CHEERS TO ALL THE PAIN

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Guess i’ll never be able to tell you how I feel.

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It is hard to let go of the past when that is the only memory you have left with that person.

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It’s been awhile, Tumblr. :)

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Bright light on a summer night.

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Wish you were here.

I’ll be graduating soon, just a few days left and I’m almost there. Finally, all my parents hardships for me has finally paid off. I just wish that Dad is personally here to see my success, but that is impossible. He’s with God now. I know he’d be the happiest person for what I have achieved. I know that you are just up there Dad, watching us. God knows how much I love you and miss you so so bad. I hope I made you and Mom proud.

P.S: Please let me feel that you are there on my graduation day. I love you.

[fxckinghxgs]

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It has been awhile since I’ve posted here. A lot of ups and downs happened to my life this past few months and it still is happening. Maybe the reason why I’m writing right now is that I am hoping it would help lessen (even just a bit) the pain or the grief I’m feeling. Well, I actually don’t know. I’m confused, i’m so confused right now. I just don’t know how to get back up again. Yes, I know that people see me having this strong personality, but no. At the end of the day, I just wan’t to be at home, be alone and just cry. I wan’t to cry! I wanted to cry but I can’t and it feels awful not having to cry because I feel so heavy inside me! I want this to burst out! I wanted to let the pain go but i can’t. This pain reminds me that he exist. :(

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EVERYDAY

Hi Dad, how are you up there? It’s been almost 4 months now since you left. Yet, it feels like yesterday. I’m trying my best to be strong, Dad. But the feeling is to painful that sometimes I just want to be weak, but no, I know you don’t want that.

Everyday, I wish that it was just a dream, that I hope tomorrow when I wake up, you’re the first person i’ll be seeing.

But everyday, I realize that it was not a dream, that this is real. That the pain is real.

And then everyday, I keep on asking myself “why?

And everyday, I cry for you, for I know to the fact that you’re not coming back.

Everyday, I MISS YOU and that EVERYDAY i’ll continue LOVING YOU from here to there.

Sincerely,

Your daughter

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I still cry. I still do and I can't stop. I cry before going to bed. I cry when I'm alone. I cry in every thing that reminds me of you. I cry because I wasn't there when you where suffering. I cry because when I touch you for the last time, you were cold. No warmth. I cry and I cry and I cry and I cry for I am too late. And lastly, I cry for I miss you so much, Dad.

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I keep on telling myself everythings gonna be alright. I keep on asking God a strenght for this is what we need. I keep on thinking. I keep on worrying. I keep on praying, wishing and begging for Dads' fast recovery. I love you Dad, more than you know. Please, please get well soon for us. We'll be home soon. I love you.

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I just want to cry myself to sleep. 😞

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I'm on my downfall

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Thoughts of you.

It's getting deeper, deeper than a black hole. My mind is trapped inside, It gets harder to decide. Drowning with thoughts of you, wondering how to get through. Heart is pounding, Mind is aching, 'Cause I'm hoping, hoping, that there could be something. -KB.

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Love In A Vine

Like beautiful roses from afar. But when touched, bleeds the broken heart. It may deceive you with its beauty But its thorns will leave you painfully. It may seem that everything's fine Of a love that grew in a vine. -K.

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Yes it consumes you. It consumes your whole body, your system. It makes you weaker and weaker from day to day as it takes every part of your soul until nothing is left of it.

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To my guy friend

I thought I just like you. But now, I don't know what to feel. It feels like my feeling's getting deeper and deeper for you. I don't know if this is still right, you are my friend and I don't want to ruin what we had as friends. Sometimes, I think that I should keep distance from you 'cause it feels like whenever I'm near you, i feel really different. I started getting jealous which I once don't feel. I'm starting to care, more than a friend cares.