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Mindfulness

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Food Diary Monday, 26 August 2019

Breakfast:

2 Weetabix with milk

Honey lemon tea

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I’ve got a serious problem with being appreciative of what I have.

I realise that I’m never really 100% happy wherever I am. When I’m in UK, I wish I had access to certain things that I had in SG. When I’m in SG, I wish I was in UK.

Now part A is soon coming to a close, most people would feel relieved. But I’m just worrying about what’s coming next. Worrying what I’ll do if I fail, worrying what I should do in this free chunk of time I have, worrying what I’m going to do when I go back to UK for Christmas.

I worry so much and I compare myself to others so much that it makes me so unhappy and I want to stop doing it.... I’m constantly thinking about what’s next but why can’t I just be happy with where I am now? I have a roof over my head and family/boyfriend who loves me and extremely privileged compared to most people in this world.

So I guess I have to learn to take advantage of whatever privilege I have and learn to enjoy the moment... whatever that happens next, it’s probably not going to be the end of the world. I did a yoga youtube video today and the woman said that you can’t control the things that happen to you and basically just saying to only control the things that you can control (sounds like common sense, but it’s sometimes difficult to see common sense) so that shall be my mantra now and hopefully it sticks

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Ahhh if only I had the courage to.

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Leave your insecurities and ego at the door, and don't take constructive criticism personally.

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it’s such a weird feeling - feeling homesick when you’re already at home

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When you share you learn about the other person, what they like or what they don't like. When you share you always have to consider the other person just as much as you consider yourself, and that is what love is all about. Love is about giving a part of yourself to the other person, love is about always thinking about your partner's feelings when you make a decision, love is about agreeing together on one thing that makes you both happy, and you will practice all those things when you share who you are, what you want, and even what you eat with the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.

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how lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so difficult

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Here's problem two of the week: how do I stop wanting to instinctively hurt those who have hurt me even if done unintentionally?

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To tell your significant other when you're mad

Feeling damn sian that I can't sleep. And it just has to be on the night before my first day of attachment AND a TC interview. Seriously. This is something that I debate and struggle a lot internally with. I know what irritates me, what makes me annoyed and what I don't like. Like I know I fucking HATE being tickled under my armpits (LOL but seriously no I hate it. My first instinct whenever I'm tickled there would be to punch or kick the person REALLY hard. Or inflict corresponding pain on said person.) And I HATE being told that someone will do something and then not do it. Sure they may seem like petty things to people and may not make much sense but they are essentially things that I dislike. The problem is whether to tell your significant other that they're doing something which you know makes you upset but it's also a very insignificant thing to be upset about??? On one hand communication is key and if you don't tell them then they'll never know and it might happen again. And if you tell your SO then they know and they may be open to not doing it again or at least try not to do said things again. But at the same time you think it's also a very stupid thing to be upset about so then you tell yourself to stop being lame and to suck it up and give yourself time to get over it. But then you (or at least I do) keep thinking about it and mulling over it and contemplate sending passive aggressive messages so that your SO gets the hint that you're annoyed about something. And then the constant obsession eventually drives you crazy and you turn to your friends and tumblr to vent your frustration. Hopefully this post was sufficient to tide me through the night and day.

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‘if we’ve only got this life in this adventure then I want to share it with you’

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bought my ticket to the uk without the approval of my parents, because i felt like it was ridiculous that i am 22 and still have to seek my parents’ approval to do something

please let this relationship be worth it 

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You can be in a relationship for two years and feel nothing; you can be in a relationship for 2 months and feel everything. Time is not a measure of quality; of infatuation, or of love.

What my relationships have taught me. (via light-another-one)

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Then you will realize that real love isn’t just a euphoric, spontaneous feeling—it’s a deliberate choice—a plan to love each other for better and worse, for richer and poorer, in sickness and in health. Of course, you don’t choose who you’re attracted to, but you definitely choose who you fall in love with and (more importantly) who you stay in love with.

http://sethadamsmith.com/2014/10/13/i-plan-on-loving-my-wife/ (via kittensoncrack)

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27 sept 2016

today wasn’t particularly a hard day; but why do i feel so crap? maybe because it was just meh, and time seems to be just crawling by when i want it to be zooming past. 

I miss mike. I miss looking into his eyes and kissing his face. I miss his apartment and watching netflix on his sofa in our routine position. I miss us cooking dinners together, going to sleep in his arms and waking up in the same bed. All I can think about every single day is going back for christmas and that moment where we meet at the airport and I get to be with him again. 

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wherever you are in the world, i want to be there too

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stuff to watch

Movies:

Spotlight

Bridge of Spies

Brooklyn

Man Up

Becoming Jane

Point Break

The Danish Girl

Movies that are on netflix:

A testament of youth

Tracks

Twinsters

Lost in translation

The Luncbox

X + Y

Still Alice

Narcos

TV shows to watch:

Game of Thrones Season 6

Making a murderer

Peaky Blinders

House of Cards - tried one ep and not really feeling it....

Downton Abbey

The Amazing Race 28

Unbreakable kimmy schmidt 

Stranger things

Marco Polo