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About me

Enki | 23 | They/it

I post about warrior cats, lioden and my OCs.

WARNING: my blog will contain occasional gore, nsfw, self harm and suggestive content. Minors please DNF.

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Oh, I forgot to announce this but I've decided to quit this blog! It'll remain up for archive purposes, though!

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What if you're on a patrol with a religious kit, and it enters a badger's den and says that if you don't accept StarClan into your heart, they'd wake up the badger? What would you do??

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The thing that pisses me off the MOST about depression is that even when your life is going perfectly fine, you will still feel miserable. I hate that I can't enjoy the little good I have. I, frankly, feel like I don't deserve to feel good anyway.

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I need to draw Irena more fr!!1! (They/them)

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I want to experiment with my rendering a little bit. 🤔🤔🤔 It's very minimalistic as of right now ans surely I could do more! Though I still can't tell if I'm happy with my art style or not. xD

I wanna represent some gritty subject matter in my art (and stop drawing the damn warrior cats!!!) but I always end up leaning towards a cutesy simple art style. Oh welllll!!! No wonder I don't feel like making art. >:-(

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Oh right, Greenstripe exists too...

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I. NEED. TO. Find more media to enjoy. Like books or games or movies or something. I've only read the first 2 arcs of Warriors and kinda gave up on the series, watched TADC but I don't feel compelled to draw the characters much and I've been watching a solid amount of classic movies recently (but these aren't really fandom bait now, are they?) and I planned to play Disco Elyisum (*properly* this time) but lost the energy to do pretty much anything so now I'm left without a fandom to draw fanart of. 🤔

I *could* draw my OCs now but I don't really care much about them + I think my style doesn't suit them at all. 😭

Anyway everynyan give me some suggestions!

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OH! I should rewatch BoJack Horseman! I have some OC x Canon (/plat tho) ideas. :-)

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I. NEED. TO. Find more media to enjoy. Like books or games or movies or something. I've only read the first 2 arcs of Warriors and kinda gave up on the series, watched TADC but I don't feel compelled to draw the characters much and I've been watching a solid amount of classic movies recently (but these aren't really fandom bait now, are they?) and I planned to play Disco Elyisum (*properly* this time) but lost the energy to do pretty much anything so now I'm left without a fandom to draw fanart of. 🤔

I *could* draw my OCs now but I don't really care much about them + I think my style doesn't suit them at all. 😭

Anyway everynyan give me some suggestions!

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I'm not sure why I get so upset at stupid kids on TikTok acting like stupid kids. 💀💀

I could make an educated guess that it's because I haven't properly left my house in 3 months and have mostly been online, but it could also be my general low tolerance for other people. Who knows!

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A thing that pisses me off on TikTok is how so called "ragebaiters" are not committed to the bit at *all*.

Someone would post a ragebait video, and then people in the comments would, in fact, take the bait, and then instead of doubling down to ragebait them even more, the original poster gets offended that the commenters didn't realise it's a "ragebait" and starts arguing with the commenters about how "they didn't read the caption that the post is ragebait!!!" Son. You didn't post a ragebait, you posted a joke. Learn your terminology. 💀💀💀💀

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That art style is le problematic diddyblud media 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 so problematic 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that artist is a PDF file serial unal1ver 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and they draw 🥺🥺🥺 pr0sh1p medias 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and l0l1c0n stuffs 🥺🥺 so problematic

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// od

Come to think of it, it's kinda crazy how my overdoses didn't leave a lasting effect on me. I had one where my body just straight up failed (like I couldn't breathe n' my limbs stopped working n shit) - nothing. NO consequences. Had a bunch where I got so sleepy I fell on the ground, couldn't communicate while I was awake. Again, nothing. Also I had tons where literally nothing happened at all. I frankly don't even remember what drugs I took lol.

That being said, I have noticed that a lot of meds don't have effect on me anymore. But, again, I have no major health issues at all.

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Oh also a funny story, one time when I od'd on some shit I got so groggy and out of it that I just straight up fell onto the ground, I managed to gold myself up and told my mom that I *need* to sleep, as in, *urgently* need to sleep, and went to sleep. She proceeded to wake me up about 6 times. So I never got enough sleep to actually have it go away. I think I ended up spending the entire day in that state because my parents just wouldn't let me sleep it off. 😭

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// od

Come to think of it, it's kinda crazy how my overdoses didn't leave a lasting effect on me. I had one where my body just straight up failed (like I couldn't breathe n' my limbs stopped working n shit) - nothing. NO consequences. Had a bunch where I got so sleepy I fell on the ground, couldn't communicate while I was awake. Again, nothing. Also I had tons where literally nothing happened at all. I frankly don't even remember what drugs I took lol.

That being said, I have noticed that a lot of meds don't have effect on me anymore. But, again, I have no major health issues at all.

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My toxic trait is instantblocking people who write warriors names Like'This or LikeThis or Like This 😭😭😭😭

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Ahhh she just like me she just like me fr (I watched ep9 finally!)

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I kind of hate how I never developed an art style so now I change it like 3-4 times a year. :-/

Just on this blog we can see a bubbly clean lineart cartoony style, then semirealistic sketchy style, and now lineless cutesy style, and I feel like none of these styles speak to who I truly am and it really bothers me...