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I just wanted to give you an update. Unfortunately I don't plan on coming back to writing any time soon. I will not delete the account, the blog will just remain inactive until maybe someday I'll decide to return.
Last months were awfully hard. I was diagnosed with depression, luckily I'm on meds and therapy and it's getting better, thou I had to find new ways of coping and writing is just not one of them for now. I focus on myself more and try to take care of and love myself the best I can.
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Thank you for sending this message - I'm good, popping in here from time to time although I don't think I'll be coming back to writing anytime soon, maybe someday...
"In my culture, death is not the end. it's more of a stepping off point. You reach out with both hands and Bast and Sekhmet, they lead you into a green veld where... you can run forever."
Fandom: The Hobbit
Pairing: Kili x dwarf!reader
Genres: fluff
Words: 1.540
Summary: Kili is secretly admiring you since the beginning of the quest. One evening, after teaching the Company kick-boxing, you stumble upon a great discovery - requested by Anonymous.
Fortunately, although Thorin wished to move as fast as possible, you somehow manager to convince him that the break is needed. The Company was going quick and you all were keen to arrive at Erebor swiftly, however the journey started to take its toll on all of you.
You were accustomed to hardship. As the only dwarrowdam among your sibling you had to learn how to fight and protect yourself as soon as possible. Your brothers taught you well and let you use them as practice bags.
You loved adventures and travelling so in one small town you saw something called kick boxing. The men were not convinced that “a tiny lady” like yourself should be learning it but you were fast to assure them that you could handle it.
And you surely did.
Offering your services as a kind of protector and Oin’s apprentice, you persuaded Thorin to join him in no time. He needed as much help as he could get.
Also, once in a while you were training the boys much to their excitement.
“Y/N,” Fili calls as you help Bofur seeting up the camp for tonight.
“Yes?”
“Will you train us after supper? I wonder if I can win this time!”
“You tell this every time and yet the lass beats you. Aren’t you sick of gettin’ your arse kicked?” Bofur jests, winking at you. He doubted your skills once. You proved him wrong as you sent him to the ground in a blink of an eye.
“No! I will not have my arse kicked tonight!”
“We shall see, Fili…” you muse and the golden haired dwarf frowns.
“So it’s a yes?”
“It’s a yes. Challenge accepted.”
________
“Kili, if you don’t make a move tonight, I will harm you, I swear. I can’t allow to be beaten again.”
“Oh, so you’re ashamed that Y/N is better than you?”
“No! And she’s not better than me! She just knows this kick-boxing more than I!”
“Right, Fili. I will do something. I promise.”
“You already promised like a hundred times. I don’t believe you,” Fili glares at his brother and shakes his head.
“What?” Kili glances at you from the other end of the camp. You chat with Oin, pointing at some herbs in his hands. On Kili’s face a smile appears, fond and warm.
“Mahal, you’re hopeless…”
“Fili!”
“Don’t deny it, little brother.”
“I know…” Kili sighs. “I’m just scared she would reject me. And then I would have to deal with laughs and mocking for the rest of the journey. The rest would not let it go…”
“Or maybe you wouldn’t have to deal with all that. I think Y/N likes you. You might have a chance. A small one, but still…”
Kili nods. Fili’s right. It’s time for a move.
_________
“Alright, little lion. Your turn!” you taunt as Fili takes off his jacket and vest.
“No need to be harsh, Y/N. You’ve already taken down Nori, Dwalin and Thorin.”
“And I’m about to take down you as well. Ready?”
“Aye!”
You take a position, waiting for Fili’s move. You’ve learnt that he, just as the most of the members of the Company, is restless and has little patience. Except for
Thorin. There were time when he out waited you easily.
Fili starts to round you but you remain unaffected. He’s predictable – most likely he will pretend to advance at you, but you are prepared.
As he nears you, you turn around and kick him lightly on left knee. He loses balance but quickly gathers himself.
You hear a cheer from the rest. You look at them quickly but much to your surprise there is no sight of Kili among them.
Weird, usually he’s in the first row, clapping loudly at your every little success.
You focus on Fili. Maybe Kili got bored? He’s full of energy yet he never attempted to fight with you, although he always watches. Once or twice you caught his gaze outside of trainings and you must admit it was flattering.
Even though you would never dream of being Kili’s love interest. Yes, you may have a crush on him. Yes, he’s nice and funny and kind and sweet, but he is a prince and you’re only Oin’s apprentice and very good at kick-boxing. You doubted Thorin would approve…
“Ouch!” you exclaim as Fili’s leg lands on your right arm, kicking you out of stupor. You let down your guard and he used it perfectly.
“Oh, no, Y/N…” Fili mumbles but you wave a hand.
“It’s fine. Good job. But I think the training’s over.”
“Sure, right.”
“I’m gonna take a bath. No peeking!” you announce loudly as you grab your towel and head towards a lake in the forest.
What’s happening to you? You never allowed your feelings or side-thoughts break your focus during trainings. You hoped he’d watch as you finally won with Dwalin. Sure, he saw how good you were, how Fili or Thorin never managed to beat you but it was nice to know he would be there to witness.
You wanted to impress him. Over and over again, so he could think that you’re worth.
“No, no, no, I can’t…”
You stop in your tracks. There a distant voice coming from your right but you cannot see anybody. Obviously, you will not start calling out because there is a chance that it’s nobody from the Company.
Quiet as a mouse, you tiptoe your way towards the noise.
“Y/N…” your heart stops for a moment and you’re sure you’ve been spotted. But the voice continues.
“You’re an amazing lass… no, a dwarrowdam, that’s better,” the unknown talker clears his throat and you manage to sneak closer.
Your eyes widen as you recognize Kili. His back is turned at you and as of now he hasn’t noticed you yet. But what is he doing?
“I was wondering if you would… ah, Kili, be more brave! I would be happy, well, sure I would if she said yes… oh I’m rambling…” he moans and tugs on a sleeve of his jacket. He is evidently struggling with something.
And you, you have yet to connect the dots…
“How do I say it? I like you? It’s not good enough… or, I would like to ask you if you’d allow me to court you? Y/N’s special, I need to do more than that…”
And then, it hits you. Kili is practicing for you…
You gasp, loud enough for Kili to abruptly turn and look around.
“Fili, is that you?!”
You hide behind a tree and put a hand over your mouth. Should you go to him and most likely cause him terrible embarrassment? Or should you pretend like you’re not here and try to withdraw? But then again, you were supposed to take a bath, the boys would figure out something’s not right and start asking questions…
“Fee, come out! I know Y/N kicked your arse and you’re mad at me, but I can’t do it! I don’t know what to tell her…”
You close your eyes and take a deep breath. Go out or go away?
Kili groans quietly and you realize that he feels exactly like you. Insecure, not good enough, confused.
Well, why dwell on this when you can go and fix it?
You step out from the tree and call out his name.
Kili freezes, his face pale, his eye wide and gaze terrified.
You try to smile but you know it doesn’t look great or reassuring.
“Ho-how much did you hear?” Kili stutters, blinking rapidly, not knowing where to look.
“Uhm…”
“Nevermind, I’ll just go and hide under a rock or something…”
“No! Please, stay!”
“Why?” he asks with his brows knitted.
“There’s something I wanted to tell you.”
“Oh, okay.”
“I, uhm… I like you, too,” you manage to mumble as you glance at Kili shyly.
At first, he’s obviously surprised. In his wildest dreams, he never thought you would say this. Of course, he hoped for it, but still – he was more prepared for rejection than for reciprocation.
“Really?!” he lets out, beaming with joy.
“Yes, Kili, really. I just thought you didn’t like me that way.”
“Oh, I do! I very much like you, Y/N! You’re so wonderful, strong and wise,” he takes a few steps towards you so he could face you. Slowly, he takes your hand in his still shaking palms. “You’re my dream gal. And I would be very honored if you allowed me to court you.”
You smile fondly at him as you nod your head.
“I allow, Kili. A thousand times yes from me.”
Without second thoughts, Kili wraps his arms around you, rises you a little and sways around, laughing loudly. You start to giggle and swat his arm.
“Put me down, I’m getting dizzy!”
“Alright. Now, I reckon you were going for a bath.”
“True.”
“Mind if I keep an eye so nobody comes peeking?”
“I mind. I’d rather you join me.”
“Oh, that I like more, Y/N.”
“I bet you do,” taking his hand, you start leading the way to the lake.
Obviously, announcing your courtship can wait. After all, firstly you need to have a little celebration with your dwarf.
Hi, sorry to hear that you're getting so much hate from people who really don't have anything better to do with their time. Be unapologetic, write what you love, and consider turning off anon asks and blocking those people who has nothing better to do than harass strangers online. Your writing is great, and you're way better than people whose main 'contribution' to fandom consists of posting whiny rants and tearing others down. Keep on writing! I love your work!
Thank you for the support, darling <3
And, as a matter of fact, I will turn off anon asks for a while. I suppose that situation caused a major writing block and well, I admit I did feel guilty and doubted my skills.
Can I have Thorin x Reader fluff? Reader is in high-school and is always asking Thorin for help on work and stuff. (Like, I'm in highschool, but where I live I'm at the age of consent to legally be dating an adult.) She ends up having a massive crush on him. She ends up telling him because they get too strong? Please and thanks.
Hey, love.
I do not write for Modern!AUs, so sorry but I will not write your request.
Fandom: Star Wars
Pairing: Han Solo x reader
Genres: fluff, some angst
Words: 1.410
Summary: You’re a bounty hunter, sent after Han. However, your meeting takes an unexpected twist - requested by @jediknightobi
Tatooine. If you had a choice you would never put your feet on this planet ever again. It was hot and it had sand everywhere.
And you don’t like sand.
However, your client lives here and because your client pays you handsomely you will not mention that you hate his home planet.
Orik had contacted you few days earlier to tell you that he had a job for you. And that he would be very grateful if you’d come without delay, as soon as possible.
Of course, you would. You needed the money.
Being a bounty hunter had it perks. You had no boss and you could take those contracts you liked and were sure you would successfully close. Obviously, there were times when you had problems with money but you always found a way to afford food.
With a grimace of slight disgust you enter the pub. It’s stuffy and stinky but Orik set a meeting here and you don’t have much to say. Somehow, he favoured this pub over his own house. Although, given how Orik looked and smelled you could imagine that the pub was truly a better choice.
Orik was an awfully fat, worm-looking, smelly and frankly disgusting kind of customer. You’d learnt that those paid the most as if they were adding a credit of two for dealing with their appearance and smell.
You take a sit at a most secluded and shadowy part of the pub and wait for Orik. He’s always late. You don’t order anything – everything here tastes like crap.
As you wait for him, you start to wonder how difficult this task will be. you sure hope he won’t send you after some real troublemaker as it sometimes happened in the past. Of course, you did take the job but ended up hurt or forced to lay low for a while.
You hear the door open and few moments later Orik sits opposite you with a drink in his hands.
“Hello”, you mutter trying not to look resentful.
“Y/N”, he says fondly and your stomach involuntarily tightens. It doesn’t sound nice. “How lovely of you to come so quickly.”
“You know I respect my regular customers.”
He chuckles.
“Now, what’s the deal?”
“So eager…” Orik shakes his head, “there is a man that I don’t like.”
“Nothing unusual,” you smirk.
“He owns me money. A lot of money. I want it back.”
“You want me to bring him in unharmed?”
“Well… he could be a bit touched. But nothing too extreme.”
“How soon?”
“As soon as possible. No necessary delay.”
You nod. “So, half now, half after I bring him to you?”
“Yes. And if you bring him very quick, I will pay some extra credits.”
“Alright. His details?”
“Name’s Han Solo. Young. Seen with a wookie.”
“Ouuu, this makes it a bit harder.”
“Don’t worry. The price is high enough to compensate the possible difficulties.”
“But you don’t need that wookie, do you?”
“Naah, just Han. My boys will make sure that wookie doesn’t make any trouble afterwards.”
“Sure.”
Orik slides a pouch with credits towards you. You take it and hide into your pocket.
“I’ll get to work then. You know where he was seen last?”
“Jakku.”
Well, on your way, then.
_____
Finding a male target was always easier for you. With females you usually had to think of very detailed plan but with males? Wear something nice, pretend to look impressed, listen and compliment his courage and intelligence and soon enough you had your bird in a cage.
Your plan doesn’t differ now. When you arrived at Jakku – another desert, great! – you found a place in some cheap inn and quickly refreshed and dressed up. You did you hair, put some jewelry on and went out to the most popular pub, counting on finding Solo here.
Orik provided you with an image of the man. Under other circumstances, you might find the man attractive although arrogant.
The only worry you have is that wookie. Despite popular opinions, those are not dumb creatures. And they’re damn strong. Stronger than what you can handle.
But maybe, just maybe, you could lure Han out without the wookie…
You sit at the bar, sipping a drink, looking around for your target. You didn’t ask if anybody saw him not to draw too much attention to yourself. You’re just a girl who’s looking for someone to spend evening with.
You hear murmurs and so you turn your head around to see what’s going on. First you see a wookie and then comes in the one you’re looking for.
Han Solo.
And damn, he’s more handsome in real life.
You bite on your lip and turn to look forward. No need to show him you’re interested just yet.
However, he must have noticed that you glanced as he walks to sit next to you.
“Hey,” he says and you feel a little tingle at the sound of his voice.
“Hi,” you reply and look at him with a slight smile. He smirks back.
“How a girl like you ended up in a place like this?”
“I’m just lookin’ for some fun tonight, that’s all.”
“Oh, fun you say…” he orders himself a drink. “Mind if I stay?”
“Not at all,” you murmur and eye him. And that’s when you see that he caught the bait.
“Haven’t you lost you wookie?”
He chuckles.
“Chewie needs a break from me. And I need some other company than him.”
“Am I this ‘other company’?”
“Do you want to?”
You turn on your seat and lean to him, placing a hand on his hip.
“What do you think, darling?”
“Han.”
“Y/N.”
“So, where to now, Y/N?”
_______
It turned out to be easier than you expected. Poor Han, he was feeling so lonely than he followed you blindly to you room and gladly did whatever you asked of him.
And just as you were about to tie him to the bed, it went terribly wrong.
In a blink of an eye, he turned you onto your back and pinned you to the bed. You were unable to move, you could only toss underneath him with no effect whatsoever.
“Who sent you?!”
“Nobody!”
“Don’t lie, I know you work for somebody.”
“How so, huh?”
“Didn’t think a bounty hunter would recognize another?”
“Well, I made sure I didn’t look like one, so you must have seen me before,” you mutter angrily and try to bite his nose. Stupid move, but only one that came to your mind.
“Stop it!” he orders as he moves his face away. He sighs. “Orik, am I right?”
“Y-yes.”
“Well, I sure hope he paid you well enough to hide for a while.”
You furrow your brows, “why?”
“He put an open contract to get you yesterday morning. I took it.”
“But he’s after you as well…”
“If I’d take you to him, maybe he’d be nice enough to forget about our… misunderstanding.”
You heave out a sigh.
“What did I do to him? I was always on time, didn’t ask questions.”
Han shrugs.
“He got bored of you, that’s all.”
You blink a few times, looking at Han towering over you. Orik wanted to get you, and the man you were after, took it upon himself to bring you to Orik. What an irony.
Or… opportunity.
“Han.”
“What?”
“Maybe we could both just not go to Orik for a while?”
“I don’t…”
“Let’s be allies.”
He laughs, rather surprised.
“What? You just met me, tried to seduce me in, I admit, very skillful way, and now you want us to travel together?”
“Maybe I fell for you and can’t imagine letting you go?” you smile seductively and Han scoffs.
“Yeah, right. But maybe I fell for you, too, because I actually think your plan is good.”
You giggle.
“See? I might be useful. I’m persuasive and such.”
He shakes his head. “And such… okay, we jump on my ship and fly off.”
“Where to?”
He shrugs again. “Surely not to Tatooine. I’ll get Chewie and we…what?”
“Nothing,” you sit up as Han lets go of you. “It’s just… what if Orik finds us?”
“We’ll deal with it. Okay, partner?” he offers you his hand and you shake it.
“Sure thing, partner,” you smile widely at him.
Surprisingly, Han leans in and kisses you passionately. You don’t pull back.
After all, it’s what you brought him here for, right?
I just discovered your blog and I've been trying to read all your LOTR work and I love all of them. But anyway, I'm sorry to hear about you and your boyfriend. I don't really know how to console people during breakups but I hope that you are okay there.
I'm sorry I've been so inactive recently - I had very eventful three weeks.
My boyfriend and I broke up. Even though he tried to be friendly, I'm still hurt.
Luckily, I've moved out and now live alone and I'm getting used to it.
Although, I've been given new duties at work that I have to focus on and I'm not sure when I'll be able to sit and write. I'm sorry. I'm just trying to deal with it all but I still need some time.
Hey. Another gay dude here. Could I possibly ask why you're not comfortable with same sex smut? Like I don't wanna seem like I'm accusing you of anything bad or anything and I like your blog so I don't wanna upset you I'm just curious.
Hi!
It’s okay, you don’t need to explain yourself, I’m not upset! I’m ready for any kind of questions you might ask me ;)
And, well… It’s simply because I’m not very experienced in that area - I’m bi so I admit I dated girls but gay sex is just something I don’t wanna mess up, and I don’t wanna give you some awful description of it.
It’s not that I am biased or I don’t accept it, I have gay friends and family members and it’s actually normal to me that you love and are attracted to who you choose, and that’s fine with me, although same sex smut it’s just that one thing that’s very not easy for me to write.
