame? Recent? Just looking for anything at all?”
Maybe they should take it more seriously, but Kincade was excited. The elation of the earlier conversation was being uplifted by the excitement for doing real research in the archives. This was shaping up to be a good day all around, Kincade’s nerves practically alight with all the positive energy. Was that a thing? Was it possible for someone to be energized by ‘good’ or ‘positive’ energies? It seemed silly, though... feeling the way Kincade felt now, maybe it wasn’t so impossible. Out of raw curiosity, they paused and turned back to Bez, practically bouncing on the balls of their feet.
“Do you feel how I feel right now? Light? Or maybe energized? Or both? Like a- like a lightening cloud or something? Oh I don’t know, maybe that’s obvious. But like, happy? This happy? I feel like I could a marathon.”
undertakerxsonny:
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Sonny offered a contemplative hum, considering this. In truth, he himself, as a rule, tended to overcomplicate. His mind was a collection of boxes, once neatly divided, but by now, his nerves frayed by the past few months, their contents had spilled over into one another, so that there was no longer any borders between what they held. “Hey, follow your dreams, huh?” He snorted, almost flippantly, as if offering Kincade an out should they have wanted it. Still, despite the remark, he managed something of a soft sigh. “I’m sure there’s some…Preservation Society folks who would be all about it, ya know? Maybe recruit them. They got all kinds of connections to high society people with the money to spend.”
And bouncing a bit on his heels, Sonny gave a short nod. He laughed. “I dunno if I count as a local artist. You ought to find a real one, ya know?” He clicked his tongue before trailing off. “I guess happy stories don’t get told around campfires, though, do they? No one sits around rememberin’ how nice a person’s life was and shit. Maybe that’s why I can’t even think of one happy Pleasance story. Even my uncle. Sorta that ‘started from the bottom, underdog businessman’ thing. Had to be a goddamn funeral home. Couldn’t be a candy factory or something, could it?”
He flashed his teeth. “I mean, believe it or not we don’t just…well, you know. There are a lot of rules and regulations you gotta follow,” he explained with an easy shrug before breaking into an appreciative chuckle. “Yeah, cremains is the preferred vernacular. But…uh, sure. They go in mausoleums. That’s just, well, a buildin’ that houses a tomb. Or tombs. These littles one probably got one person in ‘em. Sometimes more. Family crypts. Expensive.” Saying this, he gestured at a row of rotting, gray structures some ways away. “But the big central building is where…more recent folks tend to go.” He spoke hesitantly, as if trying to smooth the macabre details of his profession.
Turning back, Sonny raised his brow. “Well, sometimes it depends on the person’s religion. There’s some faiths that don’t really like cremation. Catholic bein’ one of ‘em until pretty recently, go figure.” He gestured at himself. “What makes you think you’re guy was cremated?”
That was a good point, one Kincade hadn’t considered. They figured it was the sort of thing you saved for, but if they knew anything about the word ‘endowment’ it was probably for museums and schools. It never occurred to Kincade that there might be community support for such a thing, let alone financial support. Though the thought was cynical, it seemed that financial help might be even more likely if the message of a museum about Pleasance was more on the positive side of things. Maybe such a thing really was possible. Alby had been generous hiring Kincade earlier, perhaps the same generosity could find it’s way to a project about the local history.
“I guess that depends on how you define art, you know? I could find someone who calls themselves an artist and hate their work, while someone who doodles for fun has something incredible. Let other people decide if they like your art, if they think you’re an artist.” Kincade chewed the inside of their lip for a second, contemplative as the idea slowly took form. “I think what counts as happy is a matter of perspective. Maybe a funeral home is sad, but maybe it’s also happy. To give people rest and peace, you know? I think it all depends on how you tell the story, where you find the happy.”
As Sonny carried on, Kincade listened patiently, trying to make mental notes in their head. “The whole death thing is quite complicated, isn’t it?” Though Kincade realizes suddenly they’ve never had to deal with death, not really. It’s existed around, sure, they know what funerals are, has seen them from afar. But it’s not the same as knowing death, knowing someone who’s died. Before Kincade had the time to think about it too hard, though, the conversation moved on.
“Oh, it’s um-” It seemed maybe not great to say out loud. Suspicious circumstances and all. Then again, if anyone would know, it was this man. “There was, uh, a head wound. Pretty... pretty severe head wound that caused the death. I don’t... I don’t think maybe it would have been an open casket, if you see what I mean. Right?”
do you ever read way too much into something and get your feelings hurt and it’s like for the love of god are we really doing this again
ft. @kincadedonnelly
keyders:
The years haven’t made it easier. He’s just more used to it now. So are his friends, his colleagues. They don’t ask why, they’re not supposed to. They’ll take him out for drinks, he’ll have a Shirley Temple or something in a glass that doesn’t make it look like he’s not drinking, and if they buy him enough of those, he’ll tell them. And the more he talks about it, the less he has to feel ashamed for having to talk about it in the first place.
None of that matters now. Not when Kincade is the one asking the questions. It’s like his first day all over again.
He shakes his head, first to make sure that he can actually move now. Second to refuse Kincade answers because they don’t get to ask. They don’t get to act all concerned, to touch him like that, like it hasn’t been years since-
This time, his entire upper body follows his head, hitting Kincade’s torso as he goes limp.
From a distance, one could easily mistake the scene for someone helping out their drunk friend try to stomach the mid-day drinking he’s been doing. But he does come to - sobering up as it were - almost immediately and weakly tries to push himself off of Kincade. Partly because his strength hasn’t completely returned. Mostly, because it’s been ten years since he’s been able to get this close to them.
He’s usually quick to recover and carry on with his day until the next attack. But sitting just a couple of feet away from where his father, who was alive until only months ago, is laid to rest and inches away from where his best friend who, while very much alive, has been dead to him for ten years, maybe he can give himself just the one break.
“Can you… I need to lie down, please.” He doesn’t look at Kincade even as he makes the request, already shifting on the seat, not realizing how his fingers are wrapped around Kincade’s forearm like a life preserver. “I need to lie down.”
Though there’s nothing quite so obvious to inspire their growing panic, Kincade still feels a sense of dread not dissimilar to the night their parents disappeared. Something is wrong, even if Kincade can’t say what. Though they know they’re not allowed to care anymore, it doesn’t stop the sudden return of a longing and familiarity they hadn’t felt in years, twisted up with the growing worry in their gut. This wasn’t the time to parse unintelligible emotions, but it hurt to be reminded what Kincade still felt even after so many years.
Consideration of such trivial matters is made even less important as Tan tilts into them, body suddenly going slack like a dead weight. Kincade wastes no time snaking their arms around the familiar body flagging against their chest, absorbing the weight of the other with only some effort. Perhaps moving all that furniture had paid off after so many years, though holding Tan up isn’t exactly easy, either. He’s certainly not so light as his dog.
It’s with some mixture of concern and annoyance that Kincade realizes Tan is trying to push away when he’s clearly not ready. Still, Kincade doesn’t make any effort to restrain him, only continuing to remain in intimate proximity just in case they need to catch him again. It’s a small blessing that Kincade is wearing a jacket when Tan grips their forearms, or else the touch might feel too personal, too familiar. It occurs to Kincade that they don’t remember the last they embraced Tan like this, if ever. They remember being held, but that’s- that’s not a thought for this moment.
Quiet and careful as ever, Kincade only nods and gently leads Montana to recline on the bench, supporting his weight as they guide him. Unwilling to consider it too much, Kincade bravely and thoughtlessly lets their hand slide around the back of Tan’s neck, their other arm holding his waist to stabilize him and they guide him to lay on the bench. When satisfied that Tan won’t fall over or off, Kincade is quick to tug off their jacket and ball it up as a makeshift pillow, lifting Tan’s head again to slide it under. Their fingers glide so smoothly through his soft hair, feeling the warmth of his scalp, though it becomes just another observation Kincade promptly ignores. Their panic is still high and tight in their chest, but they haven’t uttered another word until now.
“Tan? What’s happening?”
hunter--davis:
“Not usually, but sometimes if they’re being exceptionally rude to me.” He quips, playful grin on his face. He hopes that the fact that he’s joking is obvious from his tone, he would never actually do something like that. Unless he had a death wish or wanted to be fired and he currently doesn’t desire either of those things. “Jokes aside though, I don’t do that. No matter how rude the customer is I don’t tamper with their food.” Hunter veers to the left subconsciously, not really paying attention to where he’s going.
He’s walked this path home so many times that his feet tend to move without him thinking, they know the way. He doesn’t have to think about where he’s going anymore, it’s just second nature at this point. This is good for when he gets lost in thought or is so tired that he just zones out on the way home. “Oh really? That sounds pretty cool, I wouldn’t have expected that. You have a wide variety of stuff or something?” Given that Hunter’s never been to the antique shop, he doesn’t know what kinds of things they would have. He imagines it’s mostly old, second-hand items, but their could be some neat stuff as well. It might be a good place to look if you like vintage things, or if you specifically want something from a different time period. “That sounds like a nice job, nicer than mine anyway.”
Kincade snickered, unexpectedly enjoying the easy conversation. “That’s noble of you. You must have a lot of patience, patience I guess I don’t have.” As their trajectory rapidly changes, Kincade turns to follow suit, hurrying a smidge just to keep up. They’re officially off the route on the way to Kincade’s place, not that Kincade minds much. It’s good to explore and maybe they aren’t the most familiar with this part of their own neighborhood as they should be.
“Yeah, I have all kinds of stuff! I don’t know, I guess I- I just find it, you know? I pick stuff up all over the place, clean it up or refurbish it. Every now and then I keep something really cool but usually I don’t feel- I don’t get attached, you know? Not much of a collector, I guess. I guess the only drag about the store is the hours. I’m not exactly busy, but I just- I have a hard time staying inside in one place all day, you know? It’s nice, but when it’s slow I always want to close the store and head out. Bad way to do business, though.” That reminded Kincade, they really ought to search for an employee. They’d had the idea for a while, but never managed to actually follow up on the idea. There were surely laws and regulations they would have to research and understand, let alone actually posting the information and finding someone and hiring them. It was... a bit of a headache, perhaps. Maybe that’s why they’d never gotten around to it.