Adventures of dating Older men

[kitachu]

Why do I always fall for the men that want to have a casual relationship?

[kitachu]

The week before my period is literally my greatest enemy cause why am I always crying???? 😭😭

[kitachu]

He says he "likes me" and "wants a relationship with me" yet he never makes the effort to reach out first. I really don't know what to make of the hot and cold. When we start texting after I reach out, we have the most seamless, funny, flirty conversations.

[kitachu]

Good god, I want his attention so much.

[kitachu]

It hurts and it's pathetic why did I though ANYONE would want to be with me? Am I that horrible?

[kitachu]

I'm an idiot. Why should I have thought he gave a fuck about me? Only constant messages and flirting obviously that means nothing.

[kitachu]

I always go for someone I know it won't work with because I'm scared of what the heartbreak would feel like with someone real.

[kitachu]

Being surrounded by people and yet, feel alone.

[kitachu]

Why does it feel lonelier and lonelier each year that passes by?

[kitachu]

How can he say he loves me and then discards me the day after?

[kitachu]

I want to message him... But I know nothing good would come of it just more lies and more disappointment

[kitachu]

I just need a win.....

[kitachu]

My heart hurts so fucking much when I think of him. I hate that I can see his face and his smile and feel his hugs and warmth

[kitachu]

Sometimes all I can think about is escaping to Italy and changing my identity or better yet getting pushed on the tracks :)

[kitachu]

I should have learned by now the price of being with an older man is heart break.

[kitachu]

I was fine before you came along and ruined it.

[kitachu]

Saying " I love you" appearently means nothing these days...